Sunday, March 11, 2007
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-1:15 AM i know OBS will somewhat leave an impact on me, given its activities and the accomplishment i feel aft completing them, but never did i expect the impact to be this great.
i know i will cry on the last day, maybe because i am too glad i am going home? maybe because i might miss my grp a bit? but its so impactful i am still crying today, even though 24 hrs passed. actually i was still okay, just kind of miss KURT, esp when i eat maggie mee. i was thinking why is the maggie so soft..why is the soup hot..why are there so many ingredients..why is my served nicely in a proper bowl..why is it no one is there to get the noodles from my bowl.. same maggie mee..different feeling.
went to mama's class gathering (kind of amuse me how they still gather aft so many yrs xD) but that is not the point. point is..i was in the car..stoning. then the memories for the past 5 days played like the movie.
the scene where weewee entered the boat and leave all alone by himself, where we last cheered for him. the quotes which he said to us "people come and go", the last line he said to me "byebye sheena", the way we start our whole journey as kurt..by wrapping him up aft trust fall, and the same way we end it..by wrapping him up after trust dive, the cheers which is so unique to ourselves, the campfire which only our group had, all these memories just keep flashing until i started tearing on the car, thank goodness no one saw. But it really shock me how much impact OBS had left on me.
There is still a lot within me that i want to say..so i shall post a little msg to everyone:
Yining :YOYO my chao man de! haha i hope you find your lime soon :D Thanks for waking me up every morning together with zhee, i bet we will never been on time without. Even though you might zao-xia but not to worry, i am not zao-xia and i am here to say THANKEW YOU AND I LOVE YOU! :D
Zhiyi :YOYOYO ZHEEKOPEK! KURT survived thanks to you. The shelter, the pitching of tent, the every every thing. you really is power man! the powerpapa+mama of KURT is bound to be you. it really amused me how you wake up so early everyday. dont worry i will reward you with cafe nuah :D haha!
Lydia:FATIMAMA! your laughter never fails to cheer up the group and make me laugh. I must really say you are strong :D i know trekking is not your kind but you held on for KURT, and because you hold on, we made it back! and dont be sad you didnt touch the bell, we will be there to put the mat for you forever until you touch the bell :D
Eugena:NANA! You've been a most wonderful sleeping+watch+trekking mate. I bet no one can stand my singing other than you. without you by my side i believe i can never survive trekking without all the singings and laughing and MOO-ING. And of course your night chit chats are the best, though you always disturb me from my slp, but without you i can nv express how i feel inside. and thx so much for carrying so much stuff during trekking. <3!!>
Hanjing :TOILET PARTNER FAHTIMA! you are really power too. chao high de lor. go go go! ole ole ole! i will oso nv survive trekking without you. All your cheerings and highness have surely make me forget half the load on my back. And i am sure i will never experience the one and only lifetime experience of business in nature without you. Go master your skill of doing and talking at the same time though :D
Allyssa: Strong girl! i am so proud of you and so glad i have people like you in my groups. You may not be strong physically but mentally, you are much stronger than any of us. When fell down, not everyone can stand up from it, but you have. Really thank you for doing so much for KURT, I know its pain and not everyone can take it, but i am glad i have you cos i am sure you can do it :D
Larissa:Hey girl! another skinny little girl and yet so strong. Thanks for putting in so much for KURT, although you dont say a lot, but your actions show, and we know you care, which is more impt than any other thing :D dont cry anymore and be strong!
Zijin :CHEEKOPEK! thanks for bringing so much joy to KURT with your coconut song. Of course there are many many thing to thank you, for cheering on the fourth day with me, for staying strong and holding on when trekking to camp 3, for volunteering to carry so many canned food until you can hardly straighten your bag to walk. and i must say i really admire you for keeping calm when the ants attack xD
Shena :Hello! though you didnt talk much during the whole thing, or rather i didnt talk to you much, but still thanks for putting in so much for KURT. i know! you were my belayer :D i was really scared up there and i really thank you a 1000 and 1 time for making me feel safe. I know i am quite demanding up there, ask you loosen and tighten and dont know what, but you still did it, and send me down safely, for this i must really say I LOVE YOU!!
Bixuan: Heyo (: i know you are always smiling, never fail to make me smile too. you are just so optimisic and nice...so nice i really dont know what to say. Continue to smile cos i must admit your smile really create miracles and make ppl smile :D and thanks for holding on to the big bag which made your trekking so much harder, and of course, to feed us with digestives :D
Yeong Tyan: Hello! i know i didnt talk to you much, but still, thanks for putting in your 100% effort for KURT and always getting high with KURT. I know the things you carried during trekking issnt little too, and for that, thank you (: for lightening the load of others, for wiling to get out of your comfort zone, for holding on with kurt till the last minute, and for standing your noisiness and highness xD haha!
Zheng Yan: YANYAN! i know you love people to call you that. take care of your blister (: and thanks for navigating for KURT on the fourth day. without you we can never get back to camp 1 before nightfall :D really love you truckloads
Zheyi :hey there! thanks for giving me my cert and saying you love my jokes :D that help quite a lot. i thought no one thought it was funny xD haha! and of course, thanks for putting in so much for KURT, lovelove!
WEEWEE!!! :I MISS YOU!!! you have really been a papa and instructor to us. Maybe one of the reason I am not home sick at all is thanks to you. You always take such good care of us, letting us have fun at the expense of your zi zun xin being hurt xD so we will always enjoy ourselves, guiding us along the way and stuff like that. We know you are angry with us at times but you always dont scold us and even try not to show it, instead you express it to us in another way, and maybe its because you have been so nice to us you make leaving so hard for us. I am really sorry I disappoint you a bit on the third day, though you did not scold me or what, but I feel really guilty and remorseful. Maybe you do not realise but you have left such a huge impact on me. All the little things you did for us, which you may not think its special, is really special to us. A small little campfire is enough to make us feel warm in the night, a lame joke is enough to make us laugh and keep our mind away from home, a weird strand of words is enough to make us have a cheer to make us high, a peeled orange is enough to make us motivated to move on, the many many things have become a huge thing to us. Not to worry, i will always remember the quotes you said to us, the little stories you read to us, the things i have learnt from you, the experience i gained from the trip under you is even more precious than the treasures in the world. THANK YOU WEE and ILOVEYOU!!
Rainbow comes because of sunshine and rain.
There may be tears, but there will be smile.
There may be leaving, but there will be meeting.
There may be losing, but there will be gaining.
We live through rain and sunshine, just to see the rainbow.
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