Thursday, April 20, 2006
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-10:44 PM sigh okay i know i have abandon u for a long time so i shall come back now. after much thinking. and i did a new makeup for u ((: this time u have song too. sigh this song is so sad. nvm i saw this quiz on twinnie blog so i decided to do it so kill some time and kill some of those brainless thoughts...
1. Ur birthday? 20jan92
2. ppl have same birthday as you?
yeps! surely there are some in the world. and i know melho is one of them ((:
3. Would u rather play or watch football? watch
4. What sport would u say you're good at? eh. swimming ((: i do that since young
5. What was ur worst nightmare? being chased by MADDOG! u can ask sandy and sarah bout it.
6. Apples or oranges? APPLES ((: i eat one everyday.
7. Grapes or watermelon? WATERMELON! its my fav okay.
8. wolves or tigers? tigers la. ROAR! do they?
9. What kind of music do u listen to? anything nice and wont burst my eardrum.
10.have u ever written poetry / poem? yes. and they say its good ((: potential poet
11. Do u remember birthdays? yes. if u r important or nice to me ((:
12. do u know what time u were born? i guess so. between 12 am to 12 pm on 20 jan 92
13. Do u have a birth mark? where? yes, somewhere there on the skin ((:
4. Are you a sweet person? haha i think so. i sometimes find ants on my leg. eww...
15. What were u doing b4 u started filling this in? changing blogskin
16. What were you doing yesterday?
-eat, sleep, study, walk, drink, listening to song, breathing, looking at people, having wild thoughts etc.
17. What about today? its the same as yesterday.
18. What is ur favourite gun? if there is one that can kill brainless thinkings. if not toy will do ((:
19. Chocolate or vanilla ice-cream? CHOCOLATE. i just had one.
20. What is the first thing u notice on sum1(oppsex)?
-face? u dont look at ppl butt or wherever right?
21. What's ur fav smell? sometime nice and wont make me sneeze
22. Fave songs that u hear often? recently?
-yi shou jian dan de ge, zi wo cui mian, chu mo. i am quite saddist i think x)
23. What r u thinkin about right now? about how to answer this question.
24. What is ur fav disney movie of all time?
-disney? i like chip and dale ((: someone can be nice and do a movie on them ((:
25. What color r ur eyes? black and white ((:
26. Who was ur first crush?
-HAHA! why would i tell u. onli TWO PERSON on earth know i guess.
27. What kind of hair do u like on the opp sex? something nice la.
28. Who out of ur frens (same sex) have u known the longest?
-SANDY! since p1 ((: we are somewhat fated!
29. Sunrise or sunset? sunset. implies an end..
30. wat happened tis few days? a lot. and i have a lot of wild thoughts.
31. Movies? u can treat me if u want ((:
32. Where can u c urself goin for ur honeymoon? somewhere with WINTER ((:
33. Can u play an instrument? simple ones. i love piano though.
34. Fav storybook? sherlock holmes? that is what i like to read in past. i dont read now.
35. Do u like poetry? they are okay.
okay i finished. my mum is nagging. i think i should go and sleep. then i wont have wild thoughts. sigh. i just changed my blogskin. and i think i should password protect my blog. i just suddenly feel like it. maybe next time it somewhat resemble wad i am thinking. then i happen to past by this song and it just brought out my feelings so i decided to use it. maybe i will just take it away someday. okay i did badly for my maths. sad. then i thought about many things. sadder. then no one to confide to. saddest. wellwell. i think i am suffering from depression. it just comes and goes. and i find myself suddenly very quiet and alone in thinking during times in school. ohmy. is there something wrong with me controlling my brain?
aiya. those stupid thoughts. cant they get out of my small brain. i would rather use those space to for knowledge. but i never seem to be able to get them out. they just come and never leave. even if i forgot about them. they will come back a while later when i am all alone. and then it brings back more..and more..and more. and the whole chain of them, never ending. can someone bombard me with something to do. then i can stp this thoughts.
i should learn to let go. because holding on is something selfish for others, and myself. but the hand never seems to want to open and let it fly. it just grabs onto it even thought it hurt. i tried like at least 3 times todae to dont think, but it just comes. and when tears want to flow, they can never flow out. is this wad u call too sad to cry? i dont think so. cos i am never too sad to cry. so maybe i am not sad. i am just being emotional.
FORGET IT. I SHALL GO TO SLEEP. its easy to keep a smile. and the smile cover the pain of the wound. so u will never see the pain of the wound behind the smile. just let go...
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