dance the rainbow out

2007-09-29T18:59:00.000-07:00

goodbye blogger (: i brought ur last post along with me to livejournal :D

moved

2007-09-28T19:38:00.000-07:00

now now..i have weird taggers on my blog. but i deleted the tag on request of the victim xD haha ever so nice :D whoever is the weirdo/boring person to use some other ppl name to tag, do some self reflection xD tsktsk! anyways...

IH AND LA PAPER 1 OVER :D yay! la paper was...i dunno. ih wasnt that hard i think, but still, i think i died. ohwells. lets await the result. surprisingly my hand didnt die (:

went to macs with sandy aft that :D as usual. felt super high class ytd cos we ate from mac cafe. okay this sound nuts but..haha whatever! considering i was broke. i am left with 10 cents from my 40+ dollar pocket money this wk xD i think the 3 e learning days and macs rob me of my money :O

felt qutie guilty. supposed to be studying now but here i am blogging. heh but I PROMISE i will study later :D just lock myself in the room until tonight. didnt study ytd too when our intention was to study :S did a few maths question though xD ended up writing lyrics and sandy was HIGHLY NEGLECTED by me. heh sorry ah!

heh some pictures posting time :D the little boy is super cuteee :D at least i think he likes me more than sandy! unlike the little girl the other day, taste not good enough xD haha! sandy secretly took his photo, but i think the granny found out :O and look at the HAPPY MEAL and SMILEYS :D haha so cute right :D thank you everyone! sandy and i are talents of macs xD

sandy was amused by this baby found in the toilet -.- cos apparently the head is detached from the body..oh my.. heh heh! dared her to watch RESIDENT EVIL with me :D lets see how she freak out in my hse. MUAHA!

u know..its quite hard to live a life without any regrets. so like what i told sandy "If we live a life without regrets then it will be quite meaningless cos it simply show how little we had went through and that we didn't even have a chance to regret."

so i guess occasional rantings are okay, afterall its part and parcel of life.

3 years back

dedicated to...

分开以后

想喊你　却没敢开口

最后只有　留着泪看你走

我想问我　是否只愿意就这样放手

既然无法挽留　只好接受

从今以后　你要寂寞多久

谁能给予你　我这般的温柔

也许是多虑了　你离开我会过得更快乐

可对于软弱的我　回忆就足够

分开以后　

每当想到你　就会低下头

紧握的手　不知过了多久

我相信你　也会有一样的辛酸难受

都曾经深爱过谁　有谁能舍得

在离开你之后　想快乐也只是一种强求

一个人　怎么过都是愁

懂得拥有　却未必能让你为我停留

最后只剩遗憾　拉住我不放手

until 3 yrs then...

pls dont think too much (: sheena is just doing her usual ranting, she will be fine and back to her bubbly hyper self :D at least i know it wont be easy for me to fall into depression (: just usual exam period rantings. ohwells. but something is wrong with me today..i know.

at least i know you wont feel sad...now; which is a good thing to know

and FIVE67 shall always remain happy. i hope

2007-09-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

i love studying in macs (: it has been proven many times that studying in macs is much much better and more productive than anyone else, including bishan library :D heh heh! and of course, must study with the right person lah :D

heh heh! I KNOW WHY HAPPY MEAL IS CALLED HAPPY MEAL NOW :D cos it rly make u happy! with the toy and the nice unique grilled chicken bun xD so cute. i got the nice amusing toy that made me smile non stp xD dont ask me why too, but my mummy got a shock when she saw xD haha nvm lah! we shld try new things once in a while (: can find joy from there.

anyway! there was this weird CHEEKOPEK man that sat at the table beside us which pissed me and sandy totally! so irritating. he had this cheekopek sheepish smile and kept looking over, i bet he sensed sandy pissed-ness so he dared not look at her. dumb! i wanted to slap him but i think more like he will attack me if i did :S HAO SE AH!

okay anyway, my voice is still yet back, i hope they find their way back soon, IH tmr, DIE LAH! i am rly scary. i am all ready to fail can (BUT I HOPE I WONT PLS)

didnt go sch today cos yet to recover fully from fever/flu/cough/sore throat. yes, how considerate of me not to go and spread the germs (: and sandy is sick too! OHNO! dumbgirl had fever like nuts the night before, good immunity system she have, at least she recovered this morn (: but due to some reason she oso dint go sch, ohwells. i guess i must have spread the germs to her for the past 2 days xD heh sorry sandy! but i guess being at home was not bad either, at least my ih more or less finish and la i studied a bit.

tmr is the day my hand is going to break from writing one ih essay one source base one la essay and one unseen. go hand go! haha

oh btw the nice o clock show is nice and exciting :D haha! charming charming :D okay i guess only weiyi and sandy know what i am talking abt :D nvm! haha. weiyi i know u r charming but u can use ur charm to go and mi dao some other ppl, not useful on me :D dont be sad! lyrics time!

爱的主旋律

是你在那个雨季
走进我生命
带着一点任性
温柔的表情

是你在那个雨季
赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容
换我仅有的甜蜜

天上一万颗星星
我却只看见你
你说这是幸运
还是不可思议
身边有太多风景
我却停在这里
说我傻的可以
还不是因为你

是你的声音
带给我勇气
恋爱的频率
直到我心底
如果你愿意
是的我愿意
带着我幸福的主旋律

从前的实际
现在我相信
天空会放晴
爱会更甜蜜
如果你愿意
是我的愿意

爱的主旋律
永远唱下去

aft eoys i am going to have a new hobby :D haha the big ego number one confident PERSON shld know (: though he was dumb enough to think that when i say write lyrics mean i CREATE. dumbdumb, to think he said he was clever. ohwells. haha!

and i love smsing :D anyway i am well aware that my sms this month have BURST LIKE MAD, but then again, since its BURST, then might as well just use more :D

and erherm MR MYSTERIOUS (u know who you are!), are u looking at my blog. TSKTSK!

2007-09-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

sheena mind is like a wire mesh now, all messed up.

okay all she needs is a little time to herself and she will do well, so everyone! pls dont try to affect her :D yes! but no one is, except sandy ):< haha no lah! sandy dont be sad :D i will buy 77 packets of ban mian for u (:

i love macs env to study :D more condusive than bishan library :D heh! except today we met a super scary girl who looks like she is going to kill us :S XIA SI REN CAN!

heh heh okay i shld go and study, ih in 2 days. DIE LAH! i am so dead. haha! but i cant help but to talk to weiyi on msn xD jiao liu jiao liu or knowledge on songs! haha. and i hope my throat gets well tmr.

Melody

终于明白你以变成回忆
没有言语能够说明当别人问起
谱了一段旋律没有句点
也无法再继续

像埋伏在街头的某种气息
无意间经过把往日笑与泪勾起
忽然心痛的无法再压抑
原来从未忘记

melody
脑海中的旋律转个不停爱过你
有太多话忘了要告诉你
melody
无数动人音符在我生命爱过你
失去你我才知道要珍惜

当时无法为你写的那首歌
都是我永远的遗憾当爱逝去
如果所有的错重来一次
能否改变结局

终于落下休止符的那首歌
我听着每一个音符流过的回忆
为什么在那么多年以后
还不能说再见

melody
脑海中的旋律如此熟悉爱过你
在我心里只能轻轻叹息
melody
无数动人音符在我生命爱过你
失去你我才知道要珍惜

melody oh melody我
永远不能忘记
你是多么的美丽
让这音乐一直不停响起
melody oh melody
我舍不得去忘记
我们快乐的过去
请别让我从这梦境清醒

melody
脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱着你
求你听我唱完这一段旋律请不要离去

melody
你是在我脑海不停的旋律
爱过你
我的心里只能无言叹息
melody
无数动人音符在生命里
爱过你
失去后我才知道要珍惜你

2007-09-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

I AM DEHYDRATING!!!!!!!!! ohmywhale!

i think i can qualify as a shui tong today :D thank you! haha lets see, i finish one kettle of water in the morning with one and half hour. then i drank one 500 ml blueberry tea, 2/3 of a 1/5l of green tea and more from sandy bottle xD one 600ml mineral water, one chocolate thing thing, and of course other form of liquid i can get from my hand. back at home i drank another abt 1.5l of water together with abt 3 bowls of soup, thank u maN! and i am enjoying milk now :D haha! more water later.

heh heh! i love study sessions :D weeeeeeyi and saaaaaaandy :D songs+work+food+lame stuff+green tea+weird laughter+running to toilet+wedgies+chickies :D and singaporean are honest :D haha! at least our stuff remain intact though we went for lunch for quite long. :D and bishan library is indeed condusive, i feel like a kuk cos i nv went before, nvm, sandy promised to bring me arnd singapore in future :D

ohoh! sth cool, haha. okay nto cool, happen all 3 of us love ge qian :D yes...thats the cool thing -.- haha! so now here come the miraculous song!

搁浅

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线
复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会
你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

FIVE67<3

2007-09-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

3 days of home learning. study session with sandy and weiyi at library tmr :D YAY I AM EXCITED. haah! i think i will feel accomplished tmr :D cheerios!

最爱还是你

没开口的话怎样才能懂
我好想把画面倒带回头
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每个温暖纯白的记忆穿越了距离

拥挤的人潮没有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就会笑
不要说对不起
也不要问原因
就让世界不停的向前
别忘记从前

最爱还是你
这是我的决定
像宇宙相对的星互相吸引
慢慢就会靠近
慢慢就会忘记

是要爱你
时间会证明
我爱你的勇气
牵着你的手才知道是永久

这一次我放弃了所有
只为能再与你相遇
一辈子不放手

2007-09-21T06:49:00.000-07:00

when you are here thinking about how unlucky you are, how unfortunate you are, how in the world you are the saddest person. just when you are wallowing in self pity and falling into depression, think of how others might not even have the chance to experience what you had.

think of how you once had the chance to feel this while others long to do so, just think of how blessed you are to get to feel all this...to have those wonderful moments...to once had those that others might nv have had..and you will realised how blessed you really are.

放不下

你好吗
你的夜是不是跟我的一样漫长
是不是
还把我给你的爱好好戴在手上

要坚强
我常常对着镜子里的人大声讲
虽然说
孤独的想一个人好像一种惩罚

msn上太多的路人甲
偶尔你也该上来说说话

想着你的温柔
想着你的模样
我放不下
都说过了再见
我们各自飞翔
各自长大

抱紧爱会挣扎
放开爱会心慌
神也很忙
到底要
现哪个愿望
离开你那麽傻
可以后侮吗

风很大
怕你又穿得太少会让自己着凉
我很棒
一个人换了灯泡房间变得很亮

每一天
发生的事情我都好想要跟你讲
爱很怪
什麽都介意最后又什麽都原谅

ooh心里最深的牵挂
越想遗忘越不能忘

2007-09-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

reminiscence

cos all i wanted was to go back to that day when i cld have been cleverer than to make that mistake...

and all i ever dreamt of was to have those months back for me to learn to treasure them more.

...whats gone can never be back; whats past is past; say goodbye

2007-09-15T13:18:00.000-07:00

cos i just love song lyrics

听见

你不开心的眼
仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算再靠近眼前
我们一样没交点

没有你的世界
就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你陪在身边
我的四季只剩下冬天

悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
静下来的世界
有我的思念
也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见
寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
它住进我们之间
消耗着我和你的永远
思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远
累了回头我就在你的身边

2007-09-14T23:20:00.000-07:00

Sheena is officially going nuts due to a lot yet not a lot of reason. see, she cant even express herself properly, so she shant talk anymore, thank you.

不在乎有没有以后

独自在房间的角落
点根烟让寂寞飘走
说起来失眠
也不错
少可以不作梦

道爱会渐渐折旧
连回忆也变成折磨
真心的想给你一切
你偏偏只想要自由

现在几点钟
风知不知道你睡了没有
抬头仰望着天空
一起拥有过的快乐
像断了线的气球

不在乎有没有以后
爱你是活着的理由
紧紧的抱住跟你有关的一切
包括想着你的心痛

我们还有没有以后
牵着手幸福的以后
在你的心中千万记得还有我
永远守着我的承诺在等候

goodbye.

2007-09-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

List out your top 5 birthday wishes:
1. To do well in all aspects in the year to come
2. To have the most astounding and best DANCE NIGHT ever :D
3. To be able to control my diet xD HAHA! inspiration come from my recent eating non stp during eoy period
4. To have the best out of the last yr in sch regardless of CCA, Council or NY life
5. Too much but i wish for all my wishes to come true :D

Answer the following questions.
1. the person who tag you is? chua HERNhern xD
2. your relationship with him/her is? dancemate council schmate FRIEND
3. your 5 impressions of him/her?
- super clever
- never stressed out xD
- weird! cos she laugh at weird thing
- influencial :D
- scary! haha not now, in sec 1 xD i was super freak out of her
4. most memorable thing she has done for you?
- the post on her blog to "comfort" me (:
5. most memorable words she has said to you?
-EXCO is for the efficient running of the entire body, and not the recognition of EVERY individual talent. (i will never forget this pls (:)
6. if ahe becomes your lover, you will?
- probably die of stress xD
7. if he becomes your lover, things he has to improve on will be?
- dont be so weird! laugh at more normal things xD haha!
8. if he becomes your enemy, you will?
- most probably die since she will try to agitate me xD
9. if he becomes your enemy the reason will be?
- i piss her off or she piss me off
10. the most desired thing you want to do for him would be?
- to think before you speak so that i wont spoil her mood xD
11. overall impression of him?
- capable able talented and WEIRDILY FUN :D
12. how do you think people around you will feel about you?
- how wld i know? ranging from love to hate? haha! go ask them! OH MAYBE STEADY BOM PEEPEE!
13. the character you love about yourself is?
- steady or calm?
14. the character you hate of yourself is?
- sometime uses more of the "heart" than "head"
15. person you want to be?
- a better me :D
16. for people who care about you, say something!
- HUH? eh ILOVEYOUPEOPLE :D
17. pass this quiz to 10 people to know what they feel about you.
1- sandy
2- jialing
3- siming
4- weiyiiiiii
5- bianca
6- hern? haha! i just felt like putting down the name
7- hanjeeee xD
8- huiyiiiiiiiing :D but i know she will nv do -.-
9- lydia. seriously i want to know what she think man! hahahah
10-clara

who is no6 having a relationship with?
- OOH HERN! haha pls, i dont want to get smack by her. noone lah!

is no9 a male or female?
- maybe "it". heh HYENA :D

if no7 and no10 are together, will it be a good thing?
- err quite impossible. most probably clara will die with hanjing since she is so -.-! haha

how about 8 and 5?
- yes -.- but i shld not let them, gang up to bully me!

what is no2 studying about?
- eoys :D

the last you talked to no3?
- this morning :D

what kind of music does no.8 like?
- S.H.E songs, or rather, only hebe voice xD

does no1 have any siblings?
- heh EUGENE!

will you woo no3?
- haha NUTS no! she will die under me and i will too xD

how about no7?
- sure man! we will laugh until we collapse xD

er.is no 4 single?
-i...guess so xD or maybe not! OOORH WEIYI!

whats the surname of number 5!
- LOH! haha or maybe HEI xD

surname of no 10?
- LUM!

hobby of no.4?
- bball! and playing with ppl :D hahahha IMM!

d0 no5 and no9 get along?
- i guess so. they were amusing themselves all e way today

where does no2 study at?
- school and home

talk something casually about no1?
- bestest friend since p1! retarded and amusing :D cannot dont have ! oops dont be ego

have you tried developing feelings about no8?
- -.- sure man! starting frm tmr since she sits beside me xD haha NOLAH!

where does no9 live?
- i know she has one hse near amk there..or toapayoh. cant rmb laH! oh she live in the wild grassland xD

are no5 and 1 best friends?
- in one way or another. they are close lah

does no7 like no2?
- i dunno eh, shld be lah. hanjing is not rly against anyone

how did you get to know no2?
- danceeeeeee (:

does no1 have any pets?
- the BIGBIG fish in her hse?

is no7 the sexiest person in the world?
- eh..maybe cutest bah xD OHMAN!

2007-08-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

elections is over (: pleased with the excoooo :D or rather, SUPER PLEASED.

although didnt get any position although being nominated for both -.-, but i guessed i have alrd learn from council that a position simply means having more responsibility (not being sacarstic! i dont know how to to phrase, i think it sound sacarstic) but being a normal member does not mean not being able to contribute (: plus next yr we will be doing dance night and its a chance for me to show my part to(: heh! KAN KAI LE! i was quite glad, or rather, happy that laoshi actl have faith in me (: it rly did make me feel much btr even though i am not in exco, i guess some things are just so expected, esp the sec 3 leaders. sometime we just have to understand that we may not get what we always want, and we may not expect what we always assume is the best or the best suited, cos many a times other factors play a role to, but no matter what, the passion is the most impt thing (: and not being in exco do not mean not being in NYCD, NYCD is not just made up of the exco but all of us, each and every dancer (:

today 90th musical was good i guess (: its good that i am not the only one who actl had a good impression and memories of it no matter how much we have complained. however bad it may seem, I dont deny the fact i do learn quite a lot from it, the ny history, and of course, an unforgettable experience. musical (: i guess i am going to miss it (the whole thing, not the practices xD)

2007-08-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 90TH BIRTHDAY NANYANG!!! :D

heh i have this sudden gush of love for nanyang. and its really SUDDEN GUSH, dont ask me why too xD anyway! i feel power, i actl survive standing in my blazers and courtshoes for 1 hr++. stepping on benches and tables in courtshoes is so exciting xD i am rly amazed by how long we have stood okay.

i love 90th anni song, and ms nah( is that how u spell), the one who wrote the lyrics, is rly a cool and funky character xD anyway PHOTOS FROM GALA DINNER :D if u realise all of them have bian in them cos its her cam -.- now i awondering how i shld get the photos from naomiiiii...mmm

fine i have tried 5 times to upload but cant. toobad, shall upload nxt time (:

2007-08-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

I LOVE SECRET!!!
its good (: seriously good (: the whole plot and everything and the PIANO! haha :D (hint hint siming xD)

okay today amk hub seems to belong to ny. first we saw ms sab and the snrs (elaine aileen marianne huiyan rachel and jolyn) obviously elaine is extra hahahahah cos she isnt from swc or fbi xD okay fine thats bad.

the most amusing thing was suikim was late cos she waited for the bus for ages and anna was late because she just woke up at 11+. HAHA! laughed our head off, so me bianca siming and wenqi went off first. had bad experience with 2 man/guys. hmph

then we saw the sec 3 npcc ppl at the foodcourt. me and bianca were waving frantically like mad ppl at them but they didnt even see until we walked there. for some weird reason jieqi and yinhwee got a shock -.- and it took them quite a while to recognize me :O hahah! bianca managed to scare zhiyi just by standing in front of her. quite retarded xD

had the couple seats for the movie :D coolios! haha. shared with bian and laughed like mad, or maybe i was the only one. got smacked by siming and bianca quite a number of times, but seriously i dont know why i am so high too. heh! maybe i was just excited xD the father was seriously hilarious when he danced xD bianca is the father :O hoho! and guess what, 5 ppl and we cant even finish a packet of popcorn. best lor!

i thought i was quite emo when i cried when i suddenly hear someone sniffing beside me (aka siming xD) haha! 3 cried 3 didnt cry, and the 3 crying were sitting together xD coolman. i am silent (: but its seriously nice :D

andersen ice cream was nice and exciting xD haha! we are a couple of 5 xD the waitress refuse to believe that the couple fondue was enough for 5 of us and kept persuading us to have more. i think they have excess of everything cos she kept asking if we needed MORE WATER xD and we embarrase ourselves quite a bit with the mess we created. ohoh! u shld have seen how they made the cone man. haha interesting :D

went to XTRA nxt and lh got quite jealous when she knew we were out xD hoho! come to think of it i feel quite guilty for not studying wenhua, but prepared to fail so nvm i guess (trying to self comfort).

went home with siming. haha xD mesmerizing piano prince xD lalala :D now siming knows what i am looking for! hoho! I AM SUPER HIGH NOW when talking abt piano. i seriously love people who can play piano (of coursenice ones lah :D )

不能说的秘密-周杰伦
冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐(oh~~)
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
用你的指尖止我说再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐下会走更远
或许命运的签让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

2007-08-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

90th is over. i guess this is the day we were looking forward to most since months ago, but then again, after so long a time of practicing 90th during cca, i guess it will feel weird when we no longer see people from other cca hanging arnd, when we sat by the side eating and rotting away (oops xD), and like what the few of us were saying before we went on stage for the FINAL PERFORMANCE, i guess we will miss it in one way or another no matter how much we used to dread it.

no matter how bad it seem, its still an experience to learn from, and i cant say i didnt benefit from it (though not everyone will i guess). haha in a way or another this whole performance had allow us to build stronger bonds with the jnrs, okay not all but some, and and..i guess a musical is also something new for all of us to try, although its not rly our kind of thing but still, its all about performing and putting urself in the shoes of the character, except no exaggerated movement or hidden meaning in the whole perf.

maybe the reason when we dreaded this whole idea of 90th when it was something glorious and proud to be of (once in life experience) was because there were unappreciative ppl arnd who goes around using their power(?) and demanding for more more than acknowledging what was done. we all know its stressful but thats not the way to handle things, and i believe they have better morals? or whatever u call it than this. this wasnt even supposed to be a job of laoshi, but because our dearest loviest laoshi is so nice :D, it ended being our job. okay no complain (or maybe a bit) about that since it shows that u all trust us, the least u cld do is to acknowledge laoshi through the way and not asking for more, putting her in a hard spot, tiring her out like she isnt a human, and showing that YOU are so stress when she isnt. there is much much much more with what we dislike and want to complain about but come to think of it, it issnt that nice. and anyway, we shld look at the bright side, at least we have nicer tchrs like laoshi (like duh) and mr tan (though we often piss him off) and the once in a while nice mr ng(no matter how much we used to hate him xD, it takes time to see the nicer side of ppl, heh) who likes to joke with us. ji lao shi is err..i dont know what to say and i guess erhem erhem, i shant say much.

whatever it is, this thing is over, and its time we work towards DANCE NIGHT :D wheee! and i hope they will quickly approve the esplanade thing, since whole of 90th is over. heh maybe this is also one of the reason why we are looking forward to end of 90th xD for the start of dance night.haha! lalalala (: i want to learn xin ah li lang.

anyway, i am supposed to upload the photos from chi cuisine xD so i shall now, since i dont have photos of 90th cos i didnt rly want to use the cam and walk arnd, was feeling lazy then. i shall kouped photos from amanda bianca and naomi :D

and last last! no matter what i must say 90th had left somethings in me no matter how much i used to dread it (esp the singing part which i quite enjoy now xD). u wld not believe but those 2 songs just kept ringing in my mind since i got home, and i was singing while bathing xD HAHAHA! fine. and i will miss the red flower on head xD but no worries, i wont do that to myself when i go out, at most 2 ponytails :O hahah!

boil boil...

and our unique cute tang yuan

tang yuan :D pretty at first

side view :D going nuah..

went distorted aft a while xD scoop...

scoop and transfer the rice

haha trying to wrap the glutinous rice xD (looks gross but its nice kay!)
day 2 guotie! day3 spring roll :D

spring roll skin xD heh fried potatoe

heres the sauce..and the noodles

yummy zha jiang mian! the miraculous sauce xD

pretty nice lotus bun :D

super chef who prepared all the food
lh and her bao :D

SHENGJIANBAO!!!

yummy sheng jian bao ((:

guess whos there!
npcc trio( they look like a family dont they xD)
our funky half and the formal other half

bent spoon :O

2007-08-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

i dont like your attitude when you talk to others cos its so irritating. i know i am not in the postition to criticize about you, but seriously, i just cant stand it. and at least i know there are others who feel the same way as me, like yuanchen jialing and becca :D ohwells, shant mention too much, anyway this whole thing is going to end soon, be happy (:

and i am soooo sorry sandy the moomoo that we can no longer go out aft x-country on wed cos of..ERHEM ERHEM -.- and the worse thing is sandy alrd pushed all her dates :x oh man. but both hern and i are involved, oh tian.

anyway right! i feel damn loved (: heh. i got my biggest surprise of my life on sun :D shant say much, i just think..maybe we rly shld judge ppl by their looks (: heh, words from certain ppl are just so miraculous.

oh i wanted to upload the photos from sabbatical but i realise i havent rename them, so wait another day kay! i'll be free sooooon (:

2007-08-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

slowly sorting my thoughts out, although its still quite disappointing but learn to look at the big picture (:

its disappointing not because i didnt get it but rather, because i did not meet up with the expectations that some had for me. i guess its those pre-assumption and confidence others had in me that made me extra disappointed when i knew i did not meet up with what they expected. yet looking on the other side, maybe its just something that cant be controlled, and not being one does not mean not being able to contribute in future.

nonetheless, i am glad that there are people who have so much trust in me that i have the ability to take up the role.

its good to know that others do care. and to the one that made me felt touched most was the most ultimate irritating irritant ELAINE TAN (: heh i wont forget what you say (u know what i mean :D) no wonder u r a HRC head man! heh.

and i must say hern is rly a thinker, seriously, her words make u think a lot and enlighten u. i just love hern blog (:

2007-07-30T20:40:00.000-07:00

sabbaticals was okay :D chinese cuisine is fun but fattening D: i seriously love the organic food stuff :D healthy and nice!

anyway. shall blog more when i go get the cable to upload photos, haha! a picture speaks a thousand word xD too lazy to climb up and get the cable now..

and partly because, i dont know what to say. i am too shocked. lost for words

2007-07-26T20:44:00.000-07:00

YAY TEST ALL OVER!! (except chinese but its okay :D)

not quite pleased with my marks, maths drop, chem drop. ohwells, considering i didnt really study for this test, i guess being able to pass 60% is enough (:

ewww..my stomach is feeling really queasy now :S

oh anyway! elections is tmr! i am soooo excited. IWANTTOVOTEE! i love voting :D

btw, i screwed morning announcement today. some say it was okay, some say i sound dead. OHWHALES! maybe i shld sound livier tmr :D but lifern told me not to, she say pledge shld be serious -.- so how! die bah die bah.

RAWR! shld i go to tianhui hse tmr? shld i shld i! i know i will be konked out aft dance, so how! shld i go! rahrahrah...i realise i am becoming rly indecisive.

anyway i dont think i need to slp anymore tonight. stupid ames is driving me mad, what kind of question are those! i cant do it for peanutswalnutscashewnuts lah! pfffff. i really am going nuts man.

talking abt slp, we had australian chem quiz today and i finished in 30 min (cant rly be bothered to check), then slept, and i dreamt that i was shopping in orchard :D but then the bell rang and i woke up and cld not slp anymore. dumb. but ms tan was being rly nice :D she let us off early and didnt really had lesson. all of our brain cells were dead aft bio test.

ohwhales. i shall go and do the nutty ames now. I WANT MY SLEEP! i seriously dont want to be a panda cousin man.

2007-07-25T19:14:00.000-07:00

~~BIOLOGYBIOLOGYBIOLOGY~~ okay i love bio but i have not even start revising THOROUGHLY when the test is less than 24 hours away. but i think its time i take a break and relaxxx so as to study better later. (though i have been slacking since sch ended xD)

i think the tablets are driving our class mad, everyone is so into com games and writing of comments on friendster now, i really wonder how we survive without tablet nxt year.

anyway. we had the maths quiz thing thing today, and i know i am dead meat for that. cant really be bothered with it towards the end cos i seriously dont know how to do a single question, so for whatever i dont know i just shade the circles i find nicer or write 0 xD anyway huiying did that too, so i shall not feel too guilty ( ppl pls dont learn that is a wrong mindset xD) and there is this chem quiz tmr, pls dont let me screw it

O.o morning announcement pledge taking tmr, pls dont make me sound super toot okay!! i have a feeling i am going to screw the thing. ohwhales. and right! i think those cereals everyday are driving my throat mad, maybe i am my voice is going to get sexy again. lalalala... but cereals are nice (: esp when everyone bring diff one and we share! 312 is a cereal and fruitty class :D heh! we have little pinics everyday.

OHOH things to look forward this week!!
1) TEST IS OVER UNTIL WEEK 7
2) SABBATICALS IS NEXT WK (interesting week with wu lao :D)
3) MUMMY IS COMING BACK IN LESS THAN A WEEK "D
4) WEEKENDS ARE COMING
5) 90TH ANNI REHEARSAL ON FRI (meaning the end of this whole thing is nearing :D)
6) CLASS GATHERING AFT 90TH ( most probably!)
7) ELECTIONS IS COMING THIS FRI ( i love voting! heh i didnt get to vote last yr, but i dont know the jnrs well, think i will spend the whole break thinking who to tick, but i alrd know who i WANT and DONT WANT :D, as for the rest, shall see :D)

so yes...i am happy. and everyone is, cos sabbaticals is coming. finally away from these homework madness (like rushing out a presentation of 8 to 10 minutes in less than a week. wth)

okay off to study so i will feel better. rawr!

2007-07-20T19:31:00.000-07:00

i hate this whole thing and this whole idea of ______.

okay maybe i'll grow to like it one day, but seriously not now. please get this over and done with,

so sick. so tired. never felt this way for a long time.

every single thing you (not referring to just one in particular) do is so utterly disgusting, but we know she is too nice to say anything. please learn to appreciate, thank you

2007-06-22T10:15:00.000-07:00

feeling kind of sad ): its supposed to be cca now but here i am at home lying on the sofa doing my work. i want to go for cca, even if its gonna be just completing 90th and nth else, i hate the stupid injury, and i hate lying down the whole day.

its 10:01, wonder what laoshi is doing now, wonder what i will be doing now if i was at cca. trying to stretch that aching like mad thighs? trying to walk down the stairs? running abt studio as the war music play in the studio? looking at dancers playing roles of other cca ppl? i rly wonder what they are doing now..

supposed to go and celebrate jialing bdae today, most probably at swensens, but then..sigh. feel so empty now, and i hate the feeling of being alone at home. seriously, the wound better heal by mon so that i can go sch.

june camp is finally over. not as tekan as i thought it wld be, but also, not as not tekan as what i thought it was supposed to be. just that..this time there were too many casualties that brought our highness and enthusiasm down for quite some time. but nonetheless, we did it in the end.

i dont know how to express myself now because some things you really have to go through it yourself to know how it feels, not everything can be express in words, esp feelings.

i guess the many messages posted on yahoo grps show everything, in fact, i think this camp has fulfill its initial purpose, to make us bond. although its rly hard to define what it means to be bonded, but at least there is an improvement in our "lvl of bond". i guess aft this camp, we can understand each other better, esp from the trashing in xin qing and the elements workshop, we understand the importance of batch support btr from love can build a bridge, we understand the importance of moving together from flying without wings, we understand the importance of trust and communication from lost in translation, and we learn the importance of putting in the best from this whole camp.

i am proud of batch 0'8. and i believe we will shine as a whole batch, cos we are a full of potential batch, and all we need is chance, to prove ourselves. so to dearest batchmates, let us make use of every of our chance to its fullest and not live to regret it, and most imptly, dont forget what we have learn and gone through together during this camp, dont like the feel fade away, and to those who did not go for camp, although you did not join us, but no worries, we'll pull you along and move on together, afterall, we are ONE BATCH OH EIGHT :D

rahrah batch o8 <3

2007-06-17T10:08:00.000-07:00

procrasinating my work.. i know its not right esp when i dont have much time to complete them except today and tmr and maybe the a few hrs of thurs but i just dont feel like doing. hw are driving me mad..i want to play playstation and gameboy and com and bake and cook and shop and watch movie and make dumplings and swimming and jogging now but NOT DOING HW ): luckily i was enthu during the first few weeks of hols so i manage to complete SOME hw..but i have loads waiting for me. i hate sias, esp ih. and i hate ih source based -.- anyway sth happy (:

shopping spree ytd again :D okay maybe not shopping spree cos it lasted for only a few hrs thanks to the aircon ppl who came at 12+ when they are supposed to come at 1030, wasted my 2 hrs stoning cos i was stuck at my AMES and i am too lazy to go upstairs to get my chem notes, so i stoned for 1 hr+. rawr!

bought mascar, lipstick brus, blusher brush and new deo ytd :D OH AND MY NEW SCH SHOES! yeah (: i shld have got those nice polo tees, but i felt guilty buying so much stuff, AIYA! haha but nvm :D

came home, had nice nice dinner to celebrate father day and then we watch this rly hilarious movie, i dunno what issit called though. slept, wake up by a phonecall, ate my breakfast and here i am wasting my time again instead of doing my work. from this post, i guess u can sense my boredom and the HIGHEST STATE of boredom i am at that i am posting such boring stuff instead of doing work. i rly hate hw! rah. i wonder why i used to love them that i just sit at the table and do for the whole day.

anyway sth to look forward to, dumpling festival is coming and my grandma is making them now :D yummy!! at least they are much more interesting than homework.

okay off to upload photos in friendster. byebyeee :D

2007-06-15T20:08:00.000-07:00

HELLO :D sheena is a happy girl, cos 1) i just ate my breakfast xD 2) i am going to get my new sch shoe later 3) no dance on mon (not that i dont like dance anymore but 90th is making me start to dread dance) 4) more time to do work 5) we baked ytd :D

ytd cca was rather boring, bian hern and bailu was not arnd, leaving me and jialing cos yiyi left early. and laoshi kept doing zhuo zhuang cos ppl from other cca were there, so for 3 hr+ i was warming up :D did barre tiaos ti tuis by OURSELVES okay :D then slack for a while cos we rly had nth to do and laoshi didnt allow us to stay on the dance floor. STONED...and almost fell aslp, so i went to ya gao tui :D not very good but at least pang tui can touch the pillar O.o as usual, hou tui sucks. ohwells.

did cangku, and went home with jl for baking session for nyaa :D met sandy at the mrt station and she treated the 2 hungry and broke ppl to lunch (: for the first time in life jialing had a RAMLY BURGER :D its widely known that ramly is nice xD hahaha! had the weird waffle hotdog xD its cool and it taste cool, cos there is mixture of waffle and hotdog xD
went home and baked cake, only to realise there is 7 eggs left, so we cant bake 1 full cake and we decided to bake just 2/3 of the cake. HOWEVER, when i came down from my room, i realised 3 of the eggs broke, as in the yolk broke -.- tried our luck with the last 4 eggs, hopefully the yolk wont break. and YEAH (: 3 eggs yolks remain in shape, but one egg fell off the table myseriously, so in the end we only bake half a cake, which is pathetically small but nvm (: its a triple colour nice cake with koko krunch on top!

meet the doughnut cake :D looks nice right!
side view! see the triple colour :D creator of the doughnut cake :D
O.o jialing attempt to take an artistic photo with the timer xD

yeah then we went on to bake cookie. it was quite a disaster! cos jialing attempted to make COLOURED cookies, so for the first time in your life, you shall see how a coloured cookie look like below :D
pretty strawberry cookie!
MOOMOO cookie (:
GARY COOKIE!

meet octopus
and here is the angel octupus and of course the devil octopus
hahah! DINO :D this is a friendly dino because...
dino says love :D

here comes the red heart cookie :S
and the red rabbit cookie. it looks like happy tree house..
the twin cookie xD they look mutated though. O.o! daddy cookie
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY :D

heh. LAOSHI cookie :D
and the 4 states octupus. angel, mortal, devil and alien or monster xD
haha the animals cookies.

there was supposed to be a girl and boy cookie+ a monkey cookie but we didnt take them ): the money is cuteee :D sandy is good in making animal cookie

oh then we had a cutting cake session :D

cut cake!
and finally...the 3 wonderful bakers! :D

2007-06-13T22:56:00.000-07:00

CCA :D NYCD! we are a bunch of multi-talented and capable lot led by a wonderful and power power LAOSHI :D although i feel really...i dont know how to express..for 90th, but in one way i am rather proud of nycd (: together with nymd and npcc :D sacrificing ppl! HAHA

exciting things today :D laoshi came into studio then said YEN NGEE DAI ZHE DA JIA CHU QU PAO LIANG QUAN, and nxt minute u see a grp of dancers in tights running arnd the track :D laoshi say its because we are to nuah as compared to the npcc ppl so we gotta run (: not bad idea to train stamina, but i ended up feeling hungry at 9+, normally its 10+ eh.

then we did di san duan, simin stood on xiwen shoulder and bao hou tui o.O cheryl and i had sweaty palms while looking, its rly scary when u watch from the side and see her tilting to one side. but in the end, she still did it :D i realise we nv fail to complete what laoshi wants (: brings me back to one thing, my hou tui. okay WORK HARD (: cos we are nycd-er :D

watched shrek ytd, laughed like mad xD i guess i am overstress and overwork, thats why i was laughing throughout the whole movie and i dont know why too xD hahah "they cry when they poop and the poop when they cry" :D babies! so cutee.

okay time to relax..shall do some nice fun things :D kouped from hern blog (:

'rainbow!
RED IS ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone? no i guess.
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? me? haha my dad has weird temper xD
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? yes duh xD
4. Is anyone mad at you? i dont know
5. Are you usually mad? more of pissed lah xD
6. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? stare!

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? yeah yeah!
2. What event is coming up that you're most excited about? nth. council camp (: or sch reopen, excitement of rushing hw
3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought? WAH!
4. Ifyou could have anything right now what would it be? eh, my greatest wish is to have all my wishes come true :D

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name: Sheena Phua
2. Birthday: 20th Jan (dont forget!)
3. What's your main goal in life? to achieve all that i want
4. Do you want to have children? if they are a bunch of nice angelic lot :D
5. When do you want to die? I WANT TO LIVE TO OLD RIPE AGE :D

GREEN IS OPINIONS
1. Are you against gay marriage? not rly (:
2. Lower the drinking age? no, it doesnt concern me. but i dont think they shld :D
3. Capital Punishment? depends on what crime is it
4. Abortion? quite, but it depends on the situation

BLUE IS FOR
1. Do you love someone? yes (:
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? YES :D
3. Do you believe in love? yes why not -.-

PURPLE IS Q & As
Q: How many beds did you lay in today? TWO :D
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing? Black (:
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday? breathe?
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now? zero! my wallet is not with me (:
Q: Is Tom on your Top friends list? i know no TOM
Q: Look to your left. What's there? my hp and some surveys for sia (sickening)
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed? SANDY PINK SHIRT xD
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? its different everyday! OH HAOTING :D
Q: Do you have plants in your room? nah
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now? my heart! cos i ate too much just now ):
Q: Recent time you were really upset? yeah. was i?

PINK IS LAST
1. Person you saw- my sis. she just irritated me
3 Movie you watched in cinema- shrek!
4. Song you listened to-the nine o clock ending song.
5. Person you talked to on the phone- my mama.
6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone? YES! why number 2...

GREY IS TODAY
1. What are you doing right now? typing this thing
2. What are you doing tonight? sleep and hopefully burn fats
3. What are you going to eat?NOTHING!

BROWN IS TOMORROW
1. Which is Thursday.
2. Are you looking forward to it? not rly, cos i will be home stuck with food and work.
3. Are you going to laugh?I THINK SO! why not.

one more!

THE ALPHABET FRIEND:name out one of each friend with names starting with A to Z
A: allyssa, amanda (jnr) :D
B: Bianca (: brandon, bojia, benjamin, bailu
C: clara, christea, cheryl
D: durian tree -.- I CANT THINK OF ANY
E: eugena, eva
F: florence
G: gladys, guenyik
H: hernhern, huiying, hanjing
I: Ivan
J: Jialing, joANNA, jingwei
K: Kelly, keith
L: Liwen, lianghui
M: Melwee, matthias
N: Naomi (:
O: orange juice, I CANT THINK OF ANY!
P: patty, pauline, pinghui
Q: the queen lah :D i dont know!
R: rebecca, rosalind
S: sandy, suikim, mr sun :D
T: tianhui
U: ulu pandan? dont have lah
V: vernice
W: willie, weiqing
X: xiwen
Y: yiyi
Z: zhuang da

2. How many siblings does A have? i am not sure eh xD okay i wil go find out

3. What does B sms you about?bojia? dont recall her sms me, bianca..council and dance and sometime random stuff xD brandon..retarded random sms xD benjamin..oso random sms bailu...dance i think

4. What's C's nickname?clara...lum (u call that nickname?) cheryl..ho, christea..daughter pearl :D

5. How did you get to know D? maybe through my teacher or my parents?

6. How despo is E?not i think.

7: How much elder/younger is F than you? i dunno her birthday. shld be 1 yr

8. Name 3 of G's best friends: gladys ah..ME :D haha! charmaine and i dunno. guenyik ah..ME :D (okay zi lian) huiying and pinghui?

9. Does H know I? in any way? nope (:

10. What happens if J suddenly turns into your enemy? cry bah

11. Under what conditions will K and L get married? in fairy tales (: maybe?

12. How many people do you know with M's name? quite a fewxD

13. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N? never tried, shld be fun

14. Do you think O knows P? no, but i think P knows O (:

15. How geeky is Q? go ask her urself (:

16. Is R very popular?quite i guess

17. What happens if S likes you? of course sandy and suikim love me :D mr sun ah..haha i think he finds me entertaining :D

18. Is T a very random person? yes and in a weird way

19. How are U and V related? they are both found in Singapore?

20. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend? both are my complaing and random chitchat+ gossip partner (:

21. When is the last time you met up with X? today (:

22. Are Y and Z enemies? they dont even know each other!

23. Of A to Z which one do you love the most and will give love? i love all lah (: dont be jealous all my friends!

25. Have you ever loved and confessed to anyone in A to Z? come on i am nice i love everyone (: okay fine box me if u dont like my ans!

2007-06-10T14:30:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOO :D i just came back from the pool! heh. turned a bit darker, i dont understand why too cos i was only down for 3 hrs or so :O but nvm, who cares xD not like i am very dark anyway.

these 2 days have been quite interesting. loads of fun. (thats why i havent touch any work for the past 2 days until now)

friday. cca (: did ti tuis, its been a looooong looooong time since i last do 8 6 4 2 1 ti tuis then kong tui (: tiring though. my right pang tui is the only one that can kick non stp -.- i am so dead pls. then we did 90th. kind of boring. but laoshi didnt rly do much for the first 2 duans, she did most of the zhuo zhuang. the xin jiang wu is nice :D and the human cake is O.o/ jiayi is rly flex. oh congratuations to sheena! i can at least pull my hou tui with both hands now and my right hand can touch ankle :D not rly good iknow but still, improvement made :D cheryl is back, but still must work hard! yay yay. and i can catch my leg for a while when i jump on jialing :D but its only A WHILE ): oh after cca jnrs showed us some rly WRONG food.

Look at this...
its supposed to say "EXTRA ABSORBANCE"
the product inside xD

OH MAN! BIAN IS EATING IT.
haha fine its supposed to be marshmallows :D
erhem. wrong chocolate
O.o i think thats supposed to be the shape of the chocolate.
tsktsk. so wrong. but i didnt get to eat it xD

went to penang for lunch. wanted to go to thai noodle hse for the pineapple rice, but the woman said that the chef is angry cos he is the only 1 chef left when there is supposed to be 3 chefs, so we didnt get to eat ): BUT JINGWEI THEY ALL GOT THEIR PINEAPPLE RICE! maybe he is angry cos he have to prepare 5, ohwells. i was quite pissed with the chef, but the lady was nice so i felt quite bad when we left xD went to penang, no seats, so we ended up seating outside. quite sad case, and ppl kept looking at us that made me rly pissed. i dont see whats wrong with seating outside and eat, not like others dont do that. its just so not a lunch day...rah

then we went back to thai, hoping to get the red ruby. THIS TIME I GOT RLY PISSED. that lady (the skinner one) has BAD BAD BAD ATTITUDE. so much for the GEMS programme. u see, bian jocelyn and hern sat at the six ppl round table to discuss some stuff, me jialing and becca didnt want to interupt so we sat at a corner at another table. then hern happily raise her hand to order RED RUBY. well i dont blame them for not selling only dessert (but i dont understand why they cannot sel dessert only), but her attitude was like...RAWR. i rly felt like slapping her. she dont even bother to look at hern, and she talk in that DONT BE RUBBISH AND RIDICULOUS TONE "WE DONT SELL DESSERT ONLY". whatever lor, first they dont sell pineapple rice...so fine, since the other lady was nicer. then now NO DESSERT ONLY. and i dont understand why she cant talk in a nicer tone. so fine..bianca told claudia to order for them since claudia didnt have dessert but she had a meal. and in comes 3 hci guys. note its 3, so me jialing and becca wanted to move to the round table with hern so that the 3 guys can sit, and here comes the skinnier lady " PLEASE MOVE AWAY, WE HAVE OTHER CUSTOMERS, WE DONT SERVE DESSERT ONLY". i dont understand why 3 hci guys can sit at a round table but 6 ny girls cannot. so fine, got pissed, jialing becca and i decided to leave since we had nothing better to do too. shall nv go thai noodle again (unless they assure there is pineapple rice) red ruby we can just get at any dessert store..

took bus home (: commented about our ahem ahem. i dont rly have anything against her but i was quite pissed and disappointed by sth she said. i know i am not good but i dont see why she must say until so bad. ohwells who cares. and i am not the only one who felt that way..hurhur.

aft becca alighted, jialing amused me with her little cousin story xD hahah! and thx to this we sort of embarrassed ourselves on 804. the worse thing was an uncle asked us what sch we are from, then he asked ISSNT IT VERY FAR FROM HERE TO BISHAN? i dont see a link in his questions though, maybe he thought ny is at bishan. but i hope he didnt ask the sch to complain, maybe he finds us amusing and cute..I HOPE!

went swimming :D then bian and hern joined us shortly. sth quite INTERESTING happened to hern, shall not elaborate much. but i hate the guard, i dont see why we have to take off our shirt when those ahmas go into the pool with their shirt as well. but then, maybe we shld have just took off xD (we were in our leos though). i think we pissed quite a few ppl off xD but one uncle in one of the apartment was amused by us (: we did barre work in water, xiaotiaos, zhong tiaos and da tiaos (not quite successful though). jialing can carry me! hahaha xD i love dancing in the pool. bathe, eat tintam, ice cream and apple, played rummikub and then off to causeway for dinner :D all of us were SIANED out cos of swimming. met jingwei..her attire was o.O. i bet she attracted quite a lot of attention.

then off to republic poly, took cab cos we were quite slack and was almost late. HOWEVER, when we arrived, we realised we were quite early. the concert only started at 1930+ when its supposed to be 1900. so much for the rushing. suikim came and O.o though hers is not as AHEM, but then from far she looks more AHEM. from near, of course jingwei is more AHEM until we dont know where to look when we talk to her. so much for the both of them being monitresses.

concert was okay. didnt rly impress me (sry ah). except for purify and the little kids, the rest were okay. the qianhong one was...

then we watched concert, walked back to causeway point, dont know why we were so motivated too. off into causeway with jingwei and suikim. bought drink. finished 750 ml of liquid :D both of them were amused :D HAH HAH!

sat. shopping day of the year. haha we have one super shopping day every year where we just go out and shop and buy like crazy. went to paragon with mama :D my bro was anti-social and stayed at my grandma hse to play ps. sis and dad went to look at cars, i cant believe my sister like that. got myself new nice swimwear :D (mummy didnt manage to get hers xD) a nice mini bag, a GOGGLES! (like finally), and the goggles had degree in it, so even if i wear it without specs, everything appears clear :D went back for dinner and out again to get my jeans sch shoes and bag :D got my jeans and bag, leaving only sch shoe cos they only have size 6 left (but their size 6 is smaller than normal size 6 so i cant wear!) byebye reebok schshoe ):

okay think i have spent long enough on this, just had this urge to blog, didnt expect it to be so long. off to do work now! SIAs are gonecase. die

2007-06-06T22:56:00.000-07:00

GROW FAT WEEK! I have officially gain weight this week thanks to 1)saturday bbq for sis bdae 2) sun bbq for class gathering+the a lot of cookies 3) tuesday last minute baking session at home with jialing and bian xD cookies are disaster, they are nice but they are sooooo fattening.

Clara is dumb. she took like half an hour before she finally found my hse. her dad even asked her to go to the big grass patch in front of my hse and touch if there is any wall in case my hse is invisible cos they cant find my hse -.-

some photos for SUNDAY CLASS GATHERING (only the baking session)

Batch 1: BIG SPECIAL CHOCOLATE CHIIIIIPS COOOOKIES :D

Batch 2: SAD BROKEN UP GINGERBREAD MAN ):
Batch 3: A LITTLE BURNT SMALL CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE FOR EVERYONE!
Batch 4: NICE ALMOND COOKIES :D

the UNBAKE gingerbread man xD

Batch 5: the GINGERBREAD MAN! it expanded in the oven xD
squidy broke the gingerbread man leg. poorthing

Now photos of some MODEL COOKIES :D

FLOWER ALMOND COOKIE (:
PRETTY HEART (:
THE REMOTE CONTROL CUM SAUSAGE CUM BUTTONS

over at lydia hse fitness corner..

LUM!
I AM TALL (:
cool SHADOWS :D
DONT DIE CLARA!!
anti social people xD

met huiying and people at amk hub for lunch. we were lucky to get seats when we reached there (: i love the foodcourt, so many food. too much to choose from. squidy and i saw this rly small duck/chicken/goose/bird at the roasted meat stall. looks scary and sad ): THE RAMEN IS NICE :D but too big bowl. however! power sheena finished it in the end (: we shld nv waste food, i set a good example :D huiying decided to give up on her korea food aft a few mouth cos it was HOT ( in both ways). so it was a nice full bowl. then the 2 childish one, clara and squidy, caused a disaster by adding everything they found left in our bowls into the bowl of soup. the soup was a good diet drink (: bound to clear everything in ur stomach when u drink it.

BBQ was crazy. first we gossip in lydia room. haha scare her like mad xD then we played those qian bian thing. huiying number one is the coolest :D SHEENA FINALLY KNOW BLACK MAGIC. coolios! oh everyone say the gingerbreadman cookie is nice :D played pickup sticks, chinese checker chess and dunno what.

then we went down to the bbq pit. met this cute boy called SEBASTIAN :D i bet he loved me huiying and clara cos he refuses to go home until we told him to xD shld have taken a photo with him!

during bbq, we hid ros and cher's slippers, the two toots didnt even realise it pls xD did loads of stupid stuff. i bbq for ppl to eat :D and my contacts didnt melt. (: congrats. then we eat, got tired, slacked, watched movie (stupid lydia scared of when stranger calls so didnt watch) and went home. phone died halfway so had to use public phone. rawr! daddy came to fetch me (: then bathe slp.

CCA ON TUES :D wanted to burn off fats but woke up with fever. panadol saved me, but i was feeling giddy. i was super proud of myself when i made me way to studio. wanted to do ba gan only, did a bit, until hern bian and jialing screamed at me, so sat at the side. its rly sad to watch ppl do while u sit ): yenny was sick too, so we did split against stairs for like twenty minutes while the rest kick.

did 90th anni. laoshi went on to pai. disappoint her quite a few times cos of flexibility ): MUST WORK HARD. no matter what i am going to bao my hou tui before i leave ny even if laoshi is not using it!

oh inside joke, bian almost leave a mark on siming hand when hugging me xD damn funny, luckily i got back into the mood when we lifted our head xD u know, i think cca is getting boring because we are doing nth but 90th. not that its not meaningful but 90th is just not as chinese dance-y so the whole atmosphere is not there. i want to learn xin ah li lang ):

went to penang kitchen for lunch. we ordered the nice set meal (: heh nice hern and jialing took good care of me xD its rly weird, no matter how much i eat at home i nv ever get full. but i almost puke at penang. maybe the rice was too much xD the fish was nice (; together with the veg and the egg. the fruit rojak was...mm....CONSIDERABLY nice. heh. met bian then and hern had to leave to look at some hse. my ice landed in the plate accidentally and this became a joke for bian and jialing. how irritating. I AM NOT DISGUSTING OKAY ): i only bite ice. thats all! felt slack so we sat there, chitchat and decided to get some desserts. i had red bean paste :D :D :D niceee. bian had her almond jelly thing and jialing her her jelly thing. HAHA! poor jialing, most ex yet most..weird. i cld not even swallow the jelly, forced it down. so we decided to play with them since they are quite inedible xD put all of them in a cup and bian started mashing them up IN HER UNIFORM. erhem erhem. but it turned out like gems :D prettieeee. didnt plan to leave until the woman approached us to say they needed to close the shop xD

last minute plan. jialing and bian decided to go my hse to bake cookies. so off we set. journey on bus was mad. I STANK! thanks to penang. bian said i smelt like macs fries. oh man. cldnt help but keep smelling myself. this malay boy was looking at 3 of us, i think we were too unglam xD guess what? even my bag have the smell of penang kitchen. i am going to soak in the washing powder man.

went to cold storage to get choc chips (: and the 2 dumbies wanted to make brownie so we bought premix for brownie too. off to hse. bian is childish. she gets rly kiddy and amuse over the middle rolling thing for the looong looong bus. and the bus bell. jialing isnt any better.

(on bus when we cld see my hse from afar)

jialing: *closes one eye and use finger to measure size of my hse* ur hse is rly small...

sheena: cos its still far

(bus turns and we are about to alight, my hse is diagonally at our right)

jialing: EH YOUR HSE IS GONE! WHERE IS YOUR HSE, ITS ONLY A GRASS PATCH HERE

bianca: SHEENA WHERE IS YOUR HSE

sheena: *points diagonally* we just turned, its there -.-

jialing +bianca: OOOOH. ur hse is so ulu..

i cant believe they cant see the row of hses in front.

then once again, the 2 dumbies got rly excited when they reach my hse. i dunno why. all i know is i heard them screaming non stp when they were in my room -.- and both of them started runing up and down discovering my hse. finally we set down to proper work. BAKING (: the brownies is rly cool. its a CHEWING GUM+ COOKIES brownies (: my mum love it. jialing took the cookies one and bian took the chewyones. i had both (: then we baked cookies. all kinds of shape. sick one came from bian. like her..BIKINI COOKIES. nice ones were from me of course (: i made everyone a alphabet for their name okay!

we wanted to chase toads, but cld not find any at the usual spot. so sad ): so we went to soak our legs in the pool (: then off to northpoint to send them home. did xiaotiaos at the bus stop (: journey on bus was hilarious. i am the best among three of us in balancing (: i fell thrice, actually twice, because once i was showing pole dancers can climb up pole and they consider it once -.- bian fell 8 times, jialing 9. once on me (: but i was steady. thank u thank u :D

now here is some photos..

batch 1 cookies. haha spot the nice S J and B. i amde them. the unglam one at the bottom right hand is by bian.
Batch 2 cookies. with cute gingerbreadman, pacman, rabbit like caterpillar and SMACK IN THE MIDDLE, bian unglam things again.
batch 3: cute hello kitty and mini cookies :D my ice cream expanded until it became out of shape ):
BIAN'S TRADEMARK COOKIE.
i accidentally murdered the rabbit caterpillar xD

PRETTY B, S, J :D
JIALING'S KITTY :D
mini cookies.
i have a pretty flower on my head.
oh my....

2 dumbies <3
i manage to run in when bian tried to take a photo of herself :D
YEAH!
good stuff (:
NO SUBSTANCE :D HAHAHAH!

party at my hse on friday. bian becca jialing and hern are coming over to swim and maybe bake cake. then off to watch concert with bian and hern :D we are going to swim in leo. OOOH COOL! haha. i hope the guard wont realise xD i have 5 toilets at home! each of us can get one. cool :D

interesting friday! <3

2007-05-27T18:14:00.000-07:00

oh! i finally realised blogger didnt eat my post xD i saved one of the post under the wrong date. it was supposed to be may but i saved it as june. thats why it always appear as the top one. OHMAN!

2007-05-27T09:12:00.000-07:00

BLOGGER U BTR NOT EAT UP MY POST AGAIN! three post eaten up, i am pissed.

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE :D i am not too sure if i am feeling happy or sad -.- happy cos no more sch :D sch pass rly quickly this year. sad cos my hols are packed i dont even know where to start from. currently i only finish my guasha reflection :o slowww. i MUST speed up man! oh guess what, we are changing our geog teacher to this ulu ulu tchr whom i didnt even hear before )): I WANT MR LIM CHOW HOOOOOOOOON! and the worst thing is, mr lim himself dont even know about it! i am pissssed. i hope he dont turn out like...ERHEM ERHEM. i rly want mr lim >:(

went for nj dance ytd. it was good..at least not that bad. but i guess we were all too tired we didnt rly get high over the dance. its a BAD BAD day ytd. first! me jialing and sandy went to ljs in hope to eat sth "newer" compared to macs, then we queued up at this counter where the person dont even know how to operate the machine, so there goes our fish and chicken wrap. went to macs, ABIT better. at least the service there was fast and the person knows how to operate the machine -.- played with the sauces and ended up making a gross mess xD

aft which we walk walk walk to the interchange when
JIALING: eh sandy you go concert with us lah
SANDY: i don't have tickets how to go in lor
SHEENA: oh man! i didnt bring my ticket
-.-
i left it in my file cos it was too pretty to be folded, expected myself to forget. so nvm, called home, hoping my dad will send it to the interchange for me, make a 1001 calls but no one picked up (found out at night that they were swimming thats why). then while waiting this grp of girls approached us and ask if they can talk to us. then they started telling us abt their religion. poor jialing had to listen xD i was busy calling like duh. then i got damn pissed, cos one of them walked beside me and started looking at my phone. i think she was suspecting i am not calling. so i got pissed, and called in front of her. i rly wanted to chase them away okay. (rolls eyes)

so throughout the whole journey we spent our time calling my parents. and we discovered new things abt my phone :D i rly hate the woman at the other end of the phone who goes "PLEASE RECORD YOUR MESSAGE AFTER THE TOOOO". so there goes our supposed to be wonderful evening, first we met this dunno how to operate machine woman, then i forgot my tickets, and finally our day was spoiled by the grp of woman.

so nvm, we met liwen (: boarded 74 and miracle happened! my dad called :D didnt rly want to ma fan him cos he just came back from germany, and expected him to scold me, but he didnt! hoho. instead he offered to bring the tickets over :D Y-A-Y. finally sth better happened to me. reached ngee ann and saw yenny, only to realise she have an extra ticket -.- pfff...

waited for bian, hern and my dad outside. initially me and jl wanted to trick hern to see what her reaction will be if we tell her we wait for her inside. didnt expect her to get angry/pissed (whatever it is) and ended up not coming. ohwhale. sorry hern D: bian came and waited for my dad with me :D stupid bianca, knowing she is taller than me she 1)wore heels 2) stand at the higher portion of the slope. so i look ultra short beside her. plus she was wearing this boss like suit, i look like her secretary or worker -.-

finally, the concert, aft soooo many things happened. i love nj chinese danceee :D the syf one. prettttty :D

okay off to do work, i am screwed this holiday please.

2007-05-20T01:08:00.000-07:00

blogger btr not eat up my post again!

ohwells. actl i have nth to say cos too many things happen over those days that i didnt blog. why i didnt blog? cos i am too lazy since blogger wld eat it up anyway -.-

anyway. went to the South West Young Leader's day thing ytd. the 5 of us from ny were like overwhelmed by the others, cos other sch send in ppl BY TENS! so if we get lost, thats it byebye. u know NRA dance is rly rly rly rly rly good :D and me and lianghui spotted a potential sponsor for our ny events nxt time. MR MICHAEL MA :D we MUST get to know him, cos he is eco friendly and supportive of charities so GOOD FOR US (:

also we joined this ten tons thing, which actl requires us to go and collect newspaper from hses :D JOIN PPL JOIN!

okay actl i rly dont know what to say. so fine.

oh btw. I WANT TO LEARN XIN AH LI LANG!!!!!!!!!!!! its soooo nice pls :D love love!

sabbatical nxt wk :D no sch! wheeeheee

2007-05-06T23:32:00.000-07:00

周渝民-Just for you

从不说你的期待，
对我你一直会关怀，
我需要你会在，

你的手永远展开，
比这世界还要大，
但我却要离开

尽管没说出来今天我明白，
你眼神从不例外全都是爱

这颗心把爱存起来，
你把寂寞都覆盖，
你慢慢的打开，
我不在但是爱为你亮起来，
给你的心把爱存起来，
打开梦慢慢承载，
祝你百事可乐，
MY LOVE，
感觉永远都会在
Just For You 因为爱。

只在乎我的期待，
我要爱却不懂爱，
你需要，我不在

你的手永远展开，
比这世界还要大，
但我却要离开

尽管没说出来今天我明白，
你眼神从不例外全都是爱

这颗心把爱存起来，
你把寂寞都覆盖，
你慢慢的打开，
我不在但是爱为你亮起来，
给你的心把爱存起来，
打开梦慢慢承载，
祝你百事可乐，
MY LOVE，
感觉永远都会在
Just For You 因为爱。

这颗心把爱存起来，
你把寂寞都覆盖，
你慢慢的打开，
不在但是爱为你亮起来，
你的心把爱存起来，
打开梦慢慢承载，
祝你百事可乐，
MY LOVE，
感觉永远都会在
Just For You 因为爱。

:D :D :D i love this song! ((:

you know i once had a dream, then and this song just kept playing in my dream (i never heard it before then). so i was humming it the whole of nxt day cos it just keep ringing in my mind. the next thing i knew, it was playing on the radio :D SO COOL! and i heard it ytd again, so decided to search for it (: listening to it now, NICE :D shall go enjoy myself :D

2007-05-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

SHEENA BAKED A NICE CHIFFON CAKE TODAY :D its not exactly chiffon according to my mama, but more of sponge, i dont know whats the diff though, but anyways its just soft and puffy and FLUFFY :D like the clouds in the sky. i love the egg white foam pls :D like bubble foam, fluffy (: yeah my grandpa grandma mama papa bro sis uncle EVERYONE say its nice :D good step! i shall try pandan nxt time :D

eww its sch tmr again, have to write ying yong wen! hate it. i havent been quite motivated to write compos recently, but look on the bright side, its a slack day ahead tmr :D and off to walk on track aft sch with squidy :D followed by fruit die. HELLO FRUIT AT THE FRUIT STALL, U R SO DEAD TMR :D bringing cam to take pretty photos. PRAY there is fluffy clouds pls :D clouds and stars make ppl happy (:

napfa is coming. DIE! ohwells. i shall hope that i pass (: just pass will do :D heh.

i hate the weather recently, its either too hot or too cold. and i am persipiring again despite the fact that i just bathe. i shall bathe before i slp again or i will stink tmr.

twinnie's comin over to my hse someday to bake cake :D and we will dedicate it to eva mama :D then eva mama will come someday to bake too. oh yeah everyone loves cake (:

okay off to slp :D byebye!

2007-05-05T23:04:00.000-07:00

Oh man! BLOGGER IS SCREWED. anyway.. i just finished another ice cream! its not my fault, its hard to resist temptation esp when there is a 1001 and 1 in my fridge. my dad bought 2 boxes (with 4each) and 2 tubs when i still have 1 tub in the fridge. so :D yeah! hahah. squidy is jealous :D

i was quite guilty cos my flabs and fats from the 2 week break are still arnd and i am eating, but hern managed to make me not as guilty cos she ate COOKIES! hoho (:

proud of myself cos i finished geog assignment and maths ws 9.1. although its quite little considering i had 1038352 hours to do them..but still :D i was super proud, until tianhui came..i felt guilty. hate u tianhui xD dont be sad.

my sis is sitting opposite me and she look real pissed xD i bet she hate sch now..i remember how she say she used to loveeeee cf until now when she hate it (i bet) cos she just sit and study whole day. haha and apparently she is rolling her eyes now xD cool! cos my mum was nagging at her. its damn amusing can. i wonder what will happen to my bro in future :D maybe he will slam the table until it break into half O.o

I WANT TO BAKE COOKIES AND CAKES AND PIZZAS AND BREAD! test over so its time to go search for recipe book :D i am sick of kueh and jelly -.- haha! but then i must continue to cook and not waste the talent :D OH MAN! the sad sad song is here. but i love it (: okay random.

eeee! there are so many of the little flies in my hse now. and i am so irritated. i want to spray insecticide in my hse now. grah.

O.o i hear joanne auntie calling. i think she wants to bring some cake over :D ICE CREAM CAKE! cool. pls dont remind me i am growing fat xD maybe i shld start eating veg and fruits only :D vegetarian! anyway squidy can join me :D O.o my mum banana cake look nice..not like last time..distorted xD seems cool.

i want to bake cinamon roll and mango cake ): shall go find receipe now! whee :D i love the oven in my hse. oh here comes the ice cream cake. d-i-e! its PINK :D stawberry.yeah!!! and the cake is salty lah! like put soya sauce Dx my mum say its cheesecake...oh man. its..scary!

okay if u realise i am blogging aimlessly cos i forgot what i wanted to blog abt so i am blogging everything i see now. my memory is failing...):

fine i shall not blog anymore. i feel aimless! rah. i shall not step the weighing machine later, though i am quite tempted to...HEH.

bye everyone u r reading a aimless post -.-

now i am eating cuttlefish cos my bro offered me. die lor. die lor!

2007-05-04T06:15:00.001-07:00

ITS SO COOL! LAOSHI TAGGED ON DANCE BLOG :D and ICE CREEEEEEAM :D i just so love ice cream, esp this macadamia thing <3

its a miracle i am so hyper for the wholeeeee day even though i slept for only 2.5 hours :D i thought i would be leaving sandy bored to death on bus, but in the end i was the one disturbing her xD dont ask me why i am still so hyped when i slept so little cos i dunno too.

i think i am not quite okay recently, esp this week. i have been laughing uncontrollably these few days, like just feel like laughing for no reason. apparently it has been like this since wed and the worse thing is..sandy is suffering from this weird thing too xD so poor eva almost die when she treid to slp.

i am quite worried over my sms u know! they are like bursting cos apparently i have been smsing non stp these few days since CSM that day. both for work and to chat(which is quite wasted xD, but we shld never live our life in work only) :D

PCCGtoday was..haha! dearest basketball cum field friend got herself a eeyore. cute :D stupid huiying. always out to irritate me. esp with the topic discussed today..erhem. i almost smack her today xD eh why do i taste garlic in the icecream? okay maybe i am hallucinating.

CCA TODAY :D like finally! after 1001 years. i so so miss cca. seriously, i dont mind if we dont have break ( or at least not a long one) after syf cos its shown that even though break allow us to relax, it brought about many cons. its obvious we all grew fatter, with muscles hiding below the layers of fats, flabs starting to appear, body not as good and xie tiao as those days when we had practises everyday. my tan tiao strength and flexibility is not as good now. i shall lian lian lian to burn away all the fats and regain my muscles :D esp when i am eating my 2nd cup of ice cream now and i am planning on a third one xD

i rly love the studio :D i love sitting in front of laoshi as she speak to us for loooong looong hours, telling us her expectations and thoughts. i love the feeling of perspiring when doing ba gan, the sight of seeing hern (not that i am super interested in her xD) when i look over to do bagan, doing bouncy xiaotas though they are not as good now. warming up and straining that back of me, listening to nana and cheryl gossips, laughing over lulu jialing and bianca weird actions, and the feeling of stoning when stretching :D laoshi is going to set aside 30 min every cca to let us dance dance and dance. I WANT TO LEARN DAI DAO! i rly rly want. pls ): so looking forward to dance night nxt yr :D

okay off to get the third cup :D anyway i missed dinner today, kouped a bit of my sis cornflakes only xD so doesnt matter right? I HOPE. heh :D

and i am pissed, i had to install thrice the samsung programme into my laptop before it work. and by the time i finished and was all ready to transfer my photos, my com batt went flat. GRAH! i am too lazy to go upstairs and get charger, shall transfer tmr. rah!

okay homework for this week :
1) GEOG ASSIGNMENT 2!
2) maths ws 9.1
3) maths annex a worksheet
4) IH presentation
5) Geog SIA proposal
6) Bio report (for ms lee to see)
7) Chinese reflections
8) L. A essay (if i feel like doing and dont disappoint mrs tan xD)

i guess thats all. seems like a more relax weekend, time to slp late tmr :D

2007-05-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

ICE CREEEEEEAM :D i just so love ice cream, esp this macadamia thing <3

its a miracle i am so hyper for the wholeeeee day even though i slept for only 2.5 hours :D i thought i would be leaving sandy bored to death on bus, but in the end i was the one disturbing her xD dont ask me why i am still so hyped when i slept so little cos i dunno too.

i think i am not quite okay recently, esp this week. i have been laughing uncontrollably these few days, like just feel like laughing for no reason. apparently it has been like this since wed and the worse thing is..sandy is suffering from this weird thing too xD so poor eva almost die when she treid to slp.

i am quite worried over my sms u know! they are like bursting cos apparently i have been smsing non stp these few days since CSM that day. both for work and to chat(which is quite wasted xD, but we shld never live our life in work only) :D

PCCGtoday was..haha! dearest basketball cum field friend got herself a eeyore. cute :D stupid huiying. always out to irritate me. esp with the topic discussed today..erhem. i almost smack her today xD eh why do i taste garlic in the icecream? okay maybe i am hallucinating.

CCA TODAY :D like finally! after 1001 years. i so so miss cca. seriously, i dont mind if we dont have break ( or at least not a long one) after syf cos its shown that even though break allow us to relax, it brought about many cons. its obvious we all grew fatter, with muscles hiding below the layers of fats, flabs starting to appear, body not as good and xie tiao as those days when we had practises everyday. my tan tiao strength and flexibility is not as good now. i shall lian lian lian to burn away all the fats and regain my muscles :D esp when i am eating my 2nd cup of ice cream now and i am planning on a third one xD

i rly love the studio :D i love sitting in front of laoshi as she speak to us for loooong looong hours, telling us her expectations and thoughts. i love the feeling of perspiring when doing ba gan, the sight of seeing hern (not that i am super interested in her xD) when i look over to do bagan, doing bouncy xiaotas though they are not as good now. warming up and straining that back of me, listening to nana and cheryl gossips, laughing over lulu jialing and bianca weird actions, and the feeling of stoning when stretching :D laoshi is going to set aside 30 min every cca to let us dance dance and dance. I WANT TO LEARN DAI DAO! i rly rly want. pls ): so looking forward to dance night nxt yr :D

okay off to get the third cup :D anyway i missed dinner today, kouped a bit of my sis cornflakes only xD so doesnt matter right? I HOPE. heh :D

and i am pissed, i had to install thrice the samsung programme into my laptop before it work. and by the time i finished and was all ready to transfer my photos, my com batt went flat. GRAH! i am too lazy to go upstairs and get charger, shall transfer tmr. rah!

okay homework for this week :
1) GEOG ASSIGNMENT 2!
2) maths ws 9.1
3) maths annex a worksheet
4) IH presentation
5) Geog SIA proposal
6) Bio report (for ms lee to see)
7) Chinese reflections
8) L. A essay (if i feel like doing and dont disappoint mrs tan xD)

i guess thats all. seems like a more relax weekend, time to slp late tmr :D

2007-05-02T07:59:00.001-07:00

i am PISSED now. hmph! goodnights everyone!

anti bread mould and CEREALS (not all though)

2007-04-30T07:32:00.001-07:00

BIAN WEIQING PAT :D :D :D this is details for later.

CSM today :D fun! raining in morning though, was praying it wont be postponed. lucky it didnt. haha! got our council tee (: love it love it. oh man hci female toilet is pathetically small ): with one cubicle only.

cheering was fun (: quite sianned towards the end cos everyone was like not cheering anymore and its hot. luckily towards the end end end we got high again (: i rly love ooh ahh :D and my legs have LITTLE SPOTS, luckily. but that does not mean i am not enthu when cheering kay. for a happy ending, the photographer made us run towards him on the field to show contrast of red white and green. was suposed to be ny only until hci came. bleah! oh and hcjc got the cheering competition winner though i didnt hear them cheer, but i guess the judges knows it best :D and lifern is scary! she pinched me twice on the cheek and took photo of me lah! oh my god.

stupid clement say i look hiong when i cheer. i bet he didnt cheer man. bad bad boy. clever of me not to wave to him :D hahah its fun to make ppl angry and pissed! xD or rather only him (:

Sheena is clever! i guessed the name! wahaha. and my memory is cool, cos i remember who board the bus from where, so now i know who is the k person :D too bad chengxi u just sabotaged ur friend! so so dead.

went for council lunch. we manage to find a seat in no time :D bought kuey teow soup for jessie :D wanted to buy milo dinosaur and the stall ran out of milo...other stall dont have. so wanted to buy sugarcane and they dont sell too. poor jessie. haha :D yannrong bought me nice food! yannrong is forever my angel. sat with lifern hern and hanjing. gossip like mad. lifern loves to irritate me, grah!

went to island creamery. cant eat cos of cough ): played truth or truth with snrs :D lucky lor..first one to get chosen.wa fun though (: stayed back with weiqing bian and pat to chat cos i wanted to listen to bian story, ended up staying till 6+. we just chat straight for 3 hrs+, then went to macs to eat and continue :D haha chatted scandalous stuff (not exactly scandalous too xD) and then some of our PERSONAL opinion xD haha shall not reveal much. some things are better kept unsaid. but i love small but long chats like this. oh and serene center "supermarket" is power lah! u shld have seen.

bus journey back was crazy man! i think i am quite mean aft i told bian how i used to reply sms when i am irritated xD hahahaha! but i apologise aft that kay. i repented. good girl :D

i am so glad i have friends of all kind :D like in dance, diff friend is for diff stuff. jialing is to have fun, yiyi is to be amused, hern is for all the serious and rly need advice stuff, bailu is to bully, and bian is for the matters of heart stuff :D i am sooo glad i finally found a friend that i can talk all the close to heart stuff (: cos sandy cannot be 24/7 for me always right :D haha weiqing pat bian!!

:D

2007-04-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

scold me for not slping at this late hour when i have to reach sch by 0645 tmr morning but i just feel like blogging abt today cos its a fun and interesting and most unusual day :D

haha. early in the morning went to sch and enjoyed my cornflakes breakfast, after which rushed to 3rd floor for CIA meeting. didnt feel quite right the minute i reached there, first there were these 2 big plastic bag but i didnt really bother, then estella looked stone and she didnt have her council handbook so i sense sth was wrong. after which, lifern started to say something about the meeting isnt exactly a meeting, then she said only me and peiying were kept in the dark. clever sheena guessed it! ITS OUR BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION :D or rather, belated birthday, super belated, but still its nice (: had the traditional chinese food you eat during your birthday xD red eggs (they said karen mum dyed it! yeah), then had the shou tao thing and lastly, ANG KU KUEH (though i dunno what it symbolises). haha. nice nice and i ate all cos i thought shld not waste it..ended up with a bloated stomach (: hahahaha its amusing to know that lifern and estella never eat ang ku kueh in their life before until today, oh goose. and lifern is rly funny xD WHEE CIA :D

then became quite pissed during chinese. i think i have bad temper control recently, have been getting pissed quite easily. sry to all who i offended these few days ):

LDP rehearsal was quite okay...just had to remember all the cues for when to usher guest up. quite stressed tmr cos i doubt i can walk fast and softly with courtshoes xD oh man! and gwen said she is nice to give up the ushering job to me while she keep guard at the other side, good practice man..sheena pls dont embarrasse yourself.

oh going for the dance concert on 9th june with hern and bian :D so cool! at least the performing grps are cool (: so apparently sheena is not free from 6 june to 9th june. i hope council camp will not be tekan but more of bonding for our batch..seriously i dont think we are very bonded but not to worry! batch'08 is a magical batch, i know we can do it :D

helped hern with her CSM stuff aft rehearsal. didnt do much though cos had to leave quite early. sheena has good sewing skills and pinning skills xD haha mr lim and ms sabrina are amusing and nice people (: funny teachers.

okay off to slp or you will see a panda ushering the GOH tmr alrd. helping hern aft sch again :D

busy wk ahead..so many things to complete.
1)AMES
2)Maths written assignment on circle properties
3)Geog assignment 2
4)Geog SIA proposal
5)IH Seminar presentation
6)Chinese jian bao
7)Chinese poem
8)Flower for Algernon article
9)STUDY FOR GEOG TEST!
10)BIO WS 5.1
11) Maths WS 8.2
12) Maths question on graph

okay cant think of anymore now, shall add if i think of anymore. Seems like my holiday is not exactly a holiday, ohwells!

2007-04-26T18:17:00.000-07:00

waiting for the apple to brown :D yeah i love our chem SIA! apples (: haha! so can eat the apple after the experiment (though its brown and look ugly, its still nice :D)

just received sms from hern and sandy about mr kuo...whoever is that person..oh wells. hope he wont get into trouble :D mr kuo is really nice! and he is super duper nice to dancers :D (i am not biased towards him because he is nice to dancers okay! he is rly nice (: )

guess what? i think i am going to get like 60+% only for this year, how nice. cos i have been failing test and quizzes, even maths! hmph. so i have decided to stp playing in class and listen to teacher :D but its quite hard, esp during lang arts and chinese xD heh!

IH today mentioned something about you get how much you put in. It is really unfair as to why you should get an equal share as those who work harder for it. But on the other hand, some mention that we should look on the whole..its for the whole country (in this case, group), its to benefit the whole, yet i just cant accept the fact that you are getting equally much despite the little effort u put in. if i was there that day, i would have been the first to object about being in the group. not that i do not trust u, but you abuse the trust we have in you. you took advantage of it, so too bad so sad. you promised, you promised that you will do your part, but what did we get in the end? empty promises. we even went to the extended of PLEADING you to give us the surveys, yet we received nothing in the end. for your information, its only GIVING OUT SURVEYS, cant you do a simple job like this? dont tell me you do not have time please. you rather spent your lunch sleeping or look for your friend then give out the survey..what else can i say. then nxt, a simple report. JUST ANALYSIS OF ONE QUESTION, and you cant even do it. give u the benefit of typing in eng since u said you do not have chinese character and what? you cant even give a good quality work. if you think by typing a few sentence show that you have done work, and you are so proud of it, i feel really ashame for you. in fact, i am DISGUSTED in your attitude..D-I-S-G-U-S-T-E-D. if you think by doing the rest of the work from now can help..let me tell u, IT DOESNT. for goodness sake, we have done all the research, analysis, practically everything for you..and now all you have to do is edit. and guess what? me and huiying dont even dare to give it to you. we are soooo scared we might kill your precious brain cells so we decided we shall do it. anyway to be frank, we dont trust you, i know this may hurt ur pride but i think its better if we tell you now rather than letting you go on like this. prove us wrong then if you really want to impress us, cos both of us feel that YOU WILL NOT DO IT WELL. at most a ONE COMPLETE PERFECT SLIDE or a whole chunk of rubbish powerpoint that is copy and paste and nth else. and i am quite sure in the end we will still be the one doing all the work, helping you clear the mess u have created. very much we wish to get u out, but we cant. count urself lucky. we have to do all the work to ensure we do a good job, while u get to slack and slack and SLACK and earn the marks. cant complain! cos our marks will be deducted for teamwork, and that is all thanks to u. you dont do work, we get marks deducted for telling teacher, in the end we are stil the one doing..i rly dont know what to say. good for you...

you know sometimes i really wished to give u another chance upon seeing how helpless you are, but when i thought about what you have done, i really cannot. if you havent realise, we have been giving you chances after chances...but you chose to abuse them, and there you go crying and saying how miserable you are. if you havent realise, our happy life have also became miserable thanks to you. if only you were a bit repentent, or willing to change for the better, learn from the mistake, dont take advantage of others being nice to you, if only a little change, everything would have turn out different. So often i wish to accept you again, but then once again, you make me unwilling to. i really dont know what to say..except that i am very disappointed in you. go scold me and curse me or whatever for saying this of you, but i am really disappointed. and we are telling you...giving you chances after chances because we treat you as friend, we dont wish to see left in the lurch, neither do we wish you to commit the same mistake in future, so i hope you understand, though i doubt you will, but i really wish you will, cos i know you can. well..hope that this time you can prove us wrong, prove to us that you really can change..

2007-04-21T17:15:00.000-07:00

PICTURES
Life feels empty without CCA, without NYCD, without Laoshi, without Dance.

Didn't had time to blog for the past week, was busy catching up with homework and revising for the endless upcoming tests and SIAs that are about to be due. Yet when i was busy rushing my homework and stuff, my body felt busy and occupied but my heart felt empty, like something was lacking. It feels weird to go for recess, to go for lunch, to go to class early in the morning. I remembered how we rush to the studio whenever it is our break, how we got our friend to help us get food, how we gorge our food down at the last few minutes of the break, and now, I can queue up for my own food, I no longer had to worry about growling stomachs during lesson.

Monday was the day. The day for our 7 months of hardwork, the day for our dance, our very own dance. Went to studio early in the morning although our competition was at 4+pm, nearly 5 pm. You may think its a long time, what for go so early, but seriously, time does flies, especially when we are enjoying ourselves. Blink, we are at the audi rehearsing and performing for the tchrs, then blink, we are eating and preparing ourselves, doing our makeup and hair, and next blink, we are on our way to UCC, and blink, we are up on stage, then final blink, its all over. All of these happened so quickly. Seriously, when i was on stage dancing i felt like it was only 3 minutes long. Before I knew i was up on stage again doing the pose, and next second i was running out for qun wu. And finally, lights off, its over. Most of us cried after the whole thing, tears of joy (: and maybe..the emptiness felt when we thought about the fact that there will be no more 3-8 training, no more dragging of feet in the morning to zao gong, no more breaks just for dance. Laoshi said that it was the best one we ever danced (:

went back to studio and took photos like crazy, excitement after SYF :D we were no longer feng wu yi ren then...more like feng kuang yi ren :D

went back with bian on that day. laughed like mad on the bus. bian is a bus toot, no sense of direction and time one, tsktsk! guess what? bian ate mentos on bus (we are not supposed to eat on bus!), then someone touched my head...got a shock then. turned arnd and saw jingxuan (ex FBI head) and bertilla. she asked us for our result but we told her it will only be known on wed. then she said aiya sure gold with honours one NYCD :D :D :D :D :D haha then bian started to feel guilty and giggle non stp (cos she ate sweet on bus). she was praying jingxuan didnt see then xD aft that both of us realised one of them was ex fbi head and the other was ex cia head. and we laughed even more xD HAHAHAH! bian stole my wallet and looked at my ez link card, said i looked toot. whatever!! she dont look any btr, look like a bloated kid! hahah xD

listening to SYF song now and my mum walked past and frowned at me, commenting how scary the song is. WHATEVER! i shall keep playing until she appreciates it :D

stayed back with bian for interview duty on tues :D wanted to revise maths but failed. heh! guess we cldnt concentrate. it was super hot and we didnt even have a proper table okay! but i was more successful then bian :D aft that we went to studio to visit jnrs a while. learnt a bit of kong que fei lai, but i cant rmb anything now..so much for my effort, bleah! had a short chat with laoshi when she came in and when we saw yiyi at the canteen (: laoshi is a nice person! haha. and yiyi is a weird girl, you shld have seen what she did to mrs chua. bian and me were laughing all the way when we walked behind her.

okay then result released on wed. during recess all of us rushed to outside aes dept and called laoshi. she hanged our calls twice and finally she picked up hern's call...begged her to tell us and she finally said GOLD WITH HONOURS :D :D :D :D :D haha then she hung up the call immediatly cos all of us were screaming. didnt believe her at first cos she sounded like she was fu yan-ing us. so tried calling her again but i think she didnt ans. went to confirm with the aest dept tchr and YEAH! ITS TRUE :D haha our 7 mths effort paid off!

on thurs hern wrote the speech and the letter to laoshi :D i conclude hern is rly good in words, if only i could express so well. i remembered one line! and laoshi mentioned that line ytd too :D nin dui yi shu de zhi zhuo ying dao zhe wo men (sth like that :D) if only my chi was this good xD

had qing gong yan ytd. was quite angry and disappointed for a period of time cos of some problems in between. laoshi was not very pleased too, but nvm, lulu and yiyi manage to salvage the situation a bit :D and my agar agar was ALL SOLD OUT! none left (: laobo even complained she didnt get to eat. HAH HAH HAH! had a talk with quek ying and linkai :D i think its rly useful, at least we understand each other btr now (: come to think of it, we arent exactly close to our jnrs batch, so its time we start to understand and talk to them. and to the sec 1, i think its time we do sth. seriously we dont rly have confidence in them but i believe they will do it in 2 yrs time, just like how the snrs didnt have confidence in us 2 yrs back but we did it :D SO GO JNRS! all of you must rly bond together, just like us and the sec 4s. but before that you must feel for nycd, the passion, the love, the everything, thats the most prior thing before any other thing :D so go enjoy everything about nycd! and thx to all who wrote me the sweet little notes though i didnt write any except laoshi and yenngee one xD didnt had time then! spent my time chatting, i know i owe all of you a letter, will pay you back someday! dont worry. you will surely get it before your graduate. haha! and becca dont be sad anymore :D we all know becca is a nice snr((: haha and hern say she like my JELLY! though its not sweet enough, but as everyone knows, hern is a ultra healthy pok.

okay off to study for bio chem and ih, my deadest 3 subjects, okay maybe chem still have a slight hope. bio i am dead for enzyme and nutrition in man, and its essay, ih is bound to die i think. even my maths is dead, but at least i passed and improved despite the little revision, but all in all, its still dead. ohwells. work hard sheena!

野有蔓草，
零露漙兮。　　
有美一人，
清扬婉兮。　　
邂逅相遇，
适我愿兮。　　
野有蔓草，
零露瀼瀼。　　
有美一人，
婉如清扬。　　
邂逅相遇，
与子偕臧。

风舞伊人, thats us :D

2007-04-09T06:09:00.000-07:00

i must say this period is the toughest, when we have to juggle between work and cca. time management is rly important. and of course, when everything seems like they are all out to kill you, support is the best thing you can ever get, and i am so so so glad to know i have so many of these ppl arnd me.

dancers like jialing, hern, bian the poo, lulu, suikim, jingwei, cheryl, lianghui, nana, yenngee, baikar, anna and the ever so nice and coorperative xiaoges :D this journey can never be so enjoyable without them.

nice friends like CHUAhuiying for always understanding the fact that i get pissed very easily when i am tired..tianhui for willingly helping me with sias when my cca end late.

supportive parents who do not blame me for always reaching home late and having to get them to fetch me late at night. and for understanding the fact that i will hardly have time to accompany them even during weekends cos of dance or hw.

and of course..LAOSHI :D yeah i dont know how but laoshi just play a big role in this whole long journey. laoshi is just so special :D

all in all, I LOVE EVERYONE! LETS JIAYOU FOR SYF NYCD! :D

2007-04-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

sometime i think family and friends are rly wonders :D

family i shant say much..they are your family what. but friends..its rly hard to find friends who can rly be considered friends. of course i am not saying my friends now are all not considered friends so dont misunderstand, but i guess even when they are all called friends, there are many kinds of friends.

i must say i am blessed to have friends who rly do care for me and tell me when i am in the wrong so i will change for the btr :D at least now i know the problem in me and i can change so i wont make the same mistake, though i always forget and require constant reminder but at least i will be more conscious of it so whoever i offend nxt time, mind me!

i tell you i am rly the kind who sometimes forget what i say or can nv spot anything wrong in what i say so if you cant stand it or think there is sth wrong PLS TELL ME.

i must say thank you hern for always correcting me :D its rly a life skill to learn. who knows this problem of mine may cause me to have bad bad relation with others when i grow up, you nv know :D haha at least i have time now to start to change.

I JUST LOVE MY FRIENDS :D esp dancemates and those who are always there to support me like TIANHUI AND HUIYING ((:

2007-04-07T04:57:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG IS ALMOST DEAD FOR 1 MONTH!

finally found time to blog :D apparently i have been spending all my free time slping..even a 5 min trip on the car -.-

i think i am screwed. i shld rly go and learn some time management skills (esp frm ppl like hern cos she seems to be coping so well even when she has 1001 things to do) xD term 2 test is coming and i have yet to revise anything yet. my maths is deproving (i cant even rmb the basic properties of circles lah!) my bio is like half half kind. my chem is not any better. geog and ih is like...no need to say. and i have been wasting time these few days..like just lazing arnd and refusing to go and study. and i realise chem sia is due wk 5 and we have not even start on the basic research, and all of us are i.t illiterate..welldone man. ohwells. just have to do it, no matter how much you hate it.

SYF IS COMING!! there are practices almost everyday. laoshi say she wants to buy milo and TAU SAR PAU for us :D i think dancers are strong and power (: although we have to stay back till late in the night and go for practices like breaks aft breaks, but i am so so glad no one complain (or at least majority..i dont know). i know its a hard time now esp when tests are coming and hw are piling but its so glad to see everyone is still so into dance :D i am so so glad i am starting to learn how to feel the dance alrd (: seriously last time i had never felt so into the dance( like just doing actions for actions and smile for smile)..until that day when we did the dance for mrs teo i was suddenly enlightened and i cld rly feel myself into the dance..together as one with the music..for the first time :D okay you can say i am slow but its btr than nth right!

you know..i think laoshi is rly impactful. like..i dont know! there have nv been a tchr that make me feel and think so much. even my mum say my temper changed a lot..like so much btr, and i have become a btr person (although i dunno whats so bad abt me in the past xD) aft i went into ny..and she said maybe its because i grew up alrd. maybe its those ren sheng dao li laoshi had always been teaching us that made me change for the btr (:

goodness i have been feeling thirsty for the whole day...so irritatiing. i have been drinking litres and litres of water okay..its so scary to see so many ppl falling sick these days. even bailu and yiyi is sick. laobo oso. take care everyone :D

oh yeah! and jialing is buying me the nice drink ((: oh btw. i tell you ah, too much choeslaw (is that how you spell?) taste like durian. jialing is scary, she can finish almost the whole plate of choeslaw. and guess what? when i went out for lunch with my family my sis and bro had choeslaw again :S i guess tau sar is still the only thing no one get sicks of :D

grah sheena is growing fat! she has been eating chocs and ice cream non stp..and bread too. so much carbo and fats...die liao lor. but nvm lah. look on the bright side i have been dancing a lot (though i doubt i rly burnt any fats from there xD. self comfort)

i realise aft not blogging for too long i cant express myself and type a long long post as well as last time. i have been spending like 30 min just on this post alone because i cant phrase and even aft spending so long, i still cant phrase it. forget it...wait for the feeling to come back then. meanwhile shall go and do work. cant afford to waste anymore time :D BYE EVERYONE!

2007-03-14T23:35:00.000-07:00

everything around me seems to be so related to OBS. though i dont cry as easily as the past few days, but the OBS feeling and memories still come back to me so often, in almost all activities that i am involved in, esp today when we went to botanic.

when we were looking for the pavilion, looking at the map and navigating, it suddenly reminded me of OBS, where we had to navigate by ourselves to look for our destination. just like we had weewee beside us then to guide us along then, we have laoshi to guide us along now.

when xiaoges were sent out to practise, i wasnt very motivated then. but then i thought of OBS, where weewee told us we have to put in effort by ourselves so that we can achieve what we want, and not for others to do it before we do it, so i was motivated and kou-ed the xiaoges with yenngee :D felt really happy after that (: because xiaoges didnt slack at all and kou-ed those few parts for 2 hrs non-stp :D its a long time since i feel a sense of achievement aft OBS. yes.. the road may be tough, may be tiring. Just like OBS, when we trekked, we were all tired, not motivated to move on because we are so sick of it and wondering when will we ever reach our destination, but in our heart we know we will reach someday, its a matter of how fast, and in this case, its a matter of how well. We know we will go to SYF someday, and we know we have to practise, even if we are sick of it. its the same thing, you may not see the destination now, but someday, sometime, you will, and when you achieve what you want, the sense of achievement is there. just like OBS, we have our friends arnd us to move along us, and we shld not let our friends down by slacking a little, we shld work hard together, no matter how boring it is, how tired and sick we are, cos we know we can do it! GO XIAOGES GO!

the making of costume is another example. just like cooking, we do it ourselves. We are given the ingredients, now its up to us to see if we want to use it properly and do a good job with it or sit at a corner and whine as to why we have to do this. sequins and fabric glue is all that we have, how you want to paste it efficiently and in a better manner is for you to discover and decide if you want to do it, just like cooking, we are given all the food we have, how you want to cook it, how you want to eat it, its up to you now. take maggie mee for example, you can eat it raw, you can eat if half cook if you are lazy, or you can choose to be patient to wait longer and have a delicious meal, its the same as sticking sequin. sticking is easy, but sticking it well and nicely is another matter itself.

US.WEEWEE.KURT.OBS. i just love them so much

2007-03-13T22:22:00.000-07:00

hello ): i am sad cos i ate too much today.

you know, dance camp was supposed to be to lose fats but i thinking i am gaining more weight because i cant control myself and kept eating non stp. I DONT WANT TO BE LIANGHUI NUMBER 2! oh whale..

so i shall do a lot of tiaos and push-ups and sit ups to burn off fats, YES I MUST! i realise i gained 2 kg, oh whale!!! i hope its fats become muscles and not fats adding fats, grah!

anyway i love dance lian gong suddenly :D esp today, when we perspire, BURN FATS (though they came back again) xiao ges hobby is to eat.

quite unbelievable but we still cried ytd, which is like 3 days aft OBS, when we were having dance. Hern cried first. and i was sitting beside her so i sort of got affected too, soon a few of us were crying like mad. the rest were looking at us like as though we were mad. I know its kind amusing to others but its not our fault right, who will ever know we will be so stuck to OBS.

OBS is just a miracle

2007-03-11T01:15:00.000-08:00

i know OBS will somewhat leave an impact on me, given its activities and the accomplishment i feel aft completing them, but never did i expect the impact to be this great.

i know i will cry on the last day, maybe because i am too glad i am going home? maybe because i might miss my grp a bit? but its so impactful i am still crying today, even though 24 hrs passed. actually i was still okay, just kind of miss KURT, esp when i eat maggie mee. i was thinking why is the maggie so soft..why is the soup hot..why are there so many ingredients..why is my served nicely in a proper bowl..why is it no one is there to get the noodles from my bowl.. same maggie mee..different feeling.

went to mama's class gathering (kind of amuse me how they still gather aft so many yrs xD) but that is not the point. point is..i was in the car..stoning. then the memories for the past 5 days played like the movie.

the scene where weewee entered the boat and leave all alone by himself, where we last cheered for him. the quotes which he said to us "people come and go", the last line he said to me "byebye sheena", the way we start our whole journey as kurt..by wrapping him up aft trust fall, and the same way we end it..by wrapping him up after trust dive, the cheers which is so unique to ourselves, the campfire which only our group had, all these memories just keep flashing until i started tearing on the car, thank goodness no one saw. But it really shock me how much impact OBS had left on me.

There is still a lot within me that i want to say..so i shall post a little msg to everyone:

Yining :YOYO my chao man de! haha i hope you find your lime soon :D Thanks for waking me up every morning together with zhee, i bet we will never been on time without. Even though you might zao-xia but not to worry, i am not zao-xia and i am here to say THANKEW YOU AND I LOVE YOU! :D

Zhiyi :YOYOYO ZHEEKOPEK! KURT survived thanks to you. The shelter, the pitching of tent, the every every thing. you really is power man! the powerpapa+mama of KURT is bound to be you. it really amused me how you wake up so early everyday. dont worry i will reward you with cafe nuah :D haha!

Lydia:FATIMAMA! your laughter never fails to cheer up the group and make me laugh. I must really say you are strong :D i know trekking is not your kind but you held on for KURT, and because you hold on, we made it back! and dont be sad you didnt touch the bell, we will be there to put the mat for you forever until you touch the bell :D

Eugena:NANA! You've been a most wonderful sleeping+watch+trekking mate. I bet no one can stand my singing other than you. without you by my side i believe i can never survive trekking without all the singings and laughing and MOO-ING. And of course your night chit chats are the best, though you always disturb me from my slp, but without you i can nv express how i feel inside. and thx so much for carrying so much stuff during trekking. <3!!>

Hanjing :TOILET PARTNER FAHTIMA! you are really power too. chao high de lor. go go go! ole ole ole! i will oso nv survive trekking without you. All your cheerings and highness have surely make me forget half the load on my back. And i am sure i will never experience the one and only lifetime experience of business in nature without you. Go master your skill of doing and talking at the same time though :D

Allyssa: Strong girl! i am so proud of you and so glad i have people like you in my groups. You may not be strong physically but mentally, you are much stronger than any of us. When fell down, not everyone can stand up from it, but you have. Really thank you for doing so much for KURT, I know its pain and not everyone can take it, but i am glad i have you cos i am sure you can do it :D

Larissa:Hey girl! another skinny little girl and yet so strong. Thanks for putting in so much for KURT, although you dont say a lot, but your actions show, and we know you care, which is more impt than any other thing :D dont cry anymore and be strong!

Zijin :CHEEKOPEK! thanks for bringing so much joy to KURT with your coconut song. Of course there are many many thing to thank you, for cheering on the fourth day with me, for staying strong and holding on when trekking to camp 3, for volunteering to carry so many canned food until you can hardly straighten your bag to walk. and i must say i really admire you for keeping calm when the ants attack xD

Shena :Hello! though you didnt talk much during the whole thing, or rather i didnt talk to you much, but still thanks for putting in so much for KURT. i know! you were my belayer :D i was really scared up there and i really thank you a 1000 and 1 time for making me feel safe. I know i am quite demanding up there, ask you loosen and tighten and dont know what, but you still did it, and send me down safely, for this i must really say I LOVE YOU!!
Bixuan: Heyo (: i know you are always smiling, never fail to make me smile too. you are just so optimisic and nice...so nice i really dont know what to say. Continue to smile cos i must admit your smile really create miracles and make ppl smile :D and thanks for holding on to the big bag which made your trekking so much harder, and of course, to feed us with digestives :D

Yeong Tyan: Hello! i know i didnt talk to you much, but still, thanks for putting in your 100% effort for KURT and always getting high with KURT. I know the things you carried during trekking issnt little too, and for that, thank you (: for lightening the load of others, for wiling to get out of your comfort zone, for holding on with kurt till the last minute, and for standing your noisiness and highness xD haha!

Zheng Yan: YANYAN! i know you love people to call you that. take care of your blister (: and thanks for navigating for KURT on the fourth day. without you we can never get back to camp 1 before nightfall :D really love you truckloads

Zheyi :hey there! thanks for giving me my cert and saying you love my jokes :D that help quite a lot. i thought no one thought it was funny xD haha! and of course, thanks for putting in so much for KURT, lovelove!

WEEWEE!!! :I MISS YOU!!! you have really been a papa and instructor to us. Maybe one of the reason I am not home sick at all is thanks to you. You always take such good care of us, letting us have fun at the expense of your zi zun xin being hurt xD so we will always enjoy ourselves, guiding us along the way and stuff like that. We know you are angry with us at times but you always dont scold us and even try not to show it, instead you express it to us in another way, and maybe its because you have been so nice to us you make leaving so hard for us. I am really sorry I disappoint you a bit on the third day, though you did not scold me or what, but I feel really guilty and remorseful. Maybe you do not realise but you have left such a huge impact on me. All the little things you did for us, which you may not think its special, is really special to us. A small little campfire is enough to make us feel warm in the night, a lame joke is enough to make us laugh and keep our mind away from home, a weird strand of words is enough to make us have a cheer to make us high, a peeled orange is enough to make us motivated to move on, the many many things have become a huge thing to us. Not to worry, i will always remember the quotes you said to us, the little stories you read to us, the things i have learnt from you, the experience i gained from the trip under you is even more precious than the treasures in the world. THANK YOU WEE and ILOVEYOU!!

Rainbow comes because of sunshine and rain.

There may be tears, but there will be smile.
There may be leaving, but there will be meeting.
There may be losing, but there will be gaining.

We live through rain and sunshine, just to see the rainbow.

2007-03-10T12:08:00.000-08:00

SHEENA IS BACK FROM OBS!!!

OBS isnt as bad as what I thought. I thought I will be half dead there with the scary activities that people described to me but surprisingly I LOVE IT :D maybe because of the beloved KURT and WEEWEE :D seriously i feel so lucky to be in KURT with all the funky chao-high ppl, to have WEEWEE as instructor :D, to be in base camp 1.

want to blog down everything but some things are just so..hard to express. whatever it is, i think everyone should be proud of me because i completed HEIGHT ELEMENTS, KAYAKING WITH CLARA (haha i thought i will be stranded in the sea forever with clara xD), trekking with at least 10 kg behind my back for the whole day, jetty jump and loads more.

man. i have so much to say i dont know where to start from, grah! whatever it is, KURT seriously rocks. there were many people who said they were jealous of our group because our group is just so HIGH :D its really high to the extend you can nv imagine how can a group of people still be so high under the uncomforatble and tiring conditions. Imagine walking with at least 10 kg on your bag for the whole day and still able to do "GOGOGO OLE OLE OLE" for at least 300 times. Imagine still able to jump about and sing at the top of the voice after trekking for the whole day. Imagine still able to sing song at laugh when it is about to be nightfall and you are still in the middle of the wild. I think only KURT has the ability to do all these, because we are KURT :D

there are just so many things special to us KURT alone, like the coconut song by cheekopek zijin :D the "WHAT IS THE LARGEST MAMMAL IN THE SEA CALLED?", the beanKURT version of ooh-ah, the one and only beanKURT tree, the unique name beanKURT (i bet no other kurt group called themselves that before).

this is kind of sick but i miss eating digestive biscuits, bread with curry chicken and all the weird stuff, raw or half cook maggie mee with a mixture of curry and abalone seasoning, all the different canned food, and last but not least CAFE NOIR (nuah) xD haha! CAFE NOIR is a cute name and unique to our group only :D its a high class biscuit okay!

nearly 24 hrs is about to pass but i still kind of miss KURT, it feels rather weird to wake up and see myself in a big room instead of a small tent, to wake up to see my stuffies instead of the kuku NANA, to roll about on a cushy bed instead of the rocky groud, to wake up after the sunrise instead of the zheekopek shining torch at us to wake us up, to have a proper blanket when its cold instead of curling up like a ball, its just..so different.

i kind of miss WEEWEE you know xD seriously, the first time i saw him i was like "man..this better not be our instructor, he looks so BORING and I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY", but aft 5 days i really dont know how to say and how to thank god for letting us be his last batch before he leave.

had a long chat with nana on the last night when we sleep in the hall, realise she felt just like me. There is just something in WEEWEE that make all of us love him so much and yet want to box him when you think of him xD just this unique thing about him that make ppl cry when we think about the fact that we are about to leave him, he has rly been quite a papa+instructor to us for the 5 days. which instructor will give you his food to eat when trekking, which instructor will tell you all the lame things, which instructor can still laugh when we suan him until its more sour than lemon, when we cover him in the "thing you use for trust fall and trust dive" and let him get whack by other instructors xD, i bet he is the one and only. know i really feel guilty and sad when he gets disappointed in me and us even though he didnt say it. the problem is that he never scolds us even though we all know he is angry with us, he may talk in this piss off tone and give a piss off look but its like, we are never piss off by what he did, instead it make us think even deeper and feel really remorseful. I am quite sure we are the only group who have a camp fire on camp 3, the only group which gets to listen to lame stuff like the "ing-ing" thing. Weewee is just so impactful to me, and maybe the whole group. Just look at the "largest mammal in the sea" thing, although we all think its really lame, but it eventually become our group cheer.

of course weewee is not the only thing that make me miss OBS so much. our members are so enthu and cool too :D we have the superpower zhiyi zheekopek, the hilarious zijin cheekopek and her coconut song, the forever enthu weiqing, the fatima and fatimama hanjing and lydia, the best talking-in-the-night+singing in the forest partner nana :D, the always do weird stuff clara, the zao-voice yining, the brave allyssa who continues even when she is injured, the always make me cry larrie (at least the 1st time i cried was thx to her) and of course, the quiet( or maybe i dont talk to them as much) yet always giving their best KURT-mates like bixuan, yeongtyan, zheyi, shena, zhengyan

okay long enough, this is the best i can express, some other feelings are just indescrible (but i think i said quite a lot xD)

what is the largest mammal in the sea called? WHALE WHALE
what is the largest mammal on the sea called? SHEENA
what is the largest mammal on the land called? CHEEKOPEK
what is the largest tofu in the world called? BEANKURT
what is the best instructor in the world called? WEEWEE!

2007-02-11T18:21:00.000-08:00

HELLO :D new year is coming! yeah so exciting. okay off to do some maths before going for the housewarming party. BYE (: and hello to all who come

2007-01-23T22:15:00.000-08:00

hello. i know i have abandoned you for quite long. but too bad, its almost 10 now and i am rly PRAYING i can slp by 10. lack of slp makes everyone glum (proven during dance today, although it might not be lack of slp, but everyone is sianed) bleah.

soon i will have panda as my relatives, i am sure of that. then cute little eyebags will come residing under my eyes. gosh! thats like horrible. nxt hair will start leaving my scalp cos i drop hair once i lack of sleep. EWW GROSS!

actually i am not feeling happy today cos first I AM LACK OF SLP, next I FEEL LOUSY IN MY WORK and lastly which is almost the main reason as to why i am so pissed today, I CANT STAND YOUR WORKING ATTITUDE (i shall not mention who. interested ppl can try asking me and i will consider telling you, though i doubt anyone is, but ohwells xD)

sec 3 feels so totally different yet so similar, its just sth..but i dont know what is that sth. and sec 3 make me feel dumb cos i always forget the things i had been taught a few days ago which is totally HORRIBLE.. plus i cant concentrate during some lessons because my mind keep switching off. pff!

i am super duper extremely extra pissed now. i just cant stand your working attitude. yes I HATE the way you work. you just dont seem to bother. it just seems like you and your idea are the most and foremost thing everyone should consider, you never ever think about others. and please get the right and essential info before you even start on something, and if you are not sure, CHECK IMMEDIATELY and get back asap, dont drag like the time is going wait for you, for your info everyone else is just as busy, or even busier than you. all i want to say is, learn to respect others, respect your work and learn the fact that this is something about a group, not about you. I HOPE YOU C-H-A-N-G-E man.

fine after venting for so long i shall talk abt some stuff worth smiling :D heh poopoo is still cracking her brain to guess the mysterious person who baked the cookies xD so cute and fun! then on the way home jialing attempts to make us high and bailu blurness sort of make me not as glum, i was seriously super glum and pissed off when i was on my way out of sch. and during lesson when me and huiying were laughing like mad woman xD lastly DANCE of course, though i have been rather sianned and tired during dance recently (which i feel bad about not being high and enthu enough), at least its still one of the things that can make me smile and laugh when i am tired. beloved LAOSHI AND DANCEMATES :D

OHNO! POO GUESSED THE MYSTERIOUS PERSON ALRD! haha xD after much attempt.

talking about lynn! THE NICE COOKIES (: i feel so loved. even till today some ppl are still giving me sweet little presents! yeah :D thanks to all who gave me present AND wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D sheena is officially 15 and 3 days old now!!

2007-01-12T21:48:00.000-08:00

helloo :D i know its been like ages since i last visited you. heh didnt meant to let you die, but i suddenly felt like the amount of time we have everyday is not enough for our usage which is horrible, especially when i see more strands of hair falling and the two bags under my eyes growing day by day!

but well, since its a friday i shall relax a bit as i wait for lifern to send me the template for meeting minutes! anyway i am proud of myself, i finished my maths ytd leaving me with one less hw (: and i finished my one of my chi compre :D now i am left with bio ws 1.1, IH assignment(which i know i will spend years and years on it), one chi compre and CUT MY NEWS ARTICLES!! i hope i can still find the newspaper, i have this bad feeling i brought them to sch for the sch notice board. OHGOD! ih ih ih is making me extra hardworking that i start to read news almost everyday. now i feel so IN with the world :D

anyway!! guess what? i am doing register duty on MONDAY MORNING! so exciting ((: its just walking arnd collecting those registers from the various form teacher but dont you find them so exciting xD i am so glad i am in CIA (: cos if i am not wrong this duties is only done by CIA and HRC members :D

oh you know it rained the whole day today, best weather to sleep, so i was like sleepy the whole day which is B-A-D, cos it makes me feel too lazy to do anything, not even to move. luckily there was huiying beside me to wake me up (you shld know how noisy and crappy she is). and i am sooo glad to know that we finished our chi sia proposal alrd. its this nice topic :D okay at least i find it nice and interesting. i think our bio and chem one oso not bad (: lang arts shld be okay too, maths.. havent discuss..and IH and geog are still like no updates? apparently no teacher mention abt it and we werent told what to do.

had cca then. O.o debbie is in chi dance now :D WELCOME DEBBIE! hah hah! felt super low and down during dance cos i just dont seem to have any strength (though i always no li liang one) no matter how hard i kick or warm up, my eyelids felt so heavy i think my eyes were just half the size of my normal eyes, i cant stretch or ban my pang tui like the past, aiya everything was just WRONG! so i was like half awake state during dance until i started to 'play' with suikim xD haha that got me a little high, then i felt tired so jingwei massaged me :D she attempted to break my bones with her elbow, grah! but still, its comfy, thank you good friend xD haha! aft that i went to play with naomi! she was quite dead at first, but with the great sheena arnd, nth can go wrong :D haha! oh and i learnt something today..GOOSE HONK!

aft dance me together with hern bailu and jialing stayed in sch xD it all started because bailu the slowpok made us leave the studio late, so we were walking with laoshi when she talk abt some newspaper forum thing, so we followed her up to office to see the forum thing xD laoshi thought my chinese was no good! haha its indeed not very good, but better than eng :D left then cos laoshi needed to work only to see the uncle locking the stairs gate! almost got trapped but the security uncle came to save us :D found out the side gate was closed so headed to audi, saw truckloads of food and mrs chitra told us to eat so the 4 of us, like pigs, immediately ran to the food and started gorging (maybe not that kua1 zhang1), and we brought food up for laoshi too :D chit chat with her for a while in the position of PENG2 YOU3 (: we are laoshi's friend. haha. left soon cos laoshi had to work lah and it was alrd 7+.

went back down, almost exploded thanks to uncle jack, JIALING STILL DARE LAUGH! box you ah. then three of them left while i waited for my dearest lovely papa to come fetch me. did my maths tb question then :D feel so accomplished cos i finished them. oh then gladys came and disturb me while i was doing maths, tsk! being nice i encouraged her to eat the food, killing two birds with one stone :D and half the time mr lim and mrs chitra were looking at us, for dont know what reason though.

OKAY! lifern is online. shall go do my minutes now :D off to popular to buy ALOT of things, so excitng :D i love shopping at popular and ntuc, they are even more interesting than gift a name and mini toons (: btw i didnt have an apple today ): AWW! but i have green tea now, yeah!

goodbyes :D oh anyway HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SUIKIM!!(in case i dont get to blog tmr)

2007-01-05T22:53:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO EVERYONE :D HAPPY NEW YEAR (though its quite late alrd) but since this is my first post of the wonderful 2007, its just polite to wish everyone happy new year xD haha! and HAPPY 100th POST ANNIVERSARY. so eventful :D

anyway I AM IN CIA! dont you think its so exciting :D at least it was one of my choices. i chose prc or cia, but i didnt mind fbi too. haha i am soooo glad i got one of my choices even though i only send the sms this morning (cos the msg broke somewhere) x) but then right! CIA SEEMS BUSY. hah hah! nvm i will work hard even if i am bound to become a panda. anyway i alrd have dark eye rings (: GO COUNCIL GO!

haha first 3 days of sch are okay, but i dont know why i am so tired now though we didnt rly had lessons. maybe because we just had sec 1 cca orientation, which is like rly tiring, cos we danced huaji and hudie at one go xD which is super ultra tiring cos its those HIGH HIGH dance where u rly dance your hearts out (actl all dance u do) but these 2 have extra feelings mah :D didnt dance qianhong cos i know i will surely knock into ppl xD so i stretched at that time and guess what, I THINK MY DATIAO IMPROVED :D my jumps have always been L-O-U-S-Y , like rly lousy, and today hern they all cheered for me xD WAHAHA!

then we did syf, super tiring and yisheng wasnt there so i didnt jump during jiu ren wu. i was quite glad cos i didnt had confidence xD so i was trying at home just now with the sofa as support (though its shorter) AND I CLD KICK UP! i was shocked too but YEAH! i hope i will do well on yisheng xD cos somewhat i always feel scared to jump on her in case she fall or get squashed by my heavy weight. but i will try. and u know i tried cos i suddenly thought of laoshi, but dont ask me why i thought of her. its just.. i was going through some actions in my mind then i thought abt how laoshi trusted me so i decided to try and TADA! i did it! yeah :D i rly rly dont want to disappoint laoshi on mon so I WILL DO IT EVEN IF I AM SCARED TILL MY LEG TURN JELLY :D jiayou sheena! hah xD

mm..up till now i think my teachers are all very nice :D i have two hod!! ms christine lee the hod of sci dept who is our niceeeeee bio teacher, SUPER YOUNG, and quite interesting. then ms jasmine tan the hod of maths dept (: i am glad she didnt rmb me cos last yr i kept looking for her xD haha! she is sooo gentle, so feel quite weird aft having ms yeo for 2 yrs (: but she teaches quite fast, like ms yeo, or maybe A BIT slower, but she is a good teacher :D then we have wulaoshi as our chinese teacher, she is not the joker kind but then i heard that she is quite nice and good so i hope she rly is :D then i wont mind being her chi rep! HEH (: actl i dont mind, i mean dont mind being for the rest of the yr (if the class choose me xD). then we have the funny joker mr lim as our PURE geog teacher, haha i guess it will be funny to learn geog now xD then mr han, he seems quite scary. oh no, his CONTENT is the one that is scary, hope he is nice. then we have mrs irene tan as our l.a teacher, she is nice too (: but then didnt have official lesson yet so not too sure but i DONT think and i HOPE my opinion wont change :D then lastly we have our caring and motherly form teacher cum chem teacher MRS SUSAN CHEW! she is rly interesting i think (: so basically i have all the nice nice teacher. i hope sec 3 will be a nice yr :D
sias are coming our way...OOH NO! well we just have to cope :D off to slp now so i wont turn into a panda so soon (: BYE!

2006-12-26T20:46:00.000-08:00

I HATEEEEEEE FEVER! pff. i am so pissed now. cos my head feel so heavy and my feet feel so cold. actually right! i was okay this morning cos i slept aft i finished breakfast for like 3 hrs? and i didnt on the fan+i covered myself with a thick thick blanket. so i sort of recovered. at least the temp was normal -.- although my voice still didnt come back and my flu still went on. it was until aft i bathe when the fever came back. GRAH! my grandparents say cos its super cold and i went to bathe+ i havent fully recover. aiya shld have known to set to the HIGHEST temp since it had been raining the whole day. but I AM STILL PISSED! cos not only it didnt recover, i have headache too.

i really hate falling sick on holidays! time to enjoy yet i am staying in bed.

and thanks to the fever i didnt go for dance. as in..well! i may not be dancing for countdown but i want to go and learn the dance. as to why i am not dancing i shall say later. the point is! i WAS supposed to go and learn but the stupid fever stopped me.

okay now as to why i am not dancing is because ytd while we were having our bbq (which i didnt get to eat much! pff) my dad suddenly mention abt the firework display thing at dunno where and so the whole family decided to go there and go for a countdown together. not very nice of me to turn the whole family down right cos i remembered last yr i oso didnt go out with them for countdown cos we had some activity in cf xD and moreover my aunt+whole family, my uncle, my cousin, my family, and my GRANDPARENTS are going. its my grandparents okay! its so seldom they will go out with us. so i manage to get suikim to take over me. yeah and thats how the story end. i am SO SORRY i cant go anymore x(

and right! i think its from the standing too much ytd and the walking too much the day before, my aching muscles are no longer aching but are suan now. suan to the extend i cant even slp at night. like..you know! aiya u have to feel it yourself. so i cant jump properly now. maybe they rly dont wish me to dance huh..go against me. now i even have difficulty balancing at times, like might just lean back anytime. GRR! nvm. i will make sure i recover before friday, so i can dance hudie (:

my parents are asking me not to go tmr -.- they say i will spread the GERMS to my fellow dancemates, and if i rly dont recover i cant even go for dance on fri. which means i will miss hudie!! cos they say the weather is cold, so i shld not run abt+ dancing will worsen it when i jump. BUT THEN! suikim cant make it, and they have to do dui xing, so i shld go stand a place..and i really want to learn qianhong! so PEOPLE! PRAY FOR ME THAT I RECOVER KAY :D okay off to rest! bye :D

2006-12-23T08:24:00.000-08:00

hello there everyoneeee :D i am not aching as much anymore. YEAH!

anyway i see a kind of boring day ahead of me xD cos there is no dance today, and i have settled all my christmas days gift so i have practically nth to be busy abt. except my commonwealth but i decided to do it aft christmas (:

anyway we had dance ytd so i woke up EARLY in the morning just to go to sch :D so exciting cos its like ages since i step into dance studio for dance, and plus the fact i am aching all over i have to give spare time for me to travel xD so all alone and independent (because mummy refuse to fetch me to sch for her slping time) i survive my way to NANYANG GIRLS' HIGH SCHOOL :D its so irritating okay cos i was carrying my jacket, bag, and my christmas gifts up the bus then i cld not walk RLY properly so ppl were looking at me, grah!

then aft a long walk, i finally reach DANCE STUDIO :D had difficulty moving arnd cos of the steps, and cant even do a proper split. pff! but then, i was the one of the lucky 20 of the day :D in fact i am the first! HAH HAH HAH! thank you suikim for the little goodie bag :D

so as usual we were joking all the way before dance officially start and we shared our WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE of camp with everyone :D bailu said i gained muscles. YEAH! i loveeee camp <3 you know i was just thinking, if we didnt break camp one day earlier, which means we break camp at thurs like the beginning plan, we wld most probably be dead during dance.

then laoshi told us to train ppl like bailu with our camp stuffs! HAH HAH HAH :D and we tried that. bailu face turned red like tomato xD i dont know why okay! but laoshi keep saying i am small! when actually i am almost same height as coreen and she claims that coreen is tall! hmph. but nvm. small is cute :D haha! and laoshi gave us chocolates to eat, YEAH!

aft dance me wongliang poo bailu and jialing headed off to kap for lunch :D dance in afternoon was cancelled cos the debate ppl wanted to use it. so anyway, we went there and chit chat for like 1 hr+? i still cant get over poo's scenerio question! eww.

okay i am going for breakfast alrd. and this is to complete rebecca wish. REBECCA is a GAY! :D okay bye!

2006-12-20T23:17:00.000-08:00

COUNCIL CAMP!!!!! I SOOOO SOOOO SOOOO LOVEEEE COUNCIL CAMP!

yeah even though its tough and tiring both physically and mentally, and like we were in pain or down in morale and stuff..we still did it! AS A WHOLE COUNCIL :D

there is just soo much to say, i really cant express my feelings..i am just so high now. its like..camp has inspired me so much (that i am willing to not slp just to blog abt it though my eyelids are closing) and made me feel so much..its just this rush of feeling that goes VOOM inside me..excitement, happiness, accomplishment, and so many others!

haha i know all the activities are tough, but we did it! we make it :D i think council camp was rly camp! its just so...INSPIRING. its the ever first camp that made me cry. (during heaven and hell) well at first was because of the pain and the situation we were in, but that was only like 1 or 2 drops? its when i heard the ppl opposite at heaven cheering us on, despite the long distance between us and the noisy rain, they still cheered for us. and i was sort of touched, thats why i cried. back to heaven i was rather okay until when i look out and see the rest still suffering, its rly heart-wrenching. and when we did sang a song for them in heaven, i cried again. i know its quite hilarious to others but its just that..we felt so bonded. and i was not the only one okay! lianghui the crybaby cried too! even hern cried so what u expect -.-

actl i feel like thanking a lot of ppl but didnt have rly a chance to say all.. but still! i want to say thank those who have cheered me on, cheered everyone on, put in their full effort! I AM SO PROUD OF COUNCIL :D

oh and i think the ppl who organzied the camp are SO INSPIRING :D i just love them! though they were harsh on us at times but at least we learn something. i think qui jun is a good leader :D and charmaine too! and of course the moderators, programme ic.

I LOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEE COUNCIL! I LOVE COUNCIL TO THE CORE! I LOVE BATCHMATES, SENIORS! I LOVE THE WHOLE COUNCIL! I LOVE NYSC! I LOVE DEC COUNCIL CAMP 06!

oh and i hope we survive dance on friday, esp when there is still training for huaji aft dance. oh and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LAOSHI!

anyway shall show u an interesting convo from just now. dont read if u feel bored then. fine its too long. so i shall not post :D for information you can look for me hern chewfei grace estella or even GWEN! haha xD once again..

I LOVE COUNCIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

ITS CAMP TOMORROW! oh no oh god oh dear oh yeah!

seriously i dont know why but i am feeling very nervous and scared now because its COUNCIL CAMP. though its going to be fun but scary too. the "keep to kit list" rule alone makes the whole thing feel so strict. but once again.. amongst the scared and nervous feeling i am feeling so excited cos i just got this feeling its going to be fun and i will be a crazy woman there enjoying myself xD HAHA! i just hope i wont faint during PT. cos pt trains ur stamina (like hern say, its willpower and i have xD but still..its scary. esp when u r slow. haha ppl if i pull u back dont scold me!), arm power which is totally DEAD cos my arms are like jelly :D actually pt is the only thing that is making me feel scared, i am totally fine with the others. oh and bathing! EXCITING. haha. not to forget sleeping..so fun ((:

haha okay off to slp! shall save loads of energy for camp tmr :D and daddy promised me he will drive me to sch. YEAH! hern i hope ur dad and bro will be nice to drive u too xD HAHA!

2006-12-15T19:21:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO :D camp is coming soon! so exciting! then i realise how little time i have left and i still have so many things undone!

1)COMMONWEALTH ESSAY! (dont say i am lazy to leave the hol hw to the last min, i rly have no inspiration)
2)pack my bag for camp
3)christmas presents!
4)christmas cards (whether handmade or electronic ones)
5)write down the list of things to get daddy to buy
6)wrap nxt yr books
7)burn the strap of my bag xD

well at least i finished my council cheer motto mission pledge and songs (: and of course sch song and cheer! yeah! and i bought the exchange gift alrd. after a long loong search :D i feel happy and sad for whoever receives my present cos its so nice but it makes u not nice! haha.

anyway lets just talk a little abt ytd. we had dance as usual. reached sch exceptionally early and thought I AM THE FIRST! but teoying was there alrd -.- then waited and waited and joanna came! followed by suikim :D we were then sent off by joanna to buy laoshi a bottle of WATER. so we walk walk walk to the petrol station and bought the water. then miss yeo sui kim happily bought an ice cream for her breakfast at 8.00. tsk!

so we walk walk walk back after completing our mission to realise there were quite a few others in studio alrd. then being nice i shared my gummies with everyone :D (unlike suikim who ate the ice cream herself xD)

THEN! didnt lian gong, just dance and dance and dance. oh we practised council cheer song and pledge too. we were trying so hard to get the tune. haha btw! i think lianghui's grp cheer is super cute. and she was laughing at my grp. well! ours is cute too :D its so..UNIQUE! HAH HAH HAH.

peehua came and bought us some nice food. then i got pulled to eat with jialing and bailu because she didnt want to go home. so we hop on the bus and headed for bukit timah plaza but ended up in kap because we were too lazy to walk. sit inside, eat, and chitchat and gossip for ONE AND A HALF HOURS! dont ask us how we manage to do that. i guess we wont even stp if bailu mum didnt call xD haha! oh note! dont ever let hern have a tray to herself because she will start to destroy it. seriously me and jialing pitied the auntie who was going to clear.

then i reached home and started my eating campaign. ate spaghetti at arnd 5, then a HUGE DINNER at 8. together with fruits and dessert. haha! i know its a lot. but right..look on the bright side. we can burn off the fats and calories during council camp :D

today.. i THINK we are supposed to go and get laoshi present. i am not too sure. ytd they were talking abt it. but anyway i cant make it because its my great grandfather death anniversary. (note lianghui cheryl hern bailu and jialing its NOT BIRTHDAY!) cos they were thinking its his birthday when i say "tmr is my grandfather anniversary".

then once again. i went on a food campaign. we had roast duck curry chicken and lots of other nice food. aiya say i am horrible but i am just preparing myself for council camp xD haha (thats an excuse but it does pass). anyway! daddy is coming back tmr :D cheerios! so he can send me to sch on monday morning! okay off i go! oh and I CUT MY HAIR (: something to be happy abt cos i have been dragging for 1 mth or so. BYE!

2006-12-14T21:15:00.000-08:00

SO BORING!!

i am so glad i survived today without dance. i was practically rotting at home. the 2 most common place i visited today is my bedroom and the kitchen. (u know what i mean..)

but right! at least i manage to finish a few of my christmas present that i am going to give out :D yeah! though my fingers are aching now. at least i finished A FEW :D i hope i can finish in time. and its not very nice..so whoever is going to receive haha..dont feel sad (: and i am very troubled now! because of the limited resources i have..i have problem as to give to who! cos i am lack of a few. maybe i shall just get nice candies for the rest :D shall see my mood! HAHA!

yeah dance tmr. burn off all the fats and calories i gain today. hoho! okay off to watch tv. fingers are aching from typing. BYE :D

2006-12-13T21:01:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOO!

haha. i am feeling super E-X-C-I-T-E-D for council camp (: but super scared too xD esp PT. i just have this feeling i will fall flat on my face. but i believe it will be fun. all u need is MOTIVATION (: countdown 5 days to camp!

anyway dance is nice :D but laoshi is doing lesser and lesser for xiaoges. quite sad. but still..be happy we still have a place (: always look on the bright side. we believe laoshi will see our effort :D unlike some ppl who just wants ATTENTION and is not working hard. GRAH! but i hope laoshi do more for xiaoges. PLEASE! all the xiaoges are so sad now ): but still..we shld be happy we have a place in dance (: i know laoshi cld have just do without us but she insist on putting us up so we must work hard! LAOSHI IS NICE :D okay i sound over enthu but still..we must work hard lah. working hard and SHOWING RESPECT is the most impt thing.

anyway i shall be honest. i am JUST ANOTHER SNR :D okay i know hern alrd reveal my little secret for me but still! i will be honest :D INTEGRITY! remember? i have to say bobo is really clever. she actl knows its me.

to simin: even if you are going to hate me for this, i still have to say it to you. i was watching you today, u dont seem to pay much attention to the pai lian zhe (whether its linkai quekying or siming) so i hope u show some respect to them too. u shld know how hard it is to actl kou so many ppl and also to ensure the quality of the whole dance. they are working so hard and there u r not working hard at all. even WE SENIORS can see that there are many more who are improving very quickly. they may not be flexible or what but if we were to choose, we wld rather put these ppl who work hard up then to put someone who keeps praising herself and not willing to work hard, but keep harping on the same old thing that she is flex. i am not suaning you or whatever but flex alone will bring u nowhere :D

okay! i sound like a big philosopher. now lets talk abt my interesting day. early in the morning i took the bus and i met jialing on the bus :D so we start gossiping and i realise she is someone..u know as in she tag as someone. HOHO! if u know. good for u, if not. sad case ): then we watched opening cd by hern. I LOVE DAIDAO!! i want to learn it. pls! i hope laoshi let me learn it for sec 4 dance night.

then we dance dance and miss our lunch. oh so sad. but at least we sort of confirm the ppl for hudie. I LOVE HUDIE TOO :D so me hern and lianghui rush to popular to get food but didnt even get to eat it -.- luckily we survived (:

and here comes the most unlucky thing of the day. i alighted from the bus and walked abt 10 steps after the bus stp then i felt small droplets so i ran back to the bus stp and got stuck there for like 50 min?!? was hoping mummy car wld pass by and quickly save me. i realised lightning like to strike choa chu kang that area, i counted like more than 20 lightnings okay. scary! and in my state of daze i heard a car horn. MUMMY IS HERE TO SAVE ME! but its very weird, i was looking out for her car and i didnt see a single sign of it but still! luckily she saw me at the bus stp (cos my phone was not on in fear i might attract the lightning though i dunno if it does xD)

okay off to watch tv! bye everyone (: oh pray that i remember the cheers by this wk! i dont want to die during camp xD but they are quite catchy. except council song is quite hard. ohno!

2006-12-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOO (:

just had dance camp today. no stayover though. cos laoshi say she is too tired to take care of us if she stay in studio with us so we basically just had dance the whole day (9 to 6) lian gong in the morning for like 2 hrs. then did syf and BREAK! had chicken rice (: the uncle cheated us though. there was supposed to be veg in the rice but they didnt put. then there is supposed to be char siew rice but apparently there isnt any as well. pff. and poor yiyi didnt get to eat. so she ate our rice instead :D we are such nice people.

then went back and slacked for a while. played a number of games. bianca is really a poo man! she is sooooo slow in the tempo game. and bailu just keep laughing non stp. yiyi is even worse, she just keep laughing. surprisingly lianghui is quite steady. and not to say..me and jialing are steady too :D hern is a bit... slow at times xD haha!

then watched sec 1 dance. and chen lao shi came to take measurements while we danced hudie. LOVE HUDIE TRUCKLOADS! its just...so nice :D so nice then u unknowilling just smile when you hear the music. its just... SO NICE (: i really really hope i get to dance it. PLEASE!!! i really love hudie ((:

then we did a bit of syf and soon..dance ended. stupid journey home was so long. wasted my time. reached home at like 8 can! feel so slpy now but cant slp thanks to the late dinner i had. have to digest. bleah! and i washed my leotard cos my the other one is not at home.. i HOPE it dries tmr under the cooold cooold aircon..okay to lazy to blog alrd :D bye!

2006-12-01T21:53:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO :D feeling happy now cos i just ate icecream. hah (:

anyways. not rly in the mood to blog. but nth better to do..so.. aiya.

oh cca today was quite nice (: LAOSHI IS NICE :D she knows that we are tired so she didnt rly lian gong. changed quite some part for dance then. natalie is not here again. sigh!! then watched the sec 1s dance. improve a lot. oh there is no more gold with honours for syf nxt yr.

okay feel dont feel like typing alrd. BYE BLOG (:

2006-11-30T22:12:00.000-08:00

HELLO BACK FROM CHALET :D i looooooooooveeeeeeee chalet!

so first day early in the morning I woke up and lug my chalet stuff to sch. i feel super super cos i had a fat round slingbag on my shoulders then another shoebag in my hand and hugging my sleeping bag (: my mum say i look okay though. then i helped a blind man up the bus and the bus driver smiled at me :D haha! okay kind of high once i think abt chalet. then had dance and eh..OFF TO CHALET!

went to kap to eat then took a bus to the mrt station. guess we cant rly go out as a big grp cos we are super noisy and we pissed loads of ppl off! we did grocery shopping in less than 15 mins. i think dancers are rly good shoppers (: haha! but we missed the bus by THAT LITTLE. pff. then took cab to chalet. got stuck to the sofa as we watch STICK IT :D nice! then bathe and ordered pizza and EATING time (: haha shall skip all the details lah. some things are better kept unsaid (: haha dumb. i loveeeeee my roomates! jialing hern bailu coreen liwen amanda siming and teoying :D gossip gossip. heh. i think we can be gossipers nxt time if we cant find a job. CHOY! haha. but still..its fun. now i have YOUR secrets and you have MINE. tsktsk. slept in slping bag and got harrassed by jialing. noisy pokk. and thank you amanda for giving up your pillow for me (: yeah!

second day we woke up and prepared breakfast!! had bread, kaya, nice milo and some old and wrinkled hotdogs xD haha initial plan was to go swimming BUT..due to many many reasons it was cancelled. so we ended up being the breakfast maker :D and i am a good water boiler! oh btw. i think microwaving hotdogs are cool as we see them on the verge of EXPLODING :D haha!
then snrs woke up and off to ESCAPE! this time we were in time for the shuttle bus but GUESS WHAT? the bus dont allow standing so we still didnt get to take it. fine then... and the nxt bus is like 1 hr later? so we walked out in hope of taking the bus but no bus stp was in sight. ended up in a maxi cab. quite cool (: there was a tv and it was screening rob b hood. hah!

escape!! i was the sec 1 nice snr cum nanny :D so nice right! hah fine. i admit i am timid i dare not take many rides thats why. but u cant blame me! its btr i be a nice nanny and bond with them then end up as a jellyfish or crybaby right. and i dont want to end up fainting or puking. so first! we went into the haunted hse. brave amanda took the lead. then all of us scream for nth. whether scary or not. aft which took FERRIS WHEEL :D its cool okay. took with siming. and we were like so spacious but teoying said hers was crammed? then eh..we played go kart! my driving skills are not bad :D but my parking skills are kind of lousy. erhem..heh. anyway we just had loads of fun. and i got many toys in return (: well whether its cos the sec 1s love me or they dont want the toys, i feel so touched! now my sis and bro are playing with the toys. aft that we just kept playing and then BUMPERBOAT! got sprayed and attacked till i got wet. grah! cos the jnrs all hid behind me. but nvm.. i attacked hern shuhui bailu jialing and even liwen! or coreen too. practically everyone :D

soon..go home time. snrs went to pasir ris to bike and we wanted to go to tanah merah but dreams were shattered thanks to the shuttle bus which went off again! PISSED WITH SHUTTLEBUS! so we took cab because we decided not to bike anymore. went back chalet..bathe..eat loads of food. cheryl and eugena almost finished one full pack of wan wan. jialing is another one. then had pizza. i ate the nice crust that ho didnt want. and this is when hern came up with her milo bread. tsk! so we bathe! and ended up laughing while watching yu le bai fen bai. super funny (: sec 3s came back then and went out for swim except jingwei. haha! watched uptown girls from 6 to 7 and had cup noodles. nice eh :D then we kouped the fruits. cos we were super hungry. watched tian wai fei xian and bailu shuhui soon had to leave. aft which project superstar. eh its quite fun watching it with ppl of our age. but i think me and jialing were kind of noisy cos even amanda and siming shhh us. not to say hern -.- and liwen was just..quiet! coreen went home... btw its fun coaching her maths (: then we watched this 9 o clock show and i got bored and started building stuff with mahjong (: quite nice okay!

got bored aft that so we went to bowl since we had one free game so go for fun lor. for the 1st time in my many yrs after being a lousy bowler who always have her ball in drain..i bowled again. NOT BAD LEH (: then eh.. went back.. eat..cleared up and stuff.. and slp. cos super tired from escape. haha got quite high so me and jialing started entertaining each other and ended up laughing non stp.

in the morning alarm rang but too lazy to wake up so slept till like 8+ but we still make it in time. had breakfast then cleared up and tada! check out. quite sad ): and i didnt help out much for breakfast. sorry ppl xD cos i woke up late.

because it was still early..we went to changi airport and i think we rly qualify as a tourist with all our bags. went to the viewing mall..is that what you call it? chit chat..eat..stone..and head off for terminal 1 for the turn right and turn left food court. guess what i eat? GUESS LAH! its...yu pian mi fen again!! and hern? guess... its yu pian tang+rice again! haha. fine kind of stupid but i realise we always eat that at food court. but its nice what. except this fish is SWEET. rly sweet! even hern and amanda say so. siming think its okay though O.o

watched performance at the people theatre. i am sry but i slept for the first half. then interval we got free food :D super hungry. wanted to leave but decided to be nice. even xiaoxinying they all left okay! then second half we spent our time playing game and disturbing LIWEN X) HAHAH! jialing dad sent me and bailu home (: nice! her dad is super funny.. okay. and we were observing the clouds while telling the story of tian wai fei xian. thats all!

I LOVE DANCE CHALET! and all the people who went (: even if you didnt stay! i want another chalet!! i hope there is more ppl though. but if there is only like this..i wont mind again (: not as if we cant survive. we had truckloads of fun as well! just that the cost is a bit erhem..haha. but the more the merrier :D

okay super slpy..off to slp cos there is dance tmr!

2006-11-25T16:45:00.000-08:00

HELLO :D just changed my url since i had some inspiration. i think the word fahrenheit sounds cool :D its actually some degree of measurement or sth like this. just happen to come by this word. think it sounds chim so erhem.. HAHA (:

dance chalet is coming! yeah :D actually i dont know what to blog so goodbye. just very excited. off to eat more food now! cos daddy bought 2 more boxes of ice cream. so i currently have 2 tubs+ 2 boxes of ice cream (:

okay shall go and enjoy food and listen to nice songs (: GOODBYE!

2006-11-16T22:01:00.000-08:00

HELLLOOOO :D

yeah sheena is happy sheena is high! but she herself also dont know why! eh it sorts of rhyme. COOL (:

haha self amusement! anyway! CLASS ALLOCATION IS OUT :D got into same class as tianhui huiying clara and lydia siewying. OH! and lianghui cherylHO and coreen (: so cool! 5 dancers and 4 counsillors cos melanie is in the same class. poo and eugena got into same class as sandy! our neighbours :D

anyway all i can say is CCA IS NICE :D <33333

GOODBYES. off to sleep now so that i can wake up in time for cca tmr :D and we are going to vivo. STEPUP HERE WE COME!

2006-11-15T21:52:00.000-08:00

GRAH! i am having this stupid headache now. i hope it goes off tmr. PLEASE ):

so anyway. a fulfilling day. woke up at 5+ in the morning FOR CHUAHERNHERN because she wants us (me jialing bailu) to reach sch early to help her with her backwalk. so in the midst of my halfawakeness i reach sch at 7.30! which is like half an hour earlier. how wld i know the bus uncle wld drive so fast and there wld be no jam right! luckily hern came at 7.50 to save me from the boredom :D

then jialing came soon and we warmed up. felt super tired..and jialing started dragging me round the dance studio ON MY BUTT. poor butt. a while more and it wld have caught fire. and guess what. i yawned 20 times for the whole day in sch! jialing say it is due to lack of oxygen but it doesnt rly make sense considering the fact that there was only 3 of us in studio and i dont yawn as much when more ppl are arnd.

anyway! not the point. so we warmed up and as u know..our intention was to help hern with her backwalk. but ended up jialing had much more accomplishment then her cos she needed LOTS OF MENTAL PREPARATION and dunno what lah. i almost fell aslp while holding the mat for her. bailu was much more cleverer. came later at 8.30 like that when hern just started to go down her FIRST yao. (she was supposed to start at 8 okay!)

then hern had this gibberish string of word. some WOBUGEIYI thing lah. and i think hern is becoming more and more like a 6 yr old kid! jialing is 9. i am 12 :D and yiyi is 15! haha i think bailu qualifies for 18!

soon aft laoshi came and help hern. well laoshi is afterall laoshi. hern manage to flip over.

then we had dance. dance dance and dance and finally dance ended. which is quite sad ): then went for om meeting. i was quite unproductive. sorry ppl ): then wanted to go back to studio but realised i promised sandy to go home. so went home with her and on the bus we were talking abt a lot of stuff. some were quite dumb though xD example is her attempt to know what chue kueh is. AIYA dunno how to spell. i realised sandy is quite deprived of knowledge on food names.

then we went to the food court and spent half an hour there just to finish a meal. after which walked home. u shld have seen two of us. we were super pathetic. thanks to the stomach that was going to burst anytime and the buckle felt like it cld just fly out and hit someone's face lah!

stupid headache is killing me shall go and slp before i end up feeling sick and miss dance tmr ): I WANT DANCE!!

2006-11-13T21:14:00.000-08:00

HEYO! first i want to say sth. MY OM GRP PPL! i am super sorry but the proposal tianhui send is like.. i dunno how to start x) so u all can do a bit then send back to me and i will do it on wed since i cant use com tmr. can? AIYA SORRY AH! i will do the final one. i promise :D HAH!

okay had dance for the past few days. sat and sun went back to cf to practise for the nxt week dance thing at HWACHONG! dont ask me why we are going there. anyway i dont rly mind where issit as long as there is food :D and i dont think they are so cheapo right..so it means nice food (: btw applause for me i learnt 2 dances in less than 1 hr (: cheerios! and i can spin my shoujing now. at least it is not as horrible xD then ended up with blueblack on knees. its rly horrible. cos before the poor blueblack cld heal, i have to kneel again. so i doubt they will ever heal. i just hope it does not worsen.

then had dance in ny today ((: woke up with this super bad flu that made me use up almost 2 packs of tissue. met sandy and went to sch together. oh dont scream but i ate 2 baos for breakfast xD haha dont say i am horrible okay cos they are so puny small and cute and NICE! its from this famous stall.. so yeah. took bus then talk a lot! not even a single second of peace. but it helps in making me forget abt the flu. thank you sandy :D HAHA!

after which went for dance and i was holding a tissue in my hand when dancing. so u can imagine how bad it is right! i think i am super horrible today. VERY UNHAPPY with my standard today. as in..i am not good but i think i am super bad today. tmr i shall do super seriously. put in 200% effort!! i hope the flu stops cos it made me unable to dance properly. BLEAH! i feel damn bad to laoshi ): but i think laoshi is super nice :D haha! fine i always say that..BUT SHE IS NICE WHAT!

then nice sandy waited for me cos dance ended 1 hr later. heh sorry ah sandy. went for lunch at northpoint. oh then we were talking abt stupid stuffs on the bus. HAHA EASTERTUNABUN x) stupid peacock and his neopets.

anyway LUNCH! walked one round arnd the food court. almost died there thanks to sandy which knows ZERO things abt noodles. believe it or not she does not know what MEEPOK is. what a big POK! hah and as expected. we ended up at macs. got the shock of my life and almost died of heart attack when we finish buying our food. shall not elaborate much but feel lucky i didnt drop the ice cream. then i was nice and help sandy finish 2 of her nuggets and she was being mean by trying to scare me because i cld see no one behind me! grr..

anyway then we walk walk and got cold and decided to go home. bought doughnuts home for ppl to eat :D so nice right! and we saw super cool bread. HAH! i shall try the apple puff thing someday (: yeah the flu is not as bad now! but RIGHT! it always comes in the morning and gone at night. if only dance is at night. AIYA! okay off to help mummy with some stuff. BYE :D

2006-11-09T21:20:00.000-08:00

HEYOOOO :D

super tired now. actually i dont know if its dance that is making me so tired cos i just keep sleeping the whole day and for the past few days i have been feeling super slpy. like as long as no one is talking to me the first thing that comes to my mind is SLP! and i just slept for like2 hrs and i feel like slping again. OHNO!

actually its not dance fault since dance is so fun and nice :D didnt lian gong for these few days. mostly did dui xing. so COOL. cool as in cool and COLD.. almost freeze to death these two days. but still..i love dance (: yeah!

anyway i am super pissed with the clinic! cheat me! cos ytd we went to check the opening time since ahma had to go see a doctor. then it shows 0800-1230, 1400-1600, 1900-to some timing lah. then on the door they paste SO SMALL a piece of paper saying not open on tues wed and thurs night. SO CHEATER! made us go there all the way. sorry ahma ): so to say sorry went with her today aft dance (:

oh twinnie is back from chalet. and btw lianghui has a stinky skirt x( so yeah! sandy was nice accompanied me to see the TIME for the clinic opening and i was nice i walked home with her :D

cannot take it alrd! VERY TIRED. shall end here. dance everyday nxt wk (: WHEE! bye!

2006-11-07T21:25:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOO :D okay i am very happy now cos i just ate A chocolate. the point is i ate A chocolate so not a lot (: and secondly chocolate makes u happy :D well at least chocolate dont require SHAKING! right hernhern??

not much happen today. felt sleepy the whole day so kept eating to keep myself awake. ended up eating a lot of fruits (: but its good! lots of dietry fibre to prevent constipation that may lead to poison due to too much toxic :D HAH!

so had dance early in the morning. once again the journey was SOOO SOOO LOONG and cold even though i wore pe shirt! then listening to the slow music and the jam was sooo sooo loong! luckily i wasnt late (: elmo didnt take the bus! AWW. haha fine. but i took the same bus as this hci guy which i took bus with ytd. i think he looks a bit weird xD fine sry ppl! not meant to be impolite.

then went into dance studio and WOOOSH! the aircon came dashing into my face. soooo coooold! plus we only did dui xings so erm...get to wear jacket the whole day. LUCKILY! cherylhoho almost froze. u shld have hear her talk. so amusing :D

oh laoshi talked to us abt quite some stuff today. well i dont know what to say. cos i do have attitude at times too so its not anyone fault to blame as to the behavior cos u cant rly control urself when u r pissed right. all i want to say is learn from the mistake and POOPOO. dont be sad anymore :D everyone wld get accuse some times in their life. its just a part of life. as long as we know you are not the one..its okay :D and i believe laoshi do as well. so dont cry anymore (: i think laoshi is a very..SPECIAL and err.. i dunno what to use..shen sheng? person. somewhat she always make me think through her words and learn sth from it though they are just simple words and happenings in life. and i think ny has a lot of shen sheng ppl who always make me think through my actions. ppl like ms yeo, laoshi, and sometimes friends as well (: like hern -.- and err.. tianhui and others! and its quite sad to know so many teachers are leaving. like MS YEO! oh gosh. and one day we leave laoshi as well..how do we survive ):

aft dance walked to the bus stp with the two chuas. hernhern decided to walk cos she drank A SMALL CAN OF GUAVA JUICE. rubbish right? and now according to her she is EATING MILO powder. i think that is sth quite wrong with her mind. then poor yiyi had to cross the bridge alone as i get tortured by hern cos she sae i am soft and started pinching me like a RUBBER DUCK. aft a while..we saw SOME ppl walking towards us and up the bridge and HEH! shall not elaborate. its not nice to do that (: just some gossipy stuff.

haha okay! aft that went home. eat and eat and eat until now and i am going to slp soon! GOODNIGHTS :D

2006-11-06T21:17:00.000-08:00

HELLOOO :D sheena is officially very excited now! haha cos today is an interesting and full of happenings day (: shall we start from EARLY in the morning since i am so bored now!

so early in the morning sheena was the first to wake up :D so cool right! then i changed and made my own breakfast! MILO (: haha fine nth great. aft that went to grandparents hse with parents to send siblings there, then they sent me to interchange. board the bus and sat on the cooold cooold bus. luckily my jacket was there :D survived with the help of my beloved mp3. then saw ELMO on the bus :D haha fine elmo is just so cute aft sandy decided to name elmo elmo, HAH :D i know my eng is chim! but apparently elmo didnt see me x( aww! haha kidding.

then went for dance. quite surprised to see it open before official cca time (: btw ah! i got my subject combi :D okay out of point. then had dance. almost died cos i had no strength and dont say i am lousy but my back and hands are still aching from LAST FRIDAY! like omg. so during lian gong i almost collapse.

aft which stayed in studio until 12+. then had a SHORTSHORT chat with laoshi cos hern wants to tell sth. laoshi knows i am a laoda o.O so cool! haha. she say i sound like i am talking to my little sis when i talk to hern and jialing about locking the door x) i am so gentle! then took 170 to bugis to get OUR leotard and tights (: super urgent! luckily we cld make it there or i will die considering there are dance almost everyday and its raining :D so on the train we were gossiping.. and gossiping.. and abt some COURT stuffs x) HAHA!

guess what. exciting thing of the day. sheena dropped her wallet with $80++ ON THE BUS! surprisingly i wasnt like on the verge of crying or fainting and i was quite calm and steady :D except i called the lost and found center 20+times. but still..luckily we found my wallet back! thank you hern and jialing for accompanying me x) HAHA! and of course..BUS UNCLE! i love you!!!

then we walked in the rain to raffles hospital for lunch. did some rly stupid stuff on the road, shall not elaborate. all of us ended up eating fish slice beehoon/rice/meesuah instead of what we wanted. and i realised its nice :D then walked over to golden landmark and got our tights! the short one :D so fun! hern decided to get one as well when we tempt her to buy. and i think the small changing room is damn cool. considering it can hold 2 person at one go (:

aft which walked our way to stageimage. went to cheers to get some stuff and realised hern is so YOUNG AT HEART she is eating gummies. then walked and saw this map. and once again, the laoda solve the mystery of the map. i shall not tell you how slow the 2 clever ppl beside me all the while were.. so we walked.. and walked.. and yeah! STAGE IMAGE. its super small...squeeze our way in, then to the toilet...then all the way out. aiya practically squeezing all way through. hern and jialing got their leotard custom made there while i decided to go back to costume shop. not that stage image is not good but i cant wait anymore :D so heh!

walk and walk, then realised didnt help yiyi asked, so walk back. met liying and fengjun there..then left aft buying yiyi tights, then walked into this gigantic toy shop that is super cool and cute :D to think we actl were attracted by NEW BORN BABIES toys. and i finally realised how mature i am seeing the 2 child-in-the-heart girls beside me. tsk

then walked, and saw this nice flip flops. wanted to each get a pair but didnt. suddenly i feel liek having it! nvm. lets go buy it when they need to collect their leotards. so we walked and walked back to costume shop and two of them helped me choose several INTERESTING leotards. tried like 1001 and finally settled with this so called interesting loopsided one. hah! then walked to station and took train and FINALLY HOME :D

then i told my grandparents and parents abt my wonderful experience and as expected their reaction was HUH O.O UR WALLET? BACK OR NOT. hah (: and so sheena is happy and ate truckloads of food and now i am off to slp! dance tmr (: laoshi sae doing dui xing so shld be not as tough..and quite fun. ohwells! NIGHTS PPL (: sheena is happy!

2006-11-03T23:33:00.000-08:00

i dunno what to say..there is too much for me to say. all i want is to dedicate this song to 2o7'o6. thanks for leaving me with so much beautiful memories..i never cried so badly before. not even during p6. i guess its because, you all have been such a miracle to me. this is for you, 2o7..

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that
I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm………
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm………
Remember me this way

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm………
Remember me this way

2006-10-31T21:15:00.000-08:00

hello (: shall just post a bit. oh weiyi is back. WELCOME BACK HOME WEIYI :D but i think hongkong made her become more mature until i cant communicate with her well. i hope she returns back to her childish state aft a few days (:

so we had choral and drama today. quite screwed x( morning was practising of SHAKING with wiggy and yixian. then took report book. quite pleased :D aft which went to coro to buy food for the band ppl then went back. sry ppl we took so long. i was super tempted by the lemon chicken rice ): then happy to say, when we got back wiggy and yixian cld shake alrd :DD oh the glenn person is cute (: fine i dunno how to spell his name!

aft which went home and was too lazy to leave home so stayed at home. oh i cooked dinner :D and i ate ice cream. cheerios! okay bye :D

if u realise i am posting real short cos i am super attracted to playing neopets now. BYE :D

2006-10-30T21:07:00.000-08:00

heyo. just watch the ultimate comedian show. think the yingying person super cute :D anyway i am supposed to be in sch now watching choral and drama but the stupid back ache is killing me and made me feel lazy to move ): sorry sandy!

i hate back aches and pulling of muscles. cant do a single thing and leave me with bad mood. bleah. was supposed to go buy props stuff but cant even carry my slingbag lah. then went out in the afternoon with ahgong cos he doesnt know how to get to that place and i have to make sure he dont get lost in Singapore (: HAHA. so didnt go choral and drama. sry grp 2 ppl!

anyway i think its time for some self discipline cos i have been eating a lot of sweet stuff recently. esp when its hols, its even harder to control with the endless amt of nice snacks ahma made x) but not to worry. three cheers for sheena! i actl went jogging aft coming home. 3.2 km :D quite pleased with myself. but when i came home started to stuff myself with food again. ohno! and i just ate ferrero roche (: whatever its spelt lah. its very nice. i am pondering to get one more or not..oops! haha. and made kueh in the morning since i was super bored. my hand almost died when stirring the mixture. i hope the ache goes off tmr.

btw. we are getting back report book tmr. super scared. sigh! i hope i hit my expectation. and pondering to watch tmr c and d or not. feeling a bit slack and home sick upon thinking i will be out of home for so long. dont ask me why. i dont know too ): well.. shall see my mood then.

2006-10-29T16:41:00.000-08:00

hello everyone (: please click HERE for photos :D

2006-10-29T11:55:00.001-08:00

hello. havent been updating for a few days. shall blog a bit :D

had OM meeting on friday at tianhui hse. met jo yenjin and eva at j8 before we headed for tantianhui hse and eva and i donated money to this old ppl who are preforming by the street(: then saw this hotpink hse :D so cool!! wanted to take a photo but cld not find it aft that. bleah. then walk up this super steep slope and finally see this green woman waving at us. i think u can guess who it is right. so we went in to tianhui hse and saw this cat in her hse. EVA JUMPED UPON HEARING THERE IS A CAT! omg lah. haha and tianhui was screaming half the time. then tianhui ahma provided us with lots of food. u shld have seen eva eat, she was like some hungry ghost can. then went up to attic to discuss abt OM. tianhui keeps a lot of hideous toys which she doesnt even know they existed. how horrible right! then we discuss and started eating shan zha non stp until we finished 2 packets of it, which makes it 20 rolls. i guess out of it 10 rolls was by eva. then sang karaok and got super high x) HAHA! discuss a while more and went home. tianhui aunt sent us to j8. her son is super cute :D but very shy and refuses to talk to us. ohwells.

ytd was a rather packed day. had walkathon in the morning. woke up at usual sch time and mummy sent me to sch :D was in charge of 1/8 and realised how talkative they were. but not bad. entertained me throughout the walk (: had a short chat with li ann on the bus. think she is quite nice! and she changed class with yenjin so i did duty with yenjin. oh ms teng is super cute too! she remembers me as sandy friend can! oh. when we are abt to reach the finishing line this old grandma fell down and her head was bleeding profusely lah! no one was walking with her and i think she cld not take it then fell. i almost cried can x( its so sad lah. i hope she is all right. eh dont say i am dumb. its just that i feel more for old ppl okay (: i think our batch is super cool :D we can get rly high, and its to a extend u cant imagine.

aft that went home bathe eat and headed for ny again to meet yenjin jo and sarah to buy some halloween stuff for the bbq at huifun hse. went chancery court and they dont even have so we CROSS THE ROAD to take bus to kap. finally found some there. and actl we were supposed to buy ice cream together end up i am the only one buying. saddest thing is i had to gobble down my ice cream ): do u know how sad i am YENJIN SARAH AND JOLEEN! u all shld feel guilty. so we CROSS THE ROAD again to take bus to huifun hse. and finally CROSS THE ROAD once more to get to huifun hse. see how many roads we cross. was the first few to reach aft huiying mel wiggy and rensyn. they were making some halloween dessert. waited for quite some time before we fried our rice :D i hope it was nice cos it was just some anyhow add here and there by me lynn and joleen. was laughing half the time while frying.

soon almost everyone came and we dressed up and took loads of photos. then had bbq. jomain and eva are my fellow chicken bbq mates :D spent the whole time there and i realised i am quite good :D haha fine! ate quite a lot too. got this burnt sweet corn. so sad. so i threw it away. there was like thousands of food. before we cld finish the maid bring down more..then more.. and more until we cld not finish! the marshmallow huifun made was cute :D and the chocolate cake was nice. oh THE FRIED RICE WAS GONE u know! meaning everyone ate it!yeah! i thought it taste werid but some ppl sae its nice. hah! then we played games and had loads of fun. then watched eva and clara swim in the little pool. haha. aft that jo parents sent me to the bus stp:D thank u auntie and uncle! took bus home only to realise my whole family is not aslp. quite surprising kay cos its so late alrd.

okay thats abt all! uploading photos now. shall post the url to the photos soon! ppl please wait :D

btw i just want to say ILOVE2O7'O6!

2006-10-29T11:55:00.000-08:00

2006-10-26T08:26:00.000-07:00

SHEENA LOVES 207 and thats the quote for life :D btw i am uploading the photos to image station. will send u all or give u all the url once i finish uploading (: sry if i am slow!

today we had our last sch day together as 207. class outings, choral and drama night and 207'06 will be history, an unforgettable memory, a beautiful story, a lovely miracle, the big impact of my life.

to all 207-ners. thank you all for being with me these 2years, to walk through the ups and downs. from the fun family days, class outings, lifeskills camp, eoy activites to the tiring and irritating sias, homeworks, exams, eoys, you all have been so much of a support i cld nv do without you all. there are just so many emotions flowing in me now but i cant express them. some things just cant be describe by words, and the fact that we are leaving is something so hard to accept, but i know its the truth and its something we have to go through in life. we just have to learn to let go so that we can soar to greater heights. but without all of you as my support, i would never reach this level to allow me to soar higher, without your support and push, i would never be able to go higher by myself. well..today this phrase kept ringing in my mind, be like the shells, accept the dirt and sand, and make them into pearls. at the beggining of sec 1 indeed all of you were like dirt and sand, i dont mean dirty or what! like things which i never came in contact before, things which i find hard to accept, but now, you are the pearls of my life. i know someday someone will take you away, you will be in some other places with others, away from me, but you see, i know there is no way to keep you to me forever, we just have to learn to let go, to learn to accept. but no matter where you are, i will always remember you this special pearl of my life...the 207 pearl.

2006-10-23T23:19:00.000-07:00

hello :D its hari raya tmr! know what it means. TIME TO SLP TILL LATE IN THE AFT which means i can slp late tonight :D but i doubt i will..but nvm! so today feels a bit high and happy. anyway i promise i WILL get rid of those excess fats. u will never believe what i ate at night. we had a HEAVY dinner. or rather me.. cos i was feeling hungry since i didnt have time to eat in the afternoon. aft which i had loads of fruits then i big cone ice cream then milk then chocolate :D sheena is great right! HAH.

anyway today is quite a tiring day. went to sch in the morning feeling like santa claus :D then felt like a storyteller cos i was telling sandy abt my wonderful stories. aft which went for zaogong. and gave poo her present :D and delivered the k dramas to bailu for sandy and helped sandy pass the chocs to eva. wont u say i am nice! eh then went to class and check SA marks and gave seveners the little gifts. it so sad to think abt leaving 2/7 ): okay nvm! so we took OM photos aft that :D I WANT TO TAKE MORE. lilaoshi didnt allow us to take many. anti climax. nvm nxt time i will take truckloads!

went for sec 2 eoy activities with estella and realised she is retarded. and estella i wont move on so u shall not be forgiven :D 2/7 won the telematch! I LOVE 2/7!!! then then! we oso won the sandwich thing :D coolios! got third okay..not bad. btw i suddenly feel like eating tuna bread. ohno! okay shall keep myself busy with blog. eh had dance aft sch. laoshi changed some parts and kou-ed some parts. can get the feeling btr now :D quite pleased with myself.

stoned in canteen aft that while waiting for yenjin they all to come back from coro and fell asleep okay. but manage to wake up when melanie and alyssa joined me (: then we are talking abt some diet stuff. okay then sec 3 eoy activity dry run. hanjing and grace is mad! i can almost lie flat on the ground alrd and they still can jump and laugh. and biggest dare of the year, i called ms sabrina ((: melanie u ppl stp laughing at me!

went for briefing and tried out the games. FUN :D went home at abt 6. yenjin and me were laughing at some HELLO all the way out to busstp. and yenjin keep attacking me. meanwhile weiyi was all quiet. oh WEIYI I AM RLY SORRY X( then they left cos daddy was slow. so joined yushi eva and cassandra. i guessed i was rly bored i got high. and almost drove eva mad. heh. then they left too..and i waited by myself for daddy. so independent :D oh i am a SM. eva are u jealous u r just a L. hahaha!

okay on the way daddy got high and started singing to the radio. i was glad i didnt faint :D then he asked me if i was excited abt moving hse and i said yes so he asked me why. then i say cos we can do our OM props on the rooftop and we can even have stayover since i owe the whole third floor though its not big. and he was like ORDER MANAGEMENT NEED TO PROPS FOR WHAT? walao. then i told him its odyssey of the mind he gonged diao cos he dunno what issit. whatever is order management it doesnt sound fun. i love my OM more :D actl on the way home i thought abt a lot of stuff. and was quite glad i didnt give up OM (: then i started smiling to myself according to my father. ohwells. btw so dumb! could not get the big pack marshmellow. have to go somewhere else to find. and daddy is going overseas tmr ): how sad!

its so fast. 2 yrs passed just like this. come to think of it, its only 2 more officials sch day with 2/7 and a few more days till choral and drama end. its just so sad to think we are going to seperate. never am i going to see the same old faces in my class again. ohno. i got a feeling i will cry. dont laugh at me if i do! i seriously love 2/7! and i feel sad cos i didnt rly treasure in the past, at least not till these few months. i guess its because i keep thinking it still far but now its no longer far, its only 2 days, 48 hrs. sigh. this is the best 2/7 and there will never be a same 2/7 again, not one as perfect as this.

2006-10-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

hello :D i shall start typing in proper english as of now. i do hope i will succeed (:

it's about time to sleep. there will be sch tmr. AIYA SO HARD! GIVE UP. i shall just speak in proper eng (: okay so tues is holiday so time for sleeping again. but no dance and daddy is going overseas on that day ): how sad!

oh and guess what. i realised i cant attend sis grad night cos i will be in sch fundraising. GRAH! anyway just briefly what i did today (: woke up had breakfast. TUNA! haha :D then started folding stars cos i cant go on with my kueh thanks to ppl coming. then mummy wanted to learn so i taught her and she started folding stars as well. how young at heart :D then daddy was busy with the dvd thing. and he turned our house into a theatre. how wow! aft which he started to self entertain and sang along cos he was watching some concert stuff. i was glad the glass didnt broke :D then the ppl came and left and yeah! make kueh. so fun :D oh guess what. mummy was from choir and daddy was from ncc!! okay fine its a new discovery cos apparently mummy look like some library club ppl and daddy look like some chess club ppl to me. HAHA paiseh x)

daddy was questioning if i was okay cos he thinks there is sth wrong with me just because i stayed at home during the weekends instead of going out. whatever! and he was boasting abt his childhood life when he cld go out everyday to play soccer. whats that to boast! bleah. haha! and he encourages me to go out often just dont neglect family. almost laughed until i overturn. dont ask me why too. oh and we ordered pizzahut for lunch :D coolios! and guess what. my sister ate like MORE than me which almost scare my mum. haha! wheareas my brother didnt even eat. then then.. went to new house. i tried spelling out the name but cant cos its so hard! walked arnd and was slacking by the pool :D then went ahma house for dinner. haha THEY SAY THE KUEH IS NICE :D cheers! then came home and was packing my stuff and realised i am going to be santa claus tmr ((:

tmr is a busy day. i hope eoys activity wont end too late then i can get daddy to send me home :D oh i wil miss ahma and ahgong cos i wont see them until tues night. heh. nights ppl! sheena is going to die of fatigue tmr if she still insist on not slping!

2006-10-21T23:41:00.000-07:00

hello! my brain is exploding now! cos of the many EOYs activities. okay remind myself since i always come on blog. schedule are driving me mad so i shall not forget every impt thing.

mon: 830 at hall briefing for sec 2 eoys activities!
1400-1500 dance practice
1545 dry run for sec 3 eoys activities

tues: HOLIDAY :D

wed: 0645 do logistics stuff preparation for sec 3 eoy activities
1500-1800 DANCE ((:

thurs: 1630-1700 choral and drama rehersal

okay thats all the impt thing to rmb (: and mummy say friday she wants to bring me to beijing to find daddy and buy things. but i cant even find time to collect my passport. PFF! at most if she serious abt it we shall go and collect it and head for the airport immediately!

anyway today is a busy day. woke up at 8 then had breakfast and went out to settle some stuff all the way until aft. oh and sorry OM team i could not make it meeting and weiyi for not seeing ur sms and calling you ): SORRY OM TEAM! then went for lunch at kopitiam. add truckloads of food. afterwhich went shopping at NTUC. hurhur. then came home and some ppl came to see our house. and mummy watched CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY. can u believe it. but she watched until she slept. was writing the notes for seveners and finished it :D mummy was reading my notes. tsk INTRUDING OF PRIVACY! then she said i am amusing. hurhur. so wrote for like 3 hrs then we had dinner and once again i ate truckloads of food and fruit. so we decided to go out for a walk and buy some more fruits. hah! and guess what? once again, we ate sth. okay i got my lime juice :D i resisted the temptation from the doughnut. came home to watch i not stupid 2 :D laughed till i almost topple. then daddy watched movie again and i came into the room and was stuck here till now.

btw i realise mummy is quite slow. i let her guessed like 5 riddles and she cld not even get one but i know all of hers :D haha! okay gonna make kueh tmr :D have to give to quite a number of ppl cos i owe them. and tmr no slping till late again cos ppl gonna come and see our house. GRAH! thats all going to om blog now :D then slp! and fold stars tmr. haha! bye ppl :D

btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVIEST BIANCA LOH DE POO!

2006-10-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

HEYO! i am super high now :D actl i have been high since like 7 hrs ago when dance started. because i was super tired during choral and drama rehersal. the weather was so humid i cld just walk halfway and fall flat on the ground and slp. so i started to self entertain. heh. first was in the toilet when hern got freaked out because i was playing arnd with the voices. yiyi is still the cleverest :D

then laoshi was doing the sec 1 dance so we warmed up ourselves and i realised i am not the only dead one cos everyone was feeling slack and dead then. but i manage to warm up and slack at the same time cos we were gossiping half the time :D didnt rly do warmups cos we had zao gong. only did a few datiaos and laoshi made me lianghui and zephyr be the first to jump. almost died and i was super stressed up..bleah! but she said we did it (: then she made us do the baotui thing. new blueblacks ): but i manage to bao when standing. cant find my cg when kneeling. SO IRRITATING! i shall spend my weekend finding my cg. but that will means more blueblack. OHWELLS.

dance was okay cos i was self entertaining all the while. and i guess entertain suikim jingwei and maybe yenngee and xinni as well. blahblah. i know huifang was entertained by me! and i enlightening quihan :D plus i taught hoho and lianghui okay! i feel so proud of myself :D laoshi entrusted me and huifang to teach the blow wind blow thing. but aft that we were doing our own stuff. heh. quite bad i know. but we were still practising! laoshi said i got some ganjue :D OHYEAH! but my jumps are still rubbish! but overall its a meaningful dancing day!

then went home with sandy. the journey was a crazy one. i was super high then. and i realised when we dont talk the bus is TOTALLY quiet. heh. paiseh ah. it was super dumb. we alighted at interchange then sandy said she dont know to walk home or not. so she stayed and while making her decision she started talking to me again. aft that 804 came so i asked her to take. then she say she walking home and she continued standin on the spot to talk. then 811 came and she decided she shall take bus with me. the most loser thing is SHE TOOK MY POUCH HOME! u shld have seen her waving in the bus. like the loser waving the white flag xD made me laugh like mad.

then i ate my dinner at 8+. i know i will grow fat like this but no choice, daddy needs to rush home. haha! anyway dinner was nice! then mummy was like not in the right mind, she peeled my orange for me and washed my bowls for me :D haha! and she stole my chocolate to eat! the cornflake one. grah! and she choked on the chocolate. retribution! but she didnt admit defeat and threatened to take another of my chocolate. luckily i stopped her.

oh i am making kueh on sun :D so exciting! okay and we have a packed day ahead tmr. sorry OM ppl i cant make it! and i believe this will continue happening. DUIBUQI AH (:

its the attitude that sucks if you realise. dont be a poser and think the whole world will be deceived by you. you know what. you gave me inspiration for OM because what you did seem to be "i am only thinking of you" when actually its so not. if you think by coming and asked if she is feeling all right is considered a GOOD DEED and shows you treat her as a classmate then get this straight it in your mind, you started the problem thanks to your suckup-ness and your big mouth. and pls, dont 对人不对事. whatever it is, i think BOTH of your attitude sucks. big posers. and if you dont like it, fine, ignore it. and i pray that you will get somewhere in life next time with you attitude. i am not saying i am good but at least i show respect. well i have nothing to say except its abt how you think. maybe its the love that you lack but still, show some respect to ppl who deserve it.. and stp those vulgarities, its DISGUSTING!

2006-10-19T22:13:00.000-07:00

okay just had a major big conversation with CHUAHERNHERN. i think hernhern is quite enlightening a person lah :D and i am sorry everyone i used to label! eh i am rly apologetic okay. and i shall start the no-labelling campaign! and be infuential! if u let me catch u labelling i will council u on why u shld not until u stop labelling so u better stp labelling everyone. whether issit erhem (hern u know :D) or any other names u give to ppl!

okay so today was just another day. sec1 eoys activities was better thanks to the debrief ytd which brought up many problems for us to reconsider. everything was fun :D then me sarah and yenjin gorge down our food just to rush for drama cos they pushed it forward last minute. almost choked on the bread can! and sarah.. u shld not talk behind yenjin back xD tsk! haha. yenjin from today onwards i shall not call u chicken anymore! arent u glad :D then drama was all okay and mrs chitra was hilarious. aft which we had break and err..lots of things happen aft that. shall not say too much.

i am sorry if there was much trouble caused and there was even some wavering of decisions because of me. i know its a team thing. and the problem now is i dont know what is holding me back. maybe like what tianhui said, i think i am feeling something like her. well..who wont want a straight A? but its not totally academics that is stopping me, there is council, dance and my outside stuff as well. partly stress is causing the problem. because like what tianhui say.. our parents are not having high expectations, they are giving us freedom. and when u have too much freedom, you do not wish to disappoint them, thats why i set high expectations on myself, and this is partly holding me back. i know u may say at least i am free and yeah, i do think so too, thats why i dont know if i shld be appreciative of that or what. but i rly dont wish to disappoint them, and of course, the goals i set for myself. not only that, stress on the other hand is giving me trouble because it seem so huge if i am to take this nxt year considering we have project work as well, and there are many other things we have to fight for next year. i know you all will always be there for me, and thats what makes me most scared of. because u are always there, i feel very bad when i could not make it for something. esp when nxt yr its the dance exam, i guess my weekends are almost packed. and sch days recess and lunches are high chances of being unavailable, plus aft sch we practically do not have a common day to meet, even considering we may not be together like this yr where we have still have common times free. but still, i rly enjoyed this whole process, thats why i am still having second thoughts now. i rly want to do it, but i dont want to be there like a statue doing nth while u all are striving so hard just because of my own stuff when all of us do have our own stuff to do. and once again..sorry everyone for today. i know it caused much disturbance.

btw just to thank yenjin and weiyi for being there :D not forgetting jo for ur sweet tag! and eva for the "we will be there for you and we will help you if you rly cannot make it" in the canteen and the call just now. btw sry eva ): not forgetting sarah for ur attempts to make me laugh and tianhui for being there with me since u r the one who is facing almost the same trouble as me. XIEXIENIMEN for accepting whether i go or not. but i guess my decision is made. no matter what. its not the decision that matters to me now, its this whole thing i went through that i rly treasure. whats in the future i will not say much but i rly thank this whole thing for happening because at least i found true friends from this :D ILOVEALLOFYOU! i mean it okay.

2006-10-18T20:47:00.000-07:00

heyo! so once again i am super slpy. well i am always slpy but once i lie on the bed. i get super awake. grah!

anyway today is a interesting day :D it wasnt even like a school day okay! early in the morning sat in the canteen with sandy as usual but she was SO DEAD. so i survived my time with my milo. then went for zaogong :D super closed. cant even stretch and balance properly..then i got damn pissed. pff! i hope tmr will be a btr day (:

tantianhui didnt come today. not sure if she came aft that but its so weird cos i didnt see her FOR THE WHOLE DAY! tianhui get well soon (: so yeah. we had the sec 1 eoys games. 1/2 was good :D haha! the monitress is super funny! even yenjin agrees. but overall 1/2 was good :D i hope 1/1 is as good tmr. then we had debrief and wonglianghui dirtied my skirt with her curry. i hope its washable or i will whack lianghui! and estella was crazy she started this emergent thing, i think our geog is good :D

so yeah. then we went upstairs and played cards and stuff. i almost fell aslp thx to the heat. but luckily they saved me in time :D cos we went down for lunch! oh btw is quite pathetic cos theres only me yenjin estella grace liuyi lynn and sarah cos we didnt go for the binnale thing. but our time was spent very well cos u will be so jealous if we tell u what we did!

yeps so we ate lunch and TADA! big news of the day! we met dailaoshi in G.O so we asked her for permission to go SAC cos we were so super bored! and she allowed :D so me yenjin estella grace and sarah went to SAC! all for ourselves okay! until 2 sec 4s came in and refuse to leave. i admit i was damn pissed but ohwells. as long as they dont bother me. wanted to slp there but the XBOX manage to catch my attention. estella is super dumb when playing car racing. i almost laughed until i rolled off the chair! then we played bridge and estella was amused by my intelligence :D haha! yenjin almost rolled off the big five stone when we were playing with SOME names. heh! shall not reveal too much. finally! time to go back class. aww so sad ):

then was rotting half the time in class so me sarah and huifun played cards. and bernice joined and her BEGINNER LUCK made her win all the game! pff! then huifun and sarah left then liwen and zihui came and played cards again! was laughing like mad throughout the whole thing. i think liwen is super amusing :D haha! then i folded some stars and went home with sandy :D okay end of the day. btw i had nice dinner :D okay bye!

2006-10-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

hello blog. i want to slp now so i will leave soon :D dont be sad. so..we got back our la and sci. as expected. la was like a BIG FLOP of chunk. well i expected it. i didnt know why i cld laugh when i told tianhui my unseen marks. maybe i was so prepared (: ohwells. la pulled me down a lot cos its double weightage. me and tianhui were just wondering why cant it be maths that is double. OHWELL! science was still okay :D better than what i wanted. phew. but still..LA U BIG KILLER. my languages suck. and from this u can conclude i am a blockhead person cos i cant do those non-practise stuff like languages. well i guess i just have to speak more :D so i shall start speaking non stp to improve. RUBBISH LAH! hah.

then we had c and d practise. quite screwed lah x) i dont think anyone will understand what we are doing and apparently eva cant stp laughing when she sees me. whatever! i just hope we do well on the day itself. afterall its the last class thing we will have ):

then played taiti and cheat with toottoad liwen and huiying. quite funny lah. THUMPTHUMP. haha. thats the sound of my heartbeat :D

after that headed for dance. SAVE FROM THE HAZE! the haze almost killed me okay. i cld have died from coughing. so i bought nice candies to save me tmr :D dance was okay like usual. but i perspired today. dont ask me why cos i normally dont. heh. and the jumps almost killed my knee and made them turn jelly. laoshi kept emphasising SHOU SHANG DE REN YAO XIAO XIN. haha its not liek some major stuff. but still..poor knee u btr heal by friday cos i cld not do the kneeling and baotui thing thanks to u because u needed a knee guard and the knee guard made me slip. pfff! then snrs came. xiaoxinying came too :D i ran before she cld catch me. HAH! or else she will start nagging again. and i think hoho is damn cool okay. just look at her stunts and ur jaws will drop. hah.

then went home with sandy! she was sitting at the swing and to think she cld sit there when the haze was so bad. the journey on the bus was crap. i dont know why i was so hyper than i started becoming super rubbish-y. but we ended up slping x) ohwells. then went home and coughed non stp till now. SHOO HAZE SHOO!

tmr we have the sec 1 eoy activity. pls let everything go well. haze pls leave! come back at 10:30 when the activity end. and the few of us helping will be rotting from 10+ to 2 in the canteen cos the class will be going for some art binnale. ohwells. i shall just fold my pretty stars and slp :D okay time to slp. goodnights everyone!

2006-10-16T21:43:00.000-07:00

hello ): i am disappointed with my CHINESE marks!! grr. i feel like slapping myself. cos i rly did badly okay. REALLY BADLY! luckily geog manage to save some of my confidence (: but i think i will cry tmr for la and science lah. YENJIN TIANHUI AND WEIYI. those who always sit with me must prepare tissue paper or maybe even a pail for me to collect my tears. bleah!

anyway today is a super hazy day. almost died. i was coughing nonstp. grr. at this rate i think i will never recover. oh btw the blueblack on my knee is getting from bad to worse. and those on my back as well. bleah. and theirs dance tmr. but nvm. anything is worth it for dance :D dont u think i am so sacrificial!

yeah so stupid haze spoilt our mood and we didnt rly practise for choral and drama. luckily tmr we are meeting mrs chitra so we will at least get sth done. and it also cancelled our run through for sec1 eoys. grah! i hope nth goes wrong on wed. but they may do it tmr. then will miss dance? ohno.ohwells ):

so thats basically all. oh shihui made cookies for us (: THANKYOU SHIHUI! i didnt eat it yet. heh. but it looks nice :D and i am going to make kueh this week for stupid toot toad and maybe a few others? see my mood lah. HAHA! and i conclude toot toad is really toot from the quarrel i had with her this morning. lala! then aft sch i waited for twinnie and was folding stars. then we went to macs cos she was hungry and that was when she realised our sch sell macaroni. how fast -.- and we saw MR REIS THERE :D so cool. haha. i was practically laughing when i saw him. oops. heh. anyway HAPPY BIRHTDAY WEIYI!!!

okay heres some photo i missed out that day :D

twinnie's attempt to take a secret shot of me BUT I FOUND OUT and SHE FAILED :D
and we got bored and started playing bollywood game.
dont say we are dumb! its just that boredom do drive ppl to madness. anyway bollywood is cute okay!

2006-10-14T20:06:00.000-07:00

hello everyone i am blogging now :D okay quite dumb but i am very excited cos I JUST CHANGED MY SKIN!! haha. and guess what? eoys are OVER! yes OVER!!! cheerios ((:

now lets see. i shall just breifly talk abt the day out with sandy on....wednesdae? haha okay it was just this horrible day. u can go read abt it on sandy blog (: i shall post a few pics we took that day :D

this is our lunch at pastamania. its the biggest wrong move of the day to order the CREAMY CHICKEN! we almost died eating cos its so filling we almost puked x) so... this is MY plate aft like 15 min? and this is... sandy's plate aft like half an hour? so from this u can infer sheena is powerful :D cos she can finish so much faster. and btw. this is a note to sandy: I AM NOT LIKE UR MOTHER! okay then more photos (: this is at the end of the day when we are at np macs (: as u can see. sandy is alrd half dead and i am still hyper. this again supports the statement SHEENA IS POWERFUL :D look at this corncup and apple dipper meal. its no ordinary meal okay! cos it shows the love of reena (the service ambassdor of np macs) to us (: she charged us at $1 each when its $2.50! haha dont be jealous (:
OH STH FUNNY HAPPEN AT MACS! cos we were beside this table of pres high girls who were...erhem. u know? then three guys came and the nicest looking one among them wanted to biaobai to one of the 5 girls. so me and sandy was guessing who issit but its so hard to guess. DONT SAY WE ARE MEAN OKAY! but its just quite impossible. and guess what? the one they biaobai to is....the last one we say will ever get biaobai-ed. hurhur. fine we shld nv judge a book by its cover. haha dont u think this picture is so ARTISTIC?? its taken by me (: so we decided to take super gay photos and this is our floating image (: dont u think its so gay and cool :D

okay thats all. oh we took back our papers alrd. maths and history. SATISFACTORY :D i hope my 4 other papers wont die. i think me and chicken will freak out tmr upon receiving chinese and geog. oh btw! CCA OFFICIALLY START and now we have zaogong. yeah (: we will be doing ba gans in the dance studio in the morning now. so cool :D i love dance! yeahyeah!!! okay now some interesting photo. okay this is sandy wishful thinking that my brother loves her so she put her photo over my sis head. actl i dont see whats so cute abt my bro that she and eva loves him so much.
dont u think these two pictures are cool! yenjin sent it to me :D i think its super amazing cos the spiderman and crayon are all paintings on the floor and they look so real! cool :D

2006-09-26T21:49:00.000-07:00

hello just a short post arnd before i leave since i am feeling so full of trouble, i shall blog a bit to relax :D '

anyway i went to macs to study with twinnie just now. then as you know..being twinnies we will keep talking and talking abt everything on earth so i was stuck at a page of the notes for 2 HRS! and i manage to finish another 2 page at the last half an hour when i started to panick for not finishing my notes. scold me for being terrible lah! and we eat and eat.. we ate student meal with LEMON LIME JUICE :D cheerios! then i ate this weird but pretty pocky twinnie bought and the dove chocolate and we gave to reena as well! aint we nice? oh she let us make the sundae can :D but we didnt want to spoil the machine. haha and guess what, both of us can draw nice birds okay! and to end the day, we ate sundaes. haha i spent quite a lot. feeling quite bad. OH! then we met lots of weird ppl. first there was this cchy girl which twinnie say keep looking over, i didnt rly bother lah. then this 2 opss girl with a guy, which made twinnie laugh non stp. then this grp of pres high guys i think. who was blasting the music so loudly. then when twinnie went to toilet and i was playing with the phone, one of them went : THERE LIKE THE GIRL THERE. or sth like that. and all 5 turn back and stared for a while then turn back, laugh a bit, and went off. pff. okay took some photos..

my bag! and if you take a closer look... ALL PINK! haha :D the jacket, hp pouch, wallet, cute little bag, file are ALL pink! and my shirt and slippers are pink as well :D i feel happy! yay

anyway its mummy birthday tomorrow so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!
and to twinnie papa as well :D

~~How do I live without you~~
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever
Ever survive　
How do I　
How do I　
How do I live

2006-09-25T21:49:00.000-07:00

hello ((: i am leaving soon! i shall just blog a bit before i slp since i am feeling high and cant slp. oh these are the pictures i tried to upload ytd but failed to..
by weiyi :D

see! weiyi loves sheena and sheena loves weiyi as well :D
haha see weiyi i am so nice and dont forget your promise to sing me ge qian ((:

haha shall do the quiz winny asked me to do long ago :D

1. full name: sheena phua (: [shall not type my full name]
2. name backwards: auhp aneehs
3. were you named after someone: dont think so. my mum said i was named that cos my aunt like it
4. meaning of name: dont know? you can go check for me and tell me :D
5. nickname: a lot leh. nana lah :D
6. screen name: uhh. whats that?
7. D.O.B: 20.01.92
8. place of birth: mt alvernia
9. nationality: singaporean.
10. current location: my home!
11. star sign: capricorn/aquaris [i dont know which one!]
12. religion: buddhist
13. height: 160 cm :D
14. weight: eh. 43.5! i lose 0.5 ((:
15. shoe size: school shoe is either 5 or 6 lah
16. hair colour: black and slight brown :D
17. eye colour: black?
18. who do you look like: myself (:
19. innie or outtie: huh? eh both bah
20. leftie or rightie: rightie
21. gay, straight, bi or others: STRAIGHT LAH!
22. best friends: quite a few to name :D
23. best friend you trust most: sandy? and others too lah! dont make things difficult for me
24. favourite pals: my close friends (:
25. best friend of opposite sex: eh. mr peacock? hah (: elmo oso can lah :D
26. best buddies: my close friends lah! so naggy
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: boy lah! i am a girl can!
28. crush:huh?
29. parents: mummy and daddy :D
30. worst enemy: erm.. dont have lah
31. favourite online guy: ehs. peacock :D
32. favourite online girl: err..quite a few you know. it depends
33. craziest friend: sandy is not a bad choice
34. advice friend: sandy!
36. person you cry with: still sandy!
37. any sisters: yeps :D one!
38. any brothers:yeps :D one too
39. any pets: nah..
40. any disease: NO!
41. pagers: haha.toy ones.
42. personal phone line: my hp number?
43. cell phone: yeah!
45. pool or hot tub: depends on the weather
46. a car: my dad has! and i am determine to have one too
47. your personality: eh. you can ask others abt it
48. driving: yes! in timezone
49. room: PINK :D not neat but still presentable. with lots of stuffies and books.
50. whats missing: err.. nth for now. i just found my cd!
51. school: chongfu. nanyang
52. bed colour: bedsheet you mean? PINK!
53. relationship with parents: super good!
54. believe in yourself: most of the time
55. believe in love at first sight: not really
56. good listener: i dont know? shld be not very bad
57. get along well with parents: VERY WELL
58. save email conversations: if worth it
59. pray: seldom
60. believe in reincarnation: dont know?
61. make fun of people: hehe. sometimes lah
62. like to talk on the phone: depends on who is at the other end
63. want to get married: depends? sometime not sometime yes
64. like to drive: dont mind lah
65. motion sickness: huh? i dont think so bah
66. eat stem of broccoli: YEPS ((:
67. eat chicken with fork: huh. depends on where i am lah
68. dream in colour: what?
69. type with your fingers on home role: what?
70. sleep with stuff animals: yeah :D sometimes lah. heh
71. next to you: mp3
72. on the walls of your room: shelve with stuffies :D
73. on your mousepad: the mouse?
74. dream car: nice cool black ones!
75. dream date: the perfect date you can think of
76. dream honeymoon spot: somewhere i like and nice
77. dream husband or wife: mr perfect :D
78. bedtime: huh?
79. under your bed: another bed :D
80. single most important question: what?
81. bad time of a day: when i am not feeling good
82. your worst fear: to lose something or someone
83. the weather is: cooling
84. time: 9:45
85. date: 25 sept 06
86. best trick did on someone: i forgot. heh
87. theme song: huh? quite a lot
88. hardest thing about growing up: i dont know?
89. funniest experience: i forgot.
90. scariest experience: eh.. a lot lah
91. silliest thing you have ever said: shall not say :D
92. scariest thing while you are with your friends: they disappear when you turn back!
93. worst feeling:..to be sad and feel lost?
94. best feeling in the world: when i have what i want!
95. AND NOW THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!! CHOOSE 5 TO DO THE QUIZ!
i dont know? err.. SANDY can do aft eoys. then anyone else can do lah :D haha!

2006-09-23T00:02:00.000-07:00

hello. its distressing time now. i decided i shall stay up till at least 12 so i can sms ahgong HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D dont say i am not fillial okay! anyway i know i said i wont blog but come on! i am so bored now and i have studied for so long..until i feel asleep when i studied -.- thats bad lah but..haha sorry lor! i havent been quite awake since this morning. i was like a walking zombie and my knee is hurting like dont know what. i cld have just sat on the chair the whole day if i was not required to move. and i studied for 3 hrs in sch while waiting for twinnie. I DIDNT SLP OKAY! so heres to reward. and tmr i will mug like crazy again... no one or any shows shall tempt me (: heres some quizzes to do since i am so bored.

100 things about me

1. Name: SHEENA :D
2. Middle Name: i..dont think so
3. Location: my home!i shall not reveal in case someone stalks me :D
4. Place of Birth: mt. alvernia (:
6. Male or Female: FEMALE lah
7. Bus: must i name all?
9. Occupation: student. dancer can? :D
10. Initials: SPSH
11. Screen Name: whats that?

Your Appearance :
12. Hair Color : black. with slight brown (:
13. Hair Length: below shoulder? i want to cut soon!
15. Best Feature: how i know! eyes lah eyes lah :D
16. Height: 160 ): dont laugh at me okay! small is cute pls.
17. Skin colour: err..normal people colour?
18. Glasses: contacts can :D
19. Shoe size: sch shoe? 5 or 6 lah
20. Weight: 44 ): I GAINED 1 kg!

Your Firsts
22. First best friend: sandy (: and still one today!
23. First Award: i forgot!
24. First Sport You Joined: i have always been a dancer :D
25. First thing you did today: open my eyes and head for toilet
26: First thing you ate today: bread (:
27. First thing you said today: byebye
28. First Love: huh? what do u want to know

Favorites
29. Movie: so many. eh..i not stupid can (:
30. TV Show: huh! err...DISNEY CHANNEL LAH :D mtv oso can
31. color: PINK! yellow blue black too (:
32. Rock Band: quite a number :D i cant choose one
33. Place to get groceries: NTUC?
34. Food: I LOVE ICE CREAM :D oh APPLES!
35. Season: winter <33
36. Candy: mint one ((: marshmellows too!
37. Sport: huh? i dont know lah. all are the same to me
38. Restaurant: SWENSENS (: can? cos got ice cream :D
42. Animal: dolphins (:
43. Book: i dont know!
44. Magazine: i am okay with all!

Currently
45. Doing before you started this survey: chatting on msn uncle shan :D
46. Thinking: of sending sms to ahgong :D
47. Wearing: PINK razor back with black SHORTS :D
48. Crying bout: i am not crying now.
49. Eating: nothing. eating so late makes you fat you know!
50. Drinking: nothing
51. Typing: answers to the survey
52: Talking to: uncle shan :D
53. Listening To: hei se mao yi. HAH WEIYI!
54. Thinking about: ahgong!
55. Wanting: EOYS HIT MY TARGET!
56. Watching: the computer screen as the words appear one by one :D

Future
57. Where do you see yourself in 5 years: 19 years old. university i hope :D
58. Kids: huh?
59. Want to be Married: i dont mind :D
60. Career in Mind: i dont know leh. my uncle ask me to be a chemist -.-

Which is Better with the Opposite Sex
63. Hair color: black or brown :D
64. Hair length: normal hair length lah! oh must know how to style hair :D
65. Eye color: black? brown?
66. Measuremnts: err... i dont know
67. Cute or sexy: hah right! cute lah :D handsome as well.
68. Lips or Eyes: what?? eyes?
69. Hugs or Kisses: more hugs (:
70. Short or Tall: TALL! but not too tall for me pls
71. Easygoing or serious: easygoing AND serious at times
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: applies to situation lah!
73. Good or Bad: GOOD LAH!
74. Sensitive or spontaneous: both :D
75. Hook-up or Relationship: huh? relationship sounds better
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: hesitant better. i dont want endless troubles pls

Have You Ever
78. Kissed a Stranger: nopes
79. Had surgery: no! and never want
80. Gone commando: no i guess
81. Ran Away From Home: no lah.
82. Broken a bone: oh no! and hope never will
3. Got an X-ray: i dont show ppl my bones :D
84. Been on a cruise: YES.
85. Got a car accident: NO!
86. Dumped someone: heh. (:
87. Cried When Someone Died: ya lah.
88. Cried At School: yeps ):

Do You Believe In
89. God: depends
90. Miracles: sometimes
91. Love at First Sight: not rly
92. Ghosts: eh.. yeah. so scary
93: Aliens: yeps. eh very horrible can!
94. Soul Mates: YES ((:
95. Heaven: a bit lah.
96. Hell: a bit too.
97. Answered prayers: depends
98. Kissing on The First Date: NO!at least i wont.
99. Horoscopes: sometimes..

Answer Truthfully
100. Is there someone you wish you had?: yeah..

2006-09-21T21:37:00.000-07:00

hello i dont think i will blog until maybe end of eoys. depends on my time :D maybe i wld come back occasionally. anyway took quite some photos today. will upload it when i am free :D bye!

2006-09-19T13:40:00.000-07:00

HELLO :D i am currently in... somewhere. heh shh dont say where! its not good to know the truth. okay i am feeling spastic and high cos of the crazy lunch break i just went through. eh everyone. ITS TIME TO LOVE CARROT :D because carrots are healthy and nice and cute too.

eh stupid joleen pls stp blking me. i cant see a thing u extra woman. and do u know PE shirt are not allowed in class?? i will book u i tell u! oh i realise my typing is accurate cos i type the previous line without looking at the screen (: anyway! i discover its PINK when we look the screen from the top. cool man!

haha! WEIYI IS MY NEW LOVE :D mr zeng weiwei and ms pan yunyun are going to elope together leaving debbie and heeai heartbroken. and our milo nu lang have yet to find her milo lang jun. HERE..I SINCERELY WISH YOU FIND YOUR MILO LANG JUN SOON ((:

oh yeah. i just finish the IT challenge thing. eh i passed! cheerios :D i got 16/30 BY LUCK. i was just guessing through all the way. haha anyway i am staying back to study today with my cuppycakes (: eh but she is doing geog leh. i am doing maths. i have been doing maths non stp but then ah..i realise i always have to do maths before i can start on others. ohwells. i will aim to finish the mid yr specimen paper by today (:

haha i see tianhui just tagged my blog and she say i make her feel hot. cool! eh anyway ah. lets talk abt ytd. i feel accomplished ytd cos i lug this big bag of files home by myself and i survived the bus journey :D then i did the science paper and finished it. and i think my self-discipline is getting better cos i only used the com for arnd 20 min :D btw ah. i realise i am very into veg these few days. i dunno why too. but i have the sudden urge to be a vegetarian x) haha okay i shall not. i shall continue obtaining nutrients from animals as well :D

eh toot toad say she is not going to school tmr. oh god. i must survive 2 hrs of chinese by myself can! ppl pls pray i dont faint and die in class. oh btw ah. i finish my kou tou bao gao alrd. (: though its quite terribly done but still..at least i finish it. mm. i conclude tianhui have very STEADY but at the same time very UNSTEADY laughter. tsk. okay i shall not blog anymore cos i realise my eng is horrible. i will blog more tonight if i feel like it :D BYE!

2006-09-17T22:02:00.000-07:00

:DDD haha dont ask me why i start with that. i just feel like it :D anyway its super cold now, i am wearing my jacket can. i think soon i will start wearing gloves and socks. then i will look like snowman (: oh cool man.

anyway i am watching some chinese show now, about those cheng yu one. 2 cf dancers are inside and both are in the final stage :D haha jiayou! sms-ed jianglaoshi to watch. dont know if she did or not. anyway i realise mummy is quite dumb lah. ytd she asked me if i have a friend whose surname is MAO then i was like huh? i only know a MAO ze dong and no other MAOs. then today she told me there! someone surname is mao! ur friend is from 6 respectful last time one. then i was like OH MIAO U MEAN! and she asked me how to read m.i.a.o. fine lor her pinyin got some problem lah. make me feel like a dumb when i didnt know what she was talking abt.

okay one of them got third and one fourth. ohwells. welldone ppl (: haha i am so encouraging right! aiya... anyway. lets talk abt today. so i woke up at 8+ then mummy sent me to cf for dance before going for some exibition with mei. angeline was the first. eh c'mon i am not bad okay! i was on time x) but unfortunately ms angeline forgot to bring the cd and she didnt have the ipod. so we were slacking all time. but good lah. cos i had time to study for my bio (: then xinying came and she started doing her work as well. angeline told us to think of steps but i guessed we were quite mean we ignored her. haha so she ended playing with piano until she got bored and in the end, we decided to go home at 11+. then i went to ahma house, and found out she steam the dumplings :D and there were truckloads fruits lah. i was super excited but i decided to control myself and not start gorging. so i ate the nice dumpling and guess what, she cooked the nice porridge ): but nvm. i had it for dinner (: and guess what again? mummy cook spaghetti for dinner ): eh thats so horrible lah! grr. but anyway! i feel super nice cos i didnt scold my bro at all okay. i was super nice to him today :D and oh! i studied bio too. didnt sidetrack by watching mtv though its on.

arnd 3+ we came home and mei and bro wanted to go down for swimming so i went down with mummy to study by the pool :D i realise its a condusive enviroment. but then it was going to rain then so we came up in the end. and i studied again (: applause! all the way till dinner before i start to watch tv x) eh i know its bad lah. i did self reflection okay. so i decided that i will MUG tmr like crazy! oh and i ate a lot of fruits during dinner until my mummy took away the fruits cos she say i am having overdosage ): eeyer. at most 4 servings lor! anyway fruits are healthy and it can replace the fibre i lost by not eating veg today :D look on the bright side! okay nvm. guess what! i taught my sis maths ((: haha i am so proud of myself. and i realise my bro is qutie a block.. even mummy say he have mental block.

DADDY IS COMING HOME TODAY (: CHEERIOS!

eh i am feeling super okay today. yeah :D

oh by the way tmr is filming for audition. 2nd grp jiayou :D

2006-09-16T20:56:00.000-07:00

yeah! i just finished my other 3 specimen papers in the textbook :D aft a whole day. actually it doesn't really make sense why i took so long. i started doing at arnd 2 or 3+, and just finished it. like abt 5 hrs? with eating and stuff in btw lah. but its so long. but nvm! no matter what i finished it :D and i am super pissed cos i dunno why i got wrong for some. GRR!

pff. super slpy now. woke up at 6 today okay! cos mei have to go to cf for the p1 orientation thing, so i went with her lah. anyway i am going to help out for the little dancers performing (: so i practically dragged myself everywhere cos i was super slpy. so finally at 7:30 we arrived at cf. then as i was walking into cf i saw SHANCHIN and larry i think? i cant see clearly who issit with him lah. eh maybe its not shanchin leh. why is he walking from busstp so early in the morning. but it does look like him. well maybe i was not awake then.. i dunno?

angeline was alrd there when i went. OH yuehong ahyi wore yellow can! hahah cos she always wear red what. i didnt know she had yellow shirt x) then i asked her is she there to go along with the wushu boys cos they wore yellow too. she said it was cos the principal asked her why she always wear red so she wore yellow -.- but she still look nice lah :D haha! okay so i went to help. did hair at first, then i got super pissed with the gel all over my hand so me and angeline decided to do foundations. and we did for only 2 person. NOT COS WE ARE LOUSY, but because almost everyone is done. so in the end i did eyeshadow and angeline did blusher :D i like to help ppl put eyeshadow, and they said it was nice okay :D claps then while waiting i was playing arnd with the jnrs. hey i get along well with ppl okay! pff nicole bully me! bleah. then shermaine had a hard time rmb-ing my number. haha! i dont think its that hard lor. vivien just spent her time meddling with my hair. but today its a bad hair day so my hair was super tangly. oh me and angeline were laughing at this girl, p2 i think, super cute lah. she didnt do anything but we will just laugh when she dance. quite mean lah, but hey! she didnt want to tell me her name, so i called her bu zhi dao since she wanted it :D

the performance went on quite well i guessed. then we went back dance studio and listen to jianglaoshi talk. oh angeline showed me her finger..looks horrible! then err... me and angeline got some biscuits from alumni room. as usual, mamee. oh this time they have this healthy nice biscuit too :D aiya mamee is like the trademark biscuit for our dance grp alrd cos jiang laoshi always and ONLY buy that for us to eat. the jnrs were jealous we got that (: hah! cos jianglaoshi love us more. yeah :D oh kidding lah. haha oh right! there was this jnr who was damn sweet :D haha she said sth abt me. aiya okay i am not i know.. but nvm :D at least she said i was. and the jnrs found my hp interesting. okay mind me for going jnrs here and there without proper names cos there were quite some and i dont know all names lah! btw ah..i got new names lor. thanks to angeline they call me sheenana, then shermaine decided to call me nana, and sometimes apple cos i said i like apple. aft that angeline went home then i was waiting for mei to finish the stuff. so me and shermaine became some toot ppl trying to take photo with our phone. haha! and her bluetooth is lousy.

aft that all the procedures and stuff are finally over. oh mei is in 1 caring. eh why not gracious ah! so sad. nvm then. anyway cf is becoming so healthy, they gave each of them ONE APPLE okay. i am jealous ): anyway ah. yuehong ahyi sae my sis look like me, and she was super amused. i dont think we look alike! but nvm. its SHE LOOK LIKE ME, not I LOOK LIKE HER :D

then we went to buy uniform. eh i am super angry okay, cos the drinks auntie refuse to believe i grew taller! and she gave me a weird look when i ask her what is the green thing. i know its lime juice i just want to confirm what! then she scold me for nv buying that from her. eh we all drink ribena when we are young okay! but anyway.. she gave me a lot more (: heh! then i saw uncle phua. i was so polite i called him and he wanted to box me. then he started questioning me why i was in sch! then aft that mr reis came and talk to me. i didnt know he cld recognize me. ohwells i am popular (: and i guess my sis is super small cos he cant see her and he thought i was queueing up to buy sch uniform for MYSELF for memory. and guess what..

my sister is in INNOVATION.

then we went home my ahma saw and she was like so amused cos she only see my excellence one before. then she say it looks nice with 2 colours, and she put the pe shirt side by side with mine. now i open the cupboard i see yellow and blue. right...why of all this colour lor. and i think nxt yr my bro will be a innovation boy too. eh i shld have ask mr reis to help me request to change to excellence right :D since he is the excellence teacher.

okay thats all! i think its long enough. i shall go study again. BYE :D

~~i am not feeling okay again. dont ask me why cos i dunno too..~~
please dont let me get affected before eoys.

btw i was talking to chicken and i thought our convo was quite toot. it shows how stress we are. heres part of it! aft all the asking of hw..here come the crazy bit.

dance. cuppycakes (: says:
right! i am going to explode, i dont get a single thing. pff
YENJIN says:
what you mean!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
think i going to die for eoys things to study lor. i am like half know half dunno
YENJIN says:
ME TOO CAN
YENJIN says:
dont know why i so scared can
YENJIN says:
and i everyday study le and still very scared
YENJIN says:
and last year so slack then not scared at all
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
ya lah!
last yr i study like 2 wks before
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
now i study so much earlier and i still scared. bleah
YENJIN says:
yeah la!
YENJIN says:
thats why!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
eeyer. so scary lah. its like abt 2 weeks. i think i will mug until i die and all the hair drop lor!
YENJIN says:
yeah la!
YENJIN says:
very scared!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha relax man! at least u feather drop still look okay, i hair drop very kong bu lor
YENJIN says:
whateer!><
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
i always see u without feathers in supermarket and market!
YENJIN says:
AHHAHA
YENJIN says:
what a loser statement!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
erhem! its quite a well-known truth and fact u know
YENJIN says:
i dont know!
dance. cuppycakes (:
says: haha then make a trip to the supermarket now. the frozen food section. or u can go market, even fresher (:
YENJIN says:
HAHAH NO THANKS>
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
hahaha! no wonder u dunno lah. ask u go see u oso dont want
YENJIN says:
hhahah you damn stupid lor!
YENJIN says:
so crap!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
eh no lah!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
admit it man!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
actl u dont go oso good, later u cry when u see ur fellow chickens like this! then will affect eoys
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
hahah yeah lor(:
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha yeah. so DONT ever go near any supermarket or market before eoys, not good for u
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
if u need anything tell me i help u go buy (: dont ying ying lai!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
HAHAHA
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
can la you can go!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
then you can help me buy free things (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
HOHO
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
ehh actl ur things very easy but wad
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
buy rice for u to eat, then can last u long. unless u want worms as well?
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
no la!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
i want chocolates(:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
ahah sheena phua
(haha then all the you-should-not-know stuff)
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
you should be happy that you stood up to your conscience and was brave in telling them off
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
if it was me i wont even dare
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
HAHA duh (: i am brave. now u know. not too late
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
i know u scared they catch u and cook u into chicken rice right!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
WAH LAO =.=
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
im not a chicken(:
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha ya lah. chicku right!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
NO!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha okay lah! but too bad. i sae alone does not help, everyone saes u r chicken (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
hoo
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
we shall see(:
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha! dont lah
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
later u lose then u sad (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
wont la!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
HAHAH! okay lah. at most i give u counselling if u sad. or bring u to the zena person (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
EEE
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
hahaha (: dont u think she is so gentle and nice
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
too soft spoken until so boring can,
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
i think she is inspiring leh
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
okay la.
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
haha.
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
haha okay lah! then i help u call tinkle friend (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
AHAHAHHAHA
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
my sister call before leh!
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
she thought is call to make friends!
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
huh rly ah! for what
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
walao...
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
make friend with tinkle (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
hahha yeah la.
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
DAMN stupid!1
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
err. ur sis very interesting
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
maybe u can go make friends with tinkle too
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
eh!!! u didnt close the convo right! u want send me the whole convo
dance. cuppycakes (: says:
i think its so interesting i want to post on my blog (:
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
WAH LAO.
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
like that also can?
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
okay
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
dont talk le
YENJIN; stupid little PATHETIC thing(: says:
i save now!

2006-09-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

i am feeling quite sleepy but high now. was playing audition and i thought if my realife dance is like this how horredous it wld be cos i cant get some of the beat. dont say i am beat deaf okay! hmph.

eh today its just another normal last day of sch of the week except that i didnt go cca cos of choral and drama and i had to upload the website which took me like 1000 years and i still didnt upload it. in the end i lost hope and sent a email to ms ang and she say i can show her on tues. aiya had i known i wld have sent her earlier. pfff.. i feel bad for missing cca though its optional ): OHGOD!

today is just another day, and actually it was quite slack except that maths was a bit tense up.. heh. then langarts mrs koh went through format of test and gave us 15 min to write our compo. haha like duh not the whole thing but she wants to see how fast we are. i had loads of inspiration okay! oh and i passed my lang arts :D claps for me!! then chinese was SLACK. so i ended up doing some of maths instead xp heh sry lah but i have to use quality time (: then lunch had patrol duty. then i got pissed..or rather dissapointed or whatever lah with *********. dont ever try to guess this word cos u cant make it for sure. unless i told u what happen. i just dont know what to say. all i can say is i am doing what i am supposed to do.

then we had science. i was feeling super upset, then ms toot toad manage to make me laugh throughout the whole lesson :D and i was feeling super cold thanks to the rain and guess what.. I DIDNT BRING MY JACKET. pff again! anyway i was super amused by ms toot toad marks :D to think she still can laugh, if it was me i wld have become a mute for the whole day okay. well there is just ppl like her who is always so positive.

then aft sch we had choral and drama night prac cos mon is the filming for the audition. whether we get in or not depends all on this. eva was not there so i acted with sarah. eh we have quite some mo qi okay. at least sarah dont start laughing when she sees me -.- and we came up with this new line..

eva: oh my darling sweetie cutie (or whatever, those long chunk of sweet words) that girl you saw was my cousin, i swear, see what i bought you? a snowman figurine that looks JUST like you, so cute and lovable

me: right! and you mean i have a figure like it so ROUND?

then some ppl started laughing...goodness. i thought i was quite dumb x) anyway i was quite glad our timing is getting better and almost all things are done except those doors. i rly feel like going over to the boy's territory to DEMAND.. haha okay lah. to plead for the doors ):

so aft sch i was stuck at the IT thing for so long and huiying and yenjin were the only souls in the class, and guess what. me and chicku got the same mp3 (: both as bdae present. cool right :D

aft that i got home with twinnie, on the bus was quite quiet, except she showed me her eyelash datalog which rly.. amuse me. then she started playing with my phone cos i didnt feel like talking and she was bored. eh sorry ah twinnie cos like u know, the headache is abt to kill me. oh and yenjin say i look pale today, twinnie sae i look ABIT aft i asked her. then zihui say i looked yellow-.- i went home to look and realise, i do look abit pale. eh why ah? i feel okay leh. i hope nth is wrong with my skin.

oh i have a feeling i am falling sick soon, and if i rly do, twinnie shld know the reason best. thanks to someone..grr. btw i realise twinnie have a super strechable stomach. u shld have heard what she sae she ate.

this song just keep ringing in my mind, sorry: I never had a dream come true Till that day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where love takes me to A part of me will always be with you

2006-09-14T16:59:00.000-07:00

yeah i am smelling nice now :D i feel fresh! cos i have been dragging myself home from sch ALONE thx to the boring and sleepy day. i was just scrolling arnd and i saw the 2 songs from winter sonata. so i decided to listen to them. but haoting is taking a long time to load..so my room feels quiet. eeyer.

okay the song is playing. eh its so emo. ohgod, no good. but its nice. i shall not think too much :D and twinnie! i have sth proud to tell you. i didnt let my thoughts run wild when i was going home alone :D i know u r proud of me right. heh! and i know i can continue to do it even though i am playing this super sad song now and i am all alone at home. eh this song remind me of winter sonata and sad love story. i feel like watching it now. no! i shall control. self-discipline. i will go and study once i finish blogging cos i am still enjoying my tea :D

eh stupid lah! the song is repeating and the woman who is talking at the front is irritating me cos of what she is saying. i shall learn to look on the bright side

anyway today lessons were quite boring, not boring but more of cirriculum one then those fun ones like music and dance. we had music. it was nth but a laughing session. huiying have 3 blueblacks on her leg cos she got hit by her own racket -.- then one of them is super huge it looks like moss grew on top okay! so me and huifun being nice people helped her rubbed and they turned red :D bound to heal soon, maybe tmr! thank us huiying. talking about huiying reminds me of the song. its so cute (: oh god i WILL post the lyrics up later. its so sweet. heh. thats why we are so into it.

we had drama practice during lunch. its overall quite okay alrd just that some of the props are not settled yet and EVA SEAH PLS RMB TO GIVE ME MY ANTIQUE VASE! u always forget that line. and dont forget u said u wil buy me a real vase :D

chinese was quite fun cos apparently me and melissa were doing stupid stuffs all the while. first we drew loads of weird faces and melissa is the loser (: then we started this toad thing.. and she became the TOOT TOAD while i am the TOAD TOOT. like whatever! she wanted to call me TOOTY TOAD. i think TOAD TOOT sounds better :D she even wrote that on our table okay. toot lah! then she gave me this cert and i wanted to give her back too. and... haha! u dont need to know what happen but her newspaper ended up with the so called 9 stitches. and guess what. ms TOOT TOAD laughed over that for so long which made me laughed too. lilaoshi kept looking over. luckily she didnt scold us. heh x)

cuppycakes :D
You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum, Pumpy-umpy-umpkin
You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake Gumdrop, Snoogums-Boogums
You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear

~~你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗假如有一天你遇到了跟他长得一模一样的人他真的就是他吗还有可能吗这是命运的宽容还是另一次不怀好意的玩笑~~

2006-09-13T21:31:00.000-07:00

i feel super inspired now! i dont know why too. i was just thinking abt today talk on the resilient and i realised i have a GROWTH MINDSET :D okay not totally but most of the time. heh. and i sort of got enlightened a lot aft the whole talk. i think its super inspiring (: resilient!

okay its nth much today except... OH PE! right pe..i got smack by clara lum on the butt thousand times and once she even smack my hand, now there is injury there. CLARALUM! hmph. i shall complain to patrick and patrick will stop being nice to her :D we played...four against four okay! like four. or rather four against five, cos sarah team had five. bleah! it was super dumb. the whole thing was like a laughing game rather than a badminton game.

oh then drama. the malay thing was super funny. and eva seah cant stp laughing. for whatever reason lah! she is feeling kind of high. maybe she is inspired by LARRY like me :DD haha! talking abt larry. TWINNIE! larry is nice okay. pls start to appreciate him and stp discriminating him. larry is gay and happy (: gay as in happy, not GAY! and pls stp ur nonsense speech in the morning cos it does no good, i will keep laughing non stp, hen xin ku okay!

then lunch we had meeting. actl mrs wong just talked about 'yourself' this topic. about how we shld portray and hold ourself etc. and she rmbed me. whether its positive or negative, i was super shocked when i heard it. ohwells lets hope its sth good. though there is nth good abt me lah :D

then HUIYING! the one whom i am pissed with :D got super excited over the strawberry shortcake song. its cute i know (: that song is rly cute okay. makes u smile and laugh non stp :D super sweet. heh

oh no good. i just saw YOUR photo. anyway ah. this is super random but i just thought about you again on my way home on the bus. i oso dunno why. there was this guy playing the 'i believe' song, then i thought about u. like u just pop out in my mind. then follow by him. and the worse thing is, I DUNNO WHY ITS HIM and not others. sth is not right. but anyway.. aft the talk, i decided i shld look at it from another manner. its time to bounce back from this thing, i have been stuck at it for long enough. 2 yrs. its going to be hard but i know i will.. i decide i shall not see it as a dark ending, but a colourful journey in my life that i may never have gone through.

dont be upset it ended, be glad it happened.

2006-09-12T17:36:00.000-07:00

okay i saw ur post. i guess what u said sort of enlightened me and woke me up. maybe i was really stubborn and refuse to think i am in more wrong. i guess i have to apologise for that. somewhat ur post manage to make me do a reflection on my way home, and i was just thinking, yeah right, maybe because u treated me as friend thats why u bothered to tell me off to make me stp this mistake. i sincerely thank u for waking me up and realising how 'its-all-about-me' my attitude was. mrs koh talked abt resilience today, and it made me realise how not resilience i was. cos apparently i cld feel a little sense of fright when i see you and even..her? i dunno issit because of ur post, ur unhappiness to me, or issit that i am guilty. but no matter what, i decided i shall rebounce back and stp wallowing in sorrow or telling ppl i am pissed but do nth about it. its time to do some self reflection and also, to stp this whole not talking thing cos i feel weird too. its nv so long that i didnt talk to u, i cld recall i didnt talk to u for the whole day ytd and like only 5 lines today? well i looked at my post as well, i think i was harsh then, and i saw u complaining to her today, whether issit abt me, i still want to sae sorry. but u know what? i wld be even happier if u cld at least tell me what u r so unhappy abt me, in face? or msn i dont care. but anyway, i thank u for making me wake up from all these, and i hope the friendship dont just end here by this thing. i am serious okay! i guess nobody see flaws in themselves and always think they are right, i admit sometimes i am like this too. and thats why i feel so wronged when u sae that. so here i sae sorry to everyone whom i pissed and BIG THANK U to u. i am not being sacarstic, thank u (: and this song is specially dedicated to 2nd half of 2/7, cos thats the song that kept ringing in my mind and i feel super irritated if i dont show it to you all. esp you...

All about us
They say don't trust you me we us
So we'll fall if we must
Cause it's you and me
And it's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about (all about us)
All about us
That's a theme that they can't touch '
Cause you know what
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about (all about us)
All about us
Run away if we must '
Cause you know what
It's all about us (it's all about us)
It's all about lies (it's all about us)
You the one I can trust (it's all about us)
It's all about us

If they hurt you they hurt me too
So we'll rise up won't stop
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about (all about us)
All about us
That's a theme that they can't touch '
Cause you know what
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about (all about us)
All about us
Run away if we must '
Cause you know what
It's all about us (it's all about us)
It's all about lies (it's all about us)
You the one I can trust (it's all about us)
It's all about us

They don't know
They can't see
Who we are
Fear is the enemy
Hold on tight
Hold on to me
'Cause tonight

It's all about us I
t's all about (all about us)
That's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause you know what
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about (all about us)
All about us
Run away if we must
'Cause you know what
It's all about us (it's all about us)
It's all about lies (it's all about us)
You the one I can trust (it's all about us)
It's all about us

It's all about us (it's all about us)
It's all about lies (it's all about us)
You the one I can trust (it's all about us)
It's all about us
It's all about us

and u make me realise its the last thing with 2/7, 2nd half, lets work hard cos its about us. we wont destroy the name of 2/7 drama.

anyway this was the post i saved this afternoon, somewhat huiying hoped that i post it. hah! i find ourself super dumb.

hello everyone. i am just here to announce that I AM PISSED WITH HUIYING! the aim of this post is to apply what i just learned from lang arts and oso to express my piss to huiying. i am pissed with huiying because i am pissed with people who laugh non stop and refuse to let me get piss with her. we can see that huiying laughed non stp from the journey from 2 seven to the com lab and we can see that she refuse to let me get piss with her from the conversation which quotes " why are u pissed with me!" by huiying and oso " Sheena: i am pissed with u and i shall blog abt it. Huiying: STP IT!" from this we can see that huiying refuse to let me get pissed with her hence explaining why i am pissed with her. all this provide a good arguement as to why WE shld be pissed with huiying and here i shall end my coherent and SEE paragraph. thank u everyone ((: i know huiying feel hurt but nvm. i shall let her express her thoughts now HUIYING: AWWWW I FEEL SO SADD!!!!! ))))))))'=

2006-09-11T21:52:00.000-07:00

I AM DAMN PISSED NOW! and i am serious. this is the worst thing that can ever happen cos i have been pissed since morning till now. let me tell u, i know this is not just abt me. its abt us. and u know, i dont think u freaking care too. cos apparently i think my reason is more valid than yours, and who give u the right to criticize me when u yourself arent anywhere better. u know what? i dont think u dared to do that if i had not told u i was going to cos apparently u still seem to be able to go on that day when i told u i cant. and if ur reason was so valid then let me ask u, u promised to go for which first? at least i told ON THAT DAY itself i had sth on, and u? like aft u promised them u cld? u shld go do some self reflection too okay.

its not just abt criticizing me, i dont mind u doing that. at least i DO know what u r unhappy abt, but let me tell u this, if u do realise, i am not the only one. and have u tried asking others why they couldnt make it? cos apparently u only manage to find out why i cld not go so u criticize me, right? why not find something else to do, like find out why others cld not? maybe they had more ridiculous reason! and i think mine is much better than urs. u know sometime its not just abt how U feel, cos u shld do some self reflection too and think if U shld feel that way. and guess what, the organiser herself didnt go, why wont u blame her? cos u r not close to her and she is not as nice to bully? or what! or do u just want to run me down in front of others. if thats ur aim that let me tell u CONGRATS u manage to. are u happy now? apparently i dont know how i ever offended u but i seriously think ur attitude sucks too. u think u r great? u think u contribute a lot? then ask urself, how many times have u let ur cca down.. go think abt it. and now let me tell u this, it not only concern u, it concern the WHOLE cca. go think abt it.

and let me tell u this. a BLOG is meant to be online diary. and what is a diary for? to let u express ur feels and thoughts, to make u let out ur emotions so that u wont breakdown someday, not a stage for u to act happy and excited the whole day. everyone have their sad and happy moments, i am a human too and i have emotions as well. i cant possibly be smiling and laughing whole day, if i do, i must be a super POSER or a LUNATIC. and do u expect me to tell u abt how sad i feel? well.. even if i tell u u wont understand, and do u expect me to confide it all to just someone or everyone, somewhat some feelings just cant be expressed. so i used the blog. is this SO scandalous? let me tell u this, if u dont feel like reading, skip that paragraph, or u can jolly well just leave this place and come back to read when i post sth happy. if u want to read, then pls just shutup if u feel pissed cos its my diary and my feelings. cant i express it? its not assif i am doing any harm to u right? maybe u have not gone through this, thats why u dont know how miserable it is, i just hope one day when u do this, no one will sae that of u, cos i know u will feel really hurt. btw. i dunno if i am supposed to feel glad that u come to my blog? cos u seem to know everything in my blog but apparently no tags or whatever, if u want to be a mysterious person who comes here, please continue being mysterious and dont make a noise.

i am seriously disappointed in you. i really treated u as a friend, but i dont think i can ever confide in you anymore, cos apparently u dont seem trustworthy to me. i am sorry if u think i am running you down but what u did really disgusted me and make me very irritated. actually, i dunno why i cld feel the tears welling up too when i think abt what u say. maybe its because i trusted u so much and now that i see how u r behaving, i am really disappointed. i dont mean u cant get upset with me and my actions but pls, think abt what u r doing at the moment before u run me down and criticize me. i rly thought u were a nice person, a good friend, one who cares, but i guess that was all act. actl to tell u the truth this is not the first time i am so disappointed in you, and i know its not the first time u run me down, but i always accept it cos ur reasons are so valid and u make me reflect on my actions, but this time, i cant cos i think u need more reflection than i do, at least i dont let my cca and FAMILY down. and i hope u know why i sae family. okay maybe in ur eyes u didnt let ur family down, but what abt cca? dont tell me u dont. if u sae u dont, go search ur soul, and i hope u find the true ans and stp deceiving urself. know what? i really hoped i dont know all these, cos i dont wish to change my impression of u. even though we still wld be friends, but i guess that part of trust is gone and hard to get back again, cos its not the first time and this time, i am rly disappointed. somewhat i feel that i have just lost a good friend on a sunday night when i saw that.. its rly hurting if u dunno.

okay whether u see that or not, i just wish to say it. anyway lets talk abt sth happier than. actl its nth much. i just feel super stalked these few daes. like ytd we went to the china ambassador thing, then performed. and btw, the journey on the bus back to sch was super horrendous, i think i almost had concusion cos the bus was so super jerky i cld not even rest properly on the seat. then winny spied my hp and read my msg! haha fine its nth much. i know i cld trust her (: then angeline said that she didnt like shanchin. aww! haha fine, everyone have their own feel. then we went to northpoint. we went to macs and i had lemon lime juice. somewhat i am very into this drink recently, esp lime juice. its freshens u up okay (: esp when i am in a so dead mood aft laughing and playing the whole night before sun with hern and jialing. so i guess limejuice does magic cos i was super awake then (: and we started creating a farm, angeline went through lots of stages in life before she became a pony. she was a cockroach, then a caterpillar, then centipede, then cow, then changed with winny to be a cat and finally a pony. i am a nice poodle (: haha fine! thats sound spastic but poodle are linked with PINK so its kind of cool i guess (: then we went to take neos cos winny wanted and that was when we felt stalked by this all black grp of guys. like from head to toe all black. its like where we go, we see them, winny was super freaked out okay. but angeline being kind of slow and dead did not realise it. and once winny said they whistled when we walked past but i didnt hear. like whatever, not good and cool enough to catch my attention (: HEH! loser! okay i sound mean, but i was glad they didnt follow us home.
btw i am proud of myself. i manage to make the lousy scanner work and i was damn pissed at first, esp with shanchin trying to irritate me in the msn convo! i rly feel like boxing him but i rmb sandy sae we shld not be bad to MR CHINNIE SHAN. or whatever it is. haha.

then today everything was okay except i was kindof.. upset. but luckily there was dance with LAOSHI :D and eva was super nice to me today. heh. apparently i am not pms-y towards her (: i feel damn guilty if i was. heh. then eh.. i guess i ate truckloads today cos i just stuff a lot of guava into my mouth. out of point! anyway i went home with sandy then. then there was this sick man who keeps looking at sandy and i just cant stp laughing! haha then sandy sat his seat x) oh i manage to make sandy and bailu feel dumb! HAH (: so on the bus me and sandy were talking abt her mr chinnie again! aiya i feel better calling him shanchin. then we went to macs cos someone felt excited and hungry. she shld be glad there was still time before the tuition. so went there and i sat opposite this grp of cchy guys. which apparently is SUPER GAY u shld have ask sandy what happen. i guess they thought i am interested in them or sth. like WHATEVER! i was super irritated when i left. then on the bus i was training my abs cos apparently i laughed for like then 5 to 10 min journey? haha LARRY IS LOVABLE OKAY (: LOVABLE LARRY. alliteration! we can put the flower in the pot then the sun will shine on it. oh god! i shall go and prepare the test for sandy now. LARRYLARRY! EVERYONE LOVES LARRY (: i feel super high now. i shall go get more food to make myself settle cos when i eat a lot, i will feel guilty and get super quiet. heh! oh ahma make dumplings. coolman!

2006-09-09T16:08:00.000-07:00

its 2 hrs more before i leave home for causeway to meet bailu and jialing to go victoria theatre. we are having dinner together. i wonder what are they going to eat but i feel so full cos i ate a 1001 food today. but talking abt food, its nth compared to twinnie ytd. u will freak out upon knowing what she ate.

so.. yesterday i went to np mac to study with twinnie from 9 to 6. hurhur. but its so obvious we are not studying throughout the whole thing lah cos u see.. its two of us. half the time we are rotting away. but still. i am quite proud of my work (: then we met matthias there. sandy finds the friend cute, i think the friend is super funny can! oh i dont like the zui quan person cos i find her face irritating. fine i am sorry.. so thats we did. oh ya! we called shanchin, or rather, we tried. and i realised we tried 11 times, but his loser phone is never on so we dont know abt the result yet. i hope they win sth (: okay then we took loads of photos too. apparently twinnie is editting some but she didnt send to me, and i manage to transfer my phone one to the com (:

see how hardworking i am :D
the big slacker of the year :P

twins love (:

magic of my life :D
and this is specially for you

ohwells, its just not the same anymore. even the way we talk. its like, even when we talk, sth seem to be between us that we can talk like how we used to. when u asked sth abt me, u chose to ask her instead of me when i was just there. am i that scary? i didnt ignore you okay! its more like u r avoiding me. but ohwells, i guess it may be better like this. cos the awkwardness will stp us from talking, it wld be better if we stp talking right.

one over and there comes the other. i hope u really didnt appear at 288. like what he said, or if you did, i hope ur purpose there was not like what HE said. whether u have really been there or not, i hope you stp doing that cos it can change nth. its not that i am rly against u or what, and its even more not abt her.. its abt me. somewhat i just dont feel right when i do that, and the feel is not right too. somewhat the essential thing there seems to be gone, so stp these foolish actions, whether u rly did it or u intend to do it. but i hope none of it was ever true, cos it wld make me feel nth but bad. she has been talking abt u, and i know she didnt mean it but u see, no one feels good when we talk abt it but that seems to be the easiest thing to talk abt. i didnt mean to feel or look so irritated, but i just cant help it cos i dont like to talk abt it. she say i was harsh and bad to you, if i am then i am sorry. i dont think i sound any nicer to him, do i? if yes then i rly apologise but i just hope you wld not go on with this. i am serious, and whether its true or not, i am still sry.

2006-09-04T22:57:00.000-07:00

hello sad blog. i am back..again. because daddy is only going overseas tmr so i get to use you again. are u feeling sad? cos you have to tolerate my stupid character and my endless flow of how miserable i feel. but too bad. u cant run away. cos u r the only one i can confide to apart from twinnie. and i know how miserable u feel as well.. i pity u.

well i guess i shld try posting all the bad stuff first so that i will feel better later when i end with the happy? things. well its nth much..its just that. today i was telling twinnie a lot of stuff on the bus. throughout the whole journey i was talking, they were all funny and happy stuff, but indirectly linked to those ppl, which indirectly link to..ohwell. then i told twinnie abt the conversation and the consolation you gave.. twinnie say u r a sweet and nice person. i think so too, but i hope you are not one. i hope u wld just tease me and make fun of me like what u did aft that, cos it wld make me feel better than. at least u will sound like you dont care.. but again, i somewhat hoped that u do care. and when you do care, i hope you dont. i know i always do that, when this happen i hope for that, when that happen i hope for this, i nv ever learn to treasure even aft i have lose sth i treasured most. can someone pls return it back to me.. cos it has been gone so long and i cant find it back again..

its so irritating! i want to blk the whole world now. cos everyday i wld see at least one of u online. i dont want to see anyone. i want to live alone. at least like this i wont lose sth and regret it for life, at least like this i wont have to speak to anyone abt it, at least like this i will not lose anything, at least like this i wont see you, and i wont feel the guilt and sadness anymore. cos like this i need not be blamed anymore for anything that happen, i wont need to face you and feel like i let the whole world down, cos i can just tell the whole world openly i did nth wrong, anyway i am all alone..

i dont wish to be seen as the one who broke it, i dont wish to be seen as the one who came in btw, i dont wish to be seen as the extra one, and the bad one. i nv once want to hurt anyone, and whenever twinnie talk abt u. i can see it in her eyes, i can hear it in her tone, i know she is feeling worst than anyone else, and when i heard it come out from her mouth, abt the other girl, and when she told me abt ur nick, i feel so bad to her. now i feel bad to her as well, cos its hard to not talk abt u when she talk to me and the others, and when she was asked abt ur nick, i wonder how she answered it. will u pls stp this and tell the truth.. and i am sorry twinnie. whenever i see you cry, u make me feel sad too ): i am really sorry for all ur misery, whether u still feel it for him or just guilt, i am still sorry. sometime i hope u r not always there for me, cos when u r, it makes me feel so bad to make u listen to me when u urself is alrd so miserable. and u always listen to me while u keep things to urself, and when u cry i cld do nth much except stand there and sae dont cry, i know i am quite useless. i just received ur sms saying happy talking and good night with a smiley. i dunno how to reply u. to say i am not happy talking? or not? in fact i am not. but given ur character i know u wld feel guilty if i say i am not, when the problem dont lie with u. u r just like this, always thinking abt others before self. if only u were a selfish twinnie ): cant u be a bit more selfish?

this is so terrible, cos apparently those tears are flowing down like dunno what and daddy is just at the other side of the room. everyone is always so nice, unlike me..horrible person who brings nth but troubles. even those who i let down, who i make feel miserable are nice to me. pls ppl, scold me now.. dont be so nice to me, cos i am so not worth it. fine i dont wish to continue anymore. goodbye. i know if its not u blog, it will be twinnie, i am sorry twinnie i make u listen to me, and sorry blog i always use you to say it, somethings are better kept within self. but with u and twinnie arnd, its quite hard... if only nice ppl dont exist. and you! stp telling me both of u can only be friends, cos i hope both of you wld be more than just friends. STP TELLING ITS JUST FRIENDS!

a lot of happy things happened, but they dont seem to be able to fight those water from the eyes. i shld try...okay NUMBER 1. we had dance.. laoshi praised me sometimes (: hoho and lianghui made me laughed. and laoshi told me what i shld improved too. then suikim made me laugh too. everyone smiled to me and talked to me, nth bad happen. happy? no effect. fine..number 2. we had lessons in sch. remedial for history, ms koh said a lot of stories, qianqian weiyi added some colours to my phone. i got to know a new parrot. nth bad happen, i even got to enjoy free aircon. happy? fine number 3. we had choral and drama night practise. a time with classmates, my nice and frenly classmates, we laughed and joked, happy? okay nth else. i guessed its sth quite happy, i listed out 3..

okay i shall dedicate a paragraph to twinnie, though she wanted a post, i feel too lazy to post then post again. sry twinnie, i know i am bad to you. anyway i just want to say thank u for always being there for me these few yrs, i rly didnt regret knowing u and i wonder what will happen to me one day without u by my side. i was just wondering, if i didnt know u 7 yrs ago, what wld become of me now. most probably i wont have so much colours and laughter in my life, i wld be a lonely soul who goes home alone, a pathetic girl who got no one to talk to. u have been a most precious treasure in my life, even the world's most precious gem cannot compare to u, and i was glad get to know you. life has been most fun and colourful with you arnd, cos u nv fail to make me smile when i am bored, make me laugh when i feel sad, make me feel loved with ur retarded sms, make me entertained with ur phonecalls, make me feel not lonely when i take the bus, make me feel impt when u wait for me so long just for cca to end, make me feel treasured when u sit with me in macs, make me feel great when u listen to my nonsensical nonsense. twinnie i just want to say, I LOVE YOU! i seriously hope we wld still be together even till all our teeths drop, then we will sit on the swing together to watch the world if both of us are too tired to walk, and we will hold on to each other, support each other, there wld be no need for walking sticks.

2006-09-03T23:49:00.000-07:00

hello blog. i think u will be glad to hear this, mummy and daddy are both going to be overseas soon, which means i wont be back here so often, which means u need not be needed to show my misery anymore. u must be feeling terrible and irritated to see what i typed in you everyday right, actually.. i am sick of it too. ohwells, its a break for u then, i shall type it for now or else it wld be a long time before i type in you again.

again..today i feel not right. the worst part was the journey to cf, when i was alone on the train. and even when i try to keep myself so occupied at cf by dancing and dancing, i still could not get it out of my mind. whats worse, after hearing winny, i felt even worse. actually, i envy her, at least she is not the one to feel guilty. fine i am so bad.. i actl envy her for that.

last night..we talked again. once again, your concern came flying to me and i cld see the caring you in my mind.. somewhat, you understand how i felt. somewhat, you seem like the only person in the whole world who can console me properly and make me feel it. that one line..that one line from you, its that one line that rly make my heart drop. why can you understand? if onyl you dont understand, if only you scolded me for doing sth wrong, instead of saying that line, if only you said i deserve it. if only you were like the past, where u wld make fun of me and make me feel bad, but somewhat u always know when to show the real concern and when to make fun. if only you dont know when to.. i wld have feel better. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND AND SAY THAT!! I DONT LIKE IT! do you know...

then tonight. i see both of you online.. one stayed long..one went off soon. well, i guess it was good, rather than you talk to me and i start thinking abt 7 yrs ago. and now you come again..and go.. twinnie told me YOU are in china, what on earth are u doing on my online list. i want to disappear now! cos u were online for so long... but now that i want to see you online, you are gone.. thats what you are...come and go...appear and disappear.. in my world..in my heart..in my mind..in my life.

i am sorry...i really am.. and i hope you know it..

2006-09-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

i have a lot to say! fine i am not really so excited. anyway we had the cf ex-student gathering today and i guess it was quite...screwed? i admitted i was quite bored too even though i was walking arnd cos no one is interacting! needless say those others. many ppl left before it ended and it ended before time. anyway i was damn pissed by SHANCHIN! i feel like smacking him man. but nvm he is quite nice lah i must say (: except he mocked at me because i had to sell tickets. then i saw daniel. as usual he made fun of me. clara say she wanted to smack his head. how i wished she did! but luckily he left early (: but before he left, he still made fun of me. its quite glad to know that i wont see him until new year (: or maybe i wont see him during new yr too ((: oh btw ah i passed yiyin her tickets and i heard from dunno who she is happy abt that? she said i diao her on thurs WHEN I DIDNT. i am so scared of her can! then xinying made me wave to her which made her quite happy i guessed.

anyway nth much happen except it was quite screwed i guessed. twinnie cried. i guess she was troubled over that again. sigh! OH. i was forced to smile to shanchin cos he said i looked fierce when i took the paper from him so i did a curtsey and say thankyou to him can! for whatever reason i was very polite and i think his huaping friend was very amused. BLEAH! i was forced to. and what made me most awkward was... i saw him. as in its not abt seeing him. cos i see him often but he told me to talk to him and i didnt. well i guessed he cld sense i was quite busy cos i was walking here and there. but he kept staring. do i look weird?

then i saw kaisheng. HE SLIMED DOWN CAN! haha i think i am so clever cos i cld recognize him when clara his classmate cld not (: ohoh! sth happen btw winny and the s (: HAHA! its so super funny. no one expected him to be so ZIDONG. i took a picture of it. too bad my screwed phone cannot send it to winny. but i took one with winny phone and it was quite blur. oh then i left before the whole thing ended. i feel sorry and guilty ):

me and sandy wanted to go buy sweet but the loser shop was closed so we didnt manage to buy ): then that whole gang was sitting outside and he was staring again. as in not stare but i cld see his eyes looking over at times. dont ask me why i cld see cos it so happen that i look there he looked back. then sandy said she had to go toilet so we went in sch and i waited for her at the gate. then shanchin came to mock at me again! he said i was lonely. i am so not okay! i am being nice to wait for others. so sandy came back from toilet and we together with huiying went outside to sit again. as usual he is there. somewhat i feel weird when i see him. ohwells.

then kexin went home and eunice went with us to northpoint. then we walked and walked randomly cos eunice wanted to buy her cap but apparently the nice one was dirty so she didnt manage to buy. we went to buy bubble tea and i scare euniceching! haha i feel so accomplished okay (: the chocolate snowshake had tea taste so me and twinnie decided to dump it. then we just walk and walk until twinnie and huiying left. me and eunice then went to longjohns to eat. we shared a meal (: and bought this potato thing which tasted quite nice (: so we sat there for like 1 hr? eunice was telling me abt erhem...and this was our main topic for the day.

oh we saw songrong and friends and longjohn. i did a face at him. i guessed that was quite mean x) haha. i just felt like it. then i felt bad cos he is quite nice to me lah so i turned back again then he asked me why i did that, then i did it again and said i felt like it. i dunno why too. haha! but i know he wont get angry ((: eh but i said bye to him when i left okay! i am afterall not quite mean. then me and eunice went to macs to eat icecream. again we talk and talk. its quite amusing i cld talk to her abt such stuffs too. i was trying to persuade her not to be so mean and i hope she listens to me (:

then i went home alone.. thats the most saddening thing you can ever imagine. actually i think i am becoming more and more terrible cos apparently when people are around me, i thought of it too. i hope it doesn't overwhelmed and kill me someday. its really taking over everything in my mind. its like, even when i was walking abt with sandy huiying and eunice in np, i was thinking abt it too. i thought abt what twinnie told me when we were alone outside, i thought abt the dream last night, i thought abt the smses, i thought abt the past. twinnie told me i shld not feel guilty and sad towards this, but somewhat, i cant. i still feel guilty, even aft what twinnie said. i wished what she said was true, so i wont feel guilty, but somewhat i hoped its not true, cos..i dunno? twinnie said that was not sth i shld feel sad and guilty abt, but its the other one that i shld.

i rly dunno. its like, i still think abt the dream. its rly weird why it was you i dreamt of and not the other one. maybe because i was thinking abt you before i slept, because i saw you the day before and it brought back so many stuff, because twinnie told me abt what she felt abt you. i rly hoped what twinnie told me is not true, because i dont wish to have my view of you changed. somewhat i dont wish to think you are like this, though i once suspected. and when i suspect you, i feel bad again. if only you had not appear, and leave such a huge impact in my life.. i recalled the letter. even though it was a dream, i forced myself to slp just hoping to see what is in the letter, and the things in the letter was so sweet, yet it sound so unreal. well..wake up sheena cos its just a dream.. i guessed i am quite numb to this alrd cos i cld feel the misery and pain but the tears just wont flow. they refuse to get out, and i feel so stuffed up, if only i was like twinnie, life would have been better. i guess..its time to wake up.

the music is playing..the lyrics sing 'i never had a dream come true'..why this song i dunno too. somewhat i dont like this song. cos that night..it was this song playing. i thought abt twinnie words again. its you..you i shld feel sad, regret and guilty. ur impact had been a huge one. u were the one that made me shut the door, that made me hold on to sth for so long. ur appearance had changed everything. its like even if i didnt see you, only hearing them say, i cld feel the misery too. i wld think of that night. i feel liek the stupiest dumbest person on earth. and whats worse, i know u shld hate me. but the relationship between us now is so not right. i rather we nv talk again, but then, u r the only one who can understand me and make me smile. among all, u r stil the one. sometimes i ask myself, what do i really feel for you now.. and i cld never give myself an ans. whenever i thought of just as friends, they callin out ur name in front of me wld make me think of the past. i rly wish to tell u this, 'talk to me no more'. but i cant imagine the life without you cos if that day come, i wld never see the smile at night on me. cos u r the only one who wld stay with me till night, to allow me to confide, to make me feel i am not alone. but i know, u r no longer mine, and that is sth i wish i nv had to accept..

i feel so numb by the two of you when another one came. in fact on thur i saw you. but it was only a while, so it didnt affect me much, except made me feel kind of..weird. and today, its today, all about today. i suddenly feel so bad towards you. cos when u tried to talk o me, i run away, cos when u look at me, i turn away. and when i look again, when i want to talk again, you were not there. what has happen since then. its a diff story from p1 to now. sometimes i wonder if ur cheating me, but i just let myself get cheated. you are a story i hid deep down since p1, no one knew abt it, until today when i met you again. the story of p1 came back..its since p1. occasionally at night you appear, but dissappear so quickly again. you are just like a bubble, before i cld grab, you are gone. i so wish to tell twinnie abt you, but i am afraid..because its been so long, i know it wld bring so many things back i am scared i will just breakdown. even though i never mention abt you, but u r the one that made me feel most guilty towards. more than any of the two of them, cos u r the longest, and i can never make out what is the feeling i am feeling at the moment when i see you. somewhat, you are like a diary to me, because when i see you, i see my life seven years ago. i see the me seven years ago. because you are the only one i kept deep down, no one knew abt you, not even twinnie. i cld tell no one abt you, but feel it myself. and because its so long, its so hard and miserable to keep it to myself alone, but who can i tell.. twinnie is tired enough i know. why do both of us have to land up like this?

is this gathering supposed to be a entrance to the world of sadness, because the whole world seems to shut when we see each other. i thought of what angeline say.. i saw what winny typed. how much do i feel towards you..what do i feel towards you? like angeline says, many things are just but dreams, and the hardest thing is to wake up from it, esp when i am so tired by this now.

I AM A TERRIBLE PERSON! I AM THE WORST PERSON ON EARTH! and now.. i feel so numb..so numb.. someone pls wake me up..twinnie where are u when i need you most...